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WTTT Headcanons but they Get Increasingly Worse/Dark
If you are uncomfortable with neg of WTTT, please just scroll
This is how we (alters) are coping with source trauma
If you want dark headcanons, you’re allowed to submit asks - if you have limits, include those
This will contain talks of harming self, others, cheating, drugs, death, religious trauma, familial trauma, etc
READ WITH CAUTION
List of examples of what can be traumatising to a child:
car accident
natural disasters
fire (house burning or close building)
CSA
kidnapping/sex trafficking
religious abuse
physical abuse (also seeing it being done to someone else)
unstable parent's mood due to their mental illness
divorce of parents
constant family fights/arguments
loss of a family member (death) or a pet
belongings being thrown away or losing them somehow
getting lost
bullying at school
bad teachers
dangerous neighborhood
war
undiagnosed disorder/mental illness that makes you struggle with everyday life
being neglected
being forced to do shameful and weird things
being silenced
medical trauma - being ill, malpractice, hospitals, pain, being scared of a medical examination and more
constant stress
being extremely controlled, not given any privacy and being trained to obey, living up to too high expectations, parent who doesn't let you form identity by always demanding to be someone they expect you to be, not letting a kid decide on anything - programming
strange and not stable rules at home
emotionally unavailable parents
having no good examples while growing up and looking for them in movies/shows/books and even animals or abusers
self harm (yes, kiddos also do that)
being exposed to adult content too early in life - seeing parents having sex, watching porn or adult movies (also horrors) and being told explicit details of sexual stuff
believing in paranormal, being scared by something unexplainable
nightmares
being embarassed by someone for doing something especially publicly/in front of others
absent parent (always busy or never knew them)
language barrier, migrating
manipulation, lying, gaslighting
overprotecting
isolation
making a kid feel small and stupid because an adult always knows better
offending a child constantly or laughing at them
threatening
having well known parents (yep, celebrity kids can be attacked by paparazzi and it can be traumatising)
lack of education - health, sex, school etc.
racism
moving a lot during childhood and switching schools
forcing a kid to eat
forcing a kid to lose weight, fatphobia, being denied food
puberty, dysphoria
caregivers not believing what happened when being told
too loud environment
having to raise younger siblings
loss of a friend
going back home and all room or house being remade
not explaining anything to a kid so they are always confused or have to guess what you have on mind so they observe and adjust instead of thinking what they want
poor sleep patterns
boundaries not being respected
going to the funeral of someone and seeing a dead body
hamrful ideologies, being forced into politics
being forced to take care of yourself from the early life
being adopted (yup)
Sorry I didn't add some more complex or trauma that touches teens more than kids. This list might be updated later!
Dream
thank you for help - @fleurvoidteacollective @miscellaneous-snark and @snakily-snakes
As promised - post about symptoms of a system being in a toxic relationship:
some alters not fronting around that person due to fear (not talking about alters who usually don't front due to those reasons around anybody - those who are scared of everyone due to past trauma - just being afraid of a certain person due to specific reasons)
symptom holders having more symptoms than usual
splitting a lot of alters - especially functions that are related to the relationship - protectors, trauma holders, people pleasers, persecutors etc.
alters "leaving" the system as they can't handle the situation (fusing or going dormant)
amnesia, worse memory issues
having more panic attacks, anxiety, being stressed
going mute or splitting mute alters
fawn response acting up
alters show up with wounds in head space symbolically
alters become masked in head space symbolically
inner persecutor punishing alters for staying in a relationship saying they either mirror what is happening outside to process trauma as they believe you deserve it or because they want you to understand the situation is toxic and leave etc.
there's chaos - system doesn't know if they want to stay or leave because brain goes all ways at once - some begs to stay (favorite person, traumabond, don't remember/know you date an abuser as they are cut from memories) and some try to break up, run away, hurt themselves etc.
whole system changes to fit the relationship better - who fronts more often, who never, who acts differently, the amount of alters shrink or go higher
you start to see your partner like the abuser - mistake them for the abuser, have flashbacks and are triggered by the behavior constantly
alters become asexual and aromantic due to trauma, just repulsed
alters are programmed, act like during hypnosis, never let anyone say something wrong about the partner, act mechanically/atuomatically etc.
working on your traumas harder and faster or else you feel like a burden/problem while they don't do the same for you
being ashamed/uncomfy of who you are as an alter in case partner might make fun of you like animalistic behavior or littles etc.
