Jun 6
there's this specific kind of exhaustion that doesn't show up on any diagnostic - where you're technically functional, technically fine, but something in you knows you've been white-knuckling it for so long that "okay" started to feel like winning. survival mode colonizes your sense of normal. it rewrites what you think you're allowed to want. coming back to yourself after that isn't dramatic, it's just... quiet, and deliberate, and real.
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