Have you ever been through anything?
No I haven't blogged lately but things were going well and then two days ago hit it was a day like no other perfect with my perfect boyfriend and friends and my boyfriend is the one thing in this world that I care about and the one thing that keeps me going it seems like. Anyway it was a day like no other and was amazing we followed each other to our classes we hugged and kissed and then he went home and then he came back to pick me up and take me home when we kissed made out we held hands and everything was perfect and he came inside my house and help me with my backpack and everything and then gave me a hug and said he is going to go home and work on homework I didn't think anythingwas going to happen but I was very mistaken I thought it would just be a normal night like we text and FaceTime me. He said he'd text me first when he got home so I don't want to to bother him but now I regret that. Now I just want more than anything is to be able to help my arms around him. he is my rock and my best friend and everything to me and he tried to take his own life. I had no idea and it hurt more than anything I thought we were in love and I thought everything was perfect didn't know how much it was hurting him or how much he truly needed me and I feel awful for that. I need to focus on him and love him I know he's going to be the one for me for the rest of my life. He's my baby and I need him and he needs me now I'm going to be there for him no matter what girls may say or what evil people will try to put in his mind I love him and he is loved. I just want him so bad right now he's past days not talking to him and not being able to see him becaue he isn't allowed to have visitors and I can't do it much longer I don't care where he is how far how many hours how many minutes how many seconds I'm going to see him soon I have to I'm never longed for anyone this bad. I know I have to be positive for him that's why I can't tell him any of us because I need to be his rock he needs the positivity and he needs the love that I know I can give him.