Other symptoms less related to DID - TW:
constant fear towards your partner
crying all the time
pseudoepileptic seizures due to emotions (conversion disorder)
being exhausted all the time
having more nightmares especially about SA and physical abuse or running away
depression, being numb, lacking emotions, not wanting to wake up in the morning or going to sleep
being unsure of the relationship/partner
overexplaining yourself
acting too submissive towards someone to prove yourself
feeling hurt few times a day by someone's actions/words
feeling like you teach your partner, even basics, like they aren't grown up enough, have no emotional intelligence or maturity, you have to tell them every single thing - how it works and what to do - even common/basic things, begging for respect or bare minimum, waiting for your partner to finally learn, remember, help, support you and it takes months even if those things are super important while they somehow remember minor and less important things
always feeling like you have to apologise, especially with sexual behavior (letting them fuck you, pleasing them sexually, sending nudes to keep them), or else they will still mad at you even if they hurt you first - always feeling guilty
always hearing excuses (especially illogical) and constantly wasting time to understand them and forgive
taking care of your partner's needs and focusing on them, showing effort with nothing in return, caregiver alters end up having to take care of your partner more than the system
feeling of unfairness in a relationship
not having any time nor energy for yourself, feeling their obsession and wanting to hide/run away, flight response at all times, being isolated by their jealousness etc.
being scared to say NO or pointing out what someone did wrong because they either get offended and punish you with silence, yell, run away, ruin your stuff, hit you, go into extremes (I will never do anything again) or make weird jokes that are hurtful to you - either because it seems they try to punish themselves or you with them
Toxic behavior of a partner (both DID and not):
only focusing on sex
partner never being serious/deep, making you feel uncomfy during intimate moments as they either laugh or make rude comments and not supporting you enough
partner never wanting to do anything for fun with you
partner always laughing at you and criticisng everything about you
hot and cold behavior
only showing effort when you try to break up
high demands while not giving effort
when you're tired or ill - you're useless to them
them always wanting to be better than you in everything
only persecutors being wanted because they give someone adrenaline or can be blamed later, being provoked
only host being wanted
only sexual alters being wanted
partner often asking for specific alters to front, especially if only for sex
whole system being seen as one person when they want to be seen as individual alters and treated as such even if it's about their basic needs like touch or avoiding some subjects/triggers
being triggered on purpose as a punishment or for fun or for certain alter to front
them giving short responses and never having time for you
them focusing only on fun aspects of a relationship
them showing you love but only through their love language then say they try so hard for you while never understanding/learning your needs
them giving you empty words and promises that don't fit their actions
them always saying "they only joked about something" after hurting you or that you're too sensitive
them saying every touch means you want more (sex) and demand you to do that
them never being affectionate - just sexual
manipulation, gaslighting, lying
whenever you have a problem they will make a bigger problem
them asking for an alter to be gone from your system or never front
them forcing a split
them treating your fictive as a character
them trying to program certain alters, make them not trust others, force them to keep secrets from each other, act certain ways to please them or using your program against you
them asking to keep everything about your relationship in secret
them not wanting to open up about basics, especially demanding you to guess things and being mad you didn't or later being angry you don't focus enough on them while they avoid questions
them always being chaotic, never answering any questions nor explaining their behavior (never say anything on their own) so you always have to beg/force them to at least set some boundaries, worry all the time or overthink all your actions in case you might do something wrong while they act illogically and chaotic then even blame you at times for not knowing they changed their mind and why
them not telling which alters they love like they don't care who is fronting, who they date, who likes them as their feelings don't seem to matter to them
partner gets jealous of in-sys relationships
NEVER AGAIN
To anyone who is using youtube without blocking adds. There's this one specific add about childhood trauma quiz that immediately sounds like an argument, yelling people, either victims or abuser - please, be careful and stay safe. Whenever you see something like this and can't skip - turn off the sound!
I have no idea how to report an add but I wish we did - still, we felt so bad emotionally that we couldn't think about such thing at the moment. If you know how - report it, please...
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Abusers aren't fully evil. I wish people would understand that most of them aren't going to look ugly, treat everybody poorly and abuse you at all times. If it was the case then nobody would be a victim and even if then they would be sure it was wrong and escape fast. Sadly abusers are usually the best and the worst person you're going to meet. Mostly because they're super aware of their wrongdoing so they will set a trap on you then use everything they can against you to use and destroy you but also not let you leave. You will blame yourself, you will try to fix things, you will focus on pleasing that person without even thinking about escaping. This is the real abuse that happens. From parents who look like the best mom and dad one could have or maybe from a partner everyone else feels jealous of because all they see is a mask such abuser created. Sure, there are those who aren't aware of being abusive or are trying to change but still either have bad traits or coping mechanisms that harm others so they feel guilty about this - those are also not talked about enough. You can also abuse with good intentions! There are plenty of ways to harm somebody. Most of those people still won't be seen as villains out of many various reasons. That's why instead of telling you what is or what isn't abuse or explaining how an abuser might act I want to tell you one thing - even if someone didn't mean to be abusive... your abuse is valid. You still can hate them even if it was by accident, you still not forgive them even if they weren't aware of how it affected you, you still can escape even if they apologised and changed, you still can feel hurt even if someone wanted to help - all of this is your experience. It matters. You matter. They don't have to be a bad father/mother/ex to hurt you. It still did. Take care of yourself first instead of trying to save them. It's their responsibility to be better. You can explain, discuss, try to make amends but never if they're not going to take responsibility for their toxic behavior. It doesn't matter if they are mentally ill, been traumatised or going through a rough patch in life - you're not a punching bag - emotionally or physically. Some actions are not mistakes nor misunderstandings. You can't always try to understand and excuse them even if you want to be accepted yourself. I know that nobody is perfect but it doesn't mean you have to deal with constant harm to prove your love towards somebody or that you're a good person yourself. You probably wouldn't do the same to them so why would you tolerate it?
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