#sunandmoonshowkin

. Moon, The Sun and Moon Show.

looking after and playing with kids is fine but it's pretty nice to do whatever normal stuff humans do.... except college, it kinda sucks and stress-y

host (and technically us too?) is currently on break and we're just making the most of the two months before we're yeeted back to doing work lol....

i kinda miss my brothers though.... and all that advanced tech i used to have when im still a robot and not like this and in here, yknow, would be nice to have that now we have to shove so many formulas and info in our brain

- lunar (sun and moon show/lunar and earth show. this part is always way too long srry bout that)

feels a bit surreal to know that im younger than the kids in the daycare but it makes me feel better when i know im smarter than them anyways hehe >:3

--lunar, from lunar and earth show... and/or the sun and moon show, since that's where i started, but, still

My fucking ONLY FAMILY MEMBER i trusted died?? Aare you fucking kidding me??

And Earth just fucking sobbing and crying.. I just

Why can't we just be happy???? Ii know it wouldn't make for good content but I just want us to be happy for one fucking month?? Is that too much to ask??,

- Lunar, Sun and Moon Show / SAMS kin. -

while yeah it does make a certain gator feel better, but it just... makes me feel a bit worse that the two people i consider as close to me just.. forgot that i was dead? like, i get it that they have a lot of things going on, but death?

it didn't help that things got significantly better while i was gone. yeah, good for them, but i feel like i missed that little shooting star miracle that made a bit of weight lift off their shoulders.

i still dont feel better after being brought back.

i dont get how i shouldn't have stayed dead. it's easier than healing. anything is easier than healing. i dont want to remember that day. out of all the memories that i lost, why couldn't it be that day.

i feel like a coward running running and running but i dont want to stop either. i feel like a broken record just asking, worrying time and time again that the death i wish for so much would come back

and i cant know for certain that it'll be worse than the first

—lunar from sun and moon show.. or the lunar and earth show? i mean i was initially part of sun and moon's channel but eh

I just died. I just died in canon. After everything, it feels like it's over. I wanted a redemption arc. Killcode got a redemption. Bloodmoon was killed, but even he felt like he got to keep going. It feels like I'm over. That hurts. I don't want to see it, because then, will I remember it? They go on about how I deserved it, but what gives them the right to dictate that? Even when I took a life, I never went on about how Lunar deserved it. Or is that just my memories? Or am I really that bad of a person? Maybe I need to try to unshift for a while, if that's even possible.

Just because I have trouble understanding things doesn't mean I am an "UwU innocent little bean"????