There just so much bad in the world that I feel like I am drowning in it. Last night I watched a YouTube video of a real crime which I won't even describe but it destroyed me. Every day, every month, every year get worse and worse.
I just had one silver lining. Anticipation of new Supernatural episodes. I haven't watched season 15 yet, I want to do a marathon from first episode to the last when it all comes out for one last hurray.
But I did watch convention videos on YouTube tonight for couple of hours so that YouTube algorithm stops showing me real 911 calls and news of horrible crimes. Anyways, it made me realise that no matter when Supernatural ended the spark of Jensen, Jared and Misha will light up my days to come.
A fan said something that made me choked up. She said please never leave us. We won't leave you. So please don't leave us. I think we all changed something so fundamental respectively that it is impossible.
I might have not actively involved in the fandom and failed to make friends because I am incredibly socially awkward but, I love everyone who are part of this family I built around my heart to warm it up. I am not brave enough to participate in Gish but, I love what people achieve. And I am so damn proud of this fandom.
I guess there are still things worth looking forward to.