#suno

Writing songs about how you hurt me

And playing them on loop for hours

The pain is all I have left of you

And there's a sick pleasure digging my nails into it

The relief, the exhaustion

At least I feel close to you again

Running through alternate timelines

Exhausting every dialogue tree

Trying to find the good ending

Manufacturing a new you out of the scraps that I have left

The taxidermy corpse of us

I'm in a committed relationship with our breakup

I crawl into bed with it every night

An extra blanket cradled to my chest

As I kiss my broken promises goodnight

Finding intimacy in your absence

Learning every contour of the space you left behind

I'm just so lonely when I'm not missing you

I've been wearing your ring on a necklace

Twisting it around my fingers

And pressing it to my lips

Remembering every beautiful and horrible word you ever said

And whispering them back to myself

Puppeting the memory of you

Reciting your excuses

And comforting myself in your voice

Writing metaphor after metaphor

Endless ways to say "I'm not coming back

But I'm never moving on"

Never processing the pain

Never healing the wound

Just dressing it up over and over again

I'm still wearing your ring on a necklace

Twisting it around my fingers