Just saw your post on that nauseating feeling, we both know the one. I've always felt that so intensely (it causes me anxiety of thinking back to that feeling), and then immediately feel guilty for feeling it cause I've always interpreted it as jealousy. What do you interpret it as, and how do you deal with it? I need advice, since I'm not ready for all the acceptance posts on fb coming up soon.
When I see how people I know are doing, the ones that are currently in school or sitting on a few acceptances, I feel pangs of regret mainly. I think back to every single mistake I made in college that led me to be out here in limbo. If I had done this -> I’d in be school. Over and over and over. Sometimes I’m salty about seeing certain people make it because I’d be like, how the fuck did they get in?? But I was looking at the list of current students and for the most part, I respect all of them. I can’t even hate on them. So most of my negative feelings are internalized.
I've been dealing with this by working so much that I don't have time to dwell on what others are doing. Spending time honing my craft means that I am actively preparing to become a physician, just like others I know that are in school. I don't feel so isolated or behind when I think of it that way.