I have to remind myself that my rage towards Albedo isn't justified much too often. My anger should be directed at Gold, my mother, my creator; not the creation that took my place.
It just isn't fucking fair. I did so much right. All of the effort I put into being a good enough human being went to waste the moment she told me she was making a new humonculus. I had to watch her make him, and then she fed me to Durin. Sometimes I wonder how many more of us were in there with me, and if I carry their resentment as well as my own.
Because I feel so much fucking resentment, and I struggle to point it at Gold. I don't have the words to explain how angry I was when I emerged from Durin's heart and found out that Albedo was still around. Not only that, but that he was doing well, with friends and family that cared about him. I was only allowed to associate with whatever knights or investors Gold let me, and he was just... and with a visible flaw on him, when I was discarded for physiological issues?
I know it's not his fault, but I don't know where she is. There's no way to take my anger out on her. In some ways, I am sorry, Albedo β for attacking your friends, and trying to take your place. I suppose I overreacted creating the Fellflower, but it was a fascinating experiment; I hope you at least recognized that.
- Ruby, or 'Subject Two', genshin impact fictive
Ps; my canonical death is bullshit and I can't remember if it's what happened to me. I get very angry about the idea of it, and I think it's for the best if I assume Albedo didn't kill me and bury me off screen. Otherwise this whole confession and apology is completely moot.
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