this year i started writing again for the first time in a looong time and it got me thinking
i started writing fanfiction at like age 11 but only started posting stuff around age 13 (on fanfiction.net!) for the NCIS fandom and i remember on every single chapter of this one story that i’d been writing/obsessing over in my head for like two years and finally got down on paper and posted this one anon would comment something they were super annoyed about/dissatisfied with (not even with my writing) but with the plot and where it was going????
they’d be like “oh wow, how original, of course tony isn’t going to tell gibbs he’s sick. congrats *rolls eyes*” or something along those lines
and like BITCH. stupid ass misunderstandings based on a dumbass lack of communication between characters is MY ULTIMATE FAVORITE TROPE AND THE ONLY WAY YOU’LL TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME IS BY RIPPING IT FROM MY COLD DEAD HANDS THANKS
But of course at the time baby me was like :( oh no my favorite thing IS played out, what am i doing? so the next chapter i like changed the whole thing so it would better suit anons tastes and this hoe STILL was unsatisfied
they were like “oh so now they choose to talk? when its convenient for the plot? what was the point of the last chapter???”
and my dumb insecure ass changed it AGAIN and AGAIN every single chapter to try to suit this random persons needs.
this whole entire post is just me thanking the lord i finally grew a spine and turned on comment moderation on ao3 and also that i really haven’t even needed it bc the fandom i’m currently writing for (9-1-1 tv show) is so incredibly nice and encouraging so thank u all so much
like listen, i dont mind constructive criticism but this is something i do in my limited spare time for fun and to indulge myself and i love sharing it with others who love reading the same fun overdone tropes i do, i don’t need to feel like shit for not being aaron sorkin