#studyingwithk

It's been a year since I moved to Lisbon, it's been an amazing year but since my last post I decided to take a break from social media for the last year to adapt to this new world, it was hectic, complicated but also I learnt a lot and met so many amazing people it's honestly insane. From becoming friends and smoking buddies with professors, falling in and out of love, to meeting people who were here for a short time but we did so much together.

But I realised that I was running away from being myself, I missed Tumblr and the people I met here so I'll be back now more often since it's thesis year and hopefully things happen and I can stay longer for my PhD with an amazing supervisor and meet more people who show me so many new perspectives and worldviews that I never really noticed or seen through.

This post is more of a ramble or a milestone post of coming back to a community and people I just left behind without saying anything. I have so much to share with everyone and to do at the same time. So from now on I'll be back to sharing the stuff I do. It feels weird to return out of the blue but I think it's high time I lock back into this!!!

4/7

Did I procrastinate the last week of June and then over the weekend draw up a whole new planning system with it's symbols and compiled it into a 6 page lil booklet for personal reference in the future...possibly....maybe...

Beyond that I started reading The Temple of The Golden Pavilion by Yukio Mishima and it's one of those books that are so hauntingly beautiful from the get go, I can see why it's one of his more popular books.

I still have a lot of stuff to get out of the way, especially when it comes to my project work, luckily with the filofax it's easy to organise tasks and from the get go a pretty efficient ecosystem starts to grow. Granted the only way it can exist is cause I need to have like other things feeding it lol.

Hopefully by the end of the week I'll be able to tick off some major tasks but until then it's just the hamster wheel of work.

20/6

My internship is almost coming to an end and my boss gave me a farewell project to end with a bang i.e. I get to let loose with my brain on the project! also he said since I've been one of the more productive weirdos he's had, he gave the ok on working on any future projects even though I am not part of the org anymore. Gonna call it a major w and ride the high

I started reading Hayao Miyazaki's 'book' (its a collection of interviews he's done over the years) and there's something really different about his interviews compared to like Werner Herzog's which granted are in totally different parts of entertainment, Miyazaki's is definitely more inspirational to writers of fantasy, fiction and animation in general. Herzog is more how do you do film making of the real world with the limited tools you have. I'm only on the first couple interviews but I have a feeling it can fill up my commonplace book quite a bit, hopefully in the same way "A horse at night" by Amina Cain did.

Speaking of notebooks I finally got done filling my notebook housing all my notes on philosophy and anything in that realm! I luckily had another notebook on hand and hopefully while I study I can fill up another notebook (which can help with thesis work... hopefully)

I have around 1.5 months before I leave for my masters, and I've been motivated to work harder solely by the student journal started by my department, its nothing major but it's definitely something i want to contribute to when uni does start!

4/5/24

Give it up for the mid-first week of may! (I nearly passed away cause of the heatwave and the rains are finally here which is a blessing !!!) Also peep the stack of books I have that are books I wanna finish before I leave (I am as the people say cooked).

I really did enjoy the book protest and survive that really taught me a lot on the American Nuclear war policy which I call lie and threaten, not that the erstwhile Soviet Union wasn't any better (during the peak of the cold war). But it showed how NATO skepticism wasn't anything new especially back in the 1980s. Nuclear war policy at the time was a mad dash of how much can we store in our nations and balancing sovereign military power and agency of being a country. If you ever snag a copy I highly recommend it if you like reading about people worrying about nuclear war. The latter part of the book has a heavy focus on demilitarization which was really intriguing, cause mainly because I haven't personally come across a lot of texts dealing with that topic.

Other than that I did finish Fanon's On Violence and it was every bit interesting I knew it was going to be, I'm pumped to get to the chapter on national culture. hopefully whenever I get to start Ted Honderich's "Violence for Equality" I have a solid basis to work with.

I am around 25% through with Ilan Pappe's book and I HIGHLY recommend reading it matter of fact read all his work on Palestine for a really good introduction to their liberation struggle!!!

Also before anyone asks yes Calcifer is on a date, and yes he is photo shy.

28-12-23

I have no excuse this time for being an irregular poster lmao, I was swamped with work and tis the season for anxiety striking cause of uni applications. I've been slowly working back towards reading more and being a more productive, post-fracturing my ankle a year ago, it really did take a toll on my productivity and work ethic. But now's the time to prep for the new year and new story arc.

Also, shoutout to my pen pal bestie for sending me that cute ass heart shape tea infuser it's honestly one of the coolest things I use rn and will forever use. Also, yes that is pieces of paper stapled together to be used as notes (got the inspo from a pin on pinterest and they called it used paper-core and ngl I love doing it and saving em too like lil memories and shi)

4/11/24

I have risen from the dead! I swear I say that everytime lol. My past 3 months in Lisbon have been eventful to say the least, I love the people I met from all over the world and in that short time we travelled to soo many different places together and sparked a happy that I think I'm gonna pick up more seriously from now on!

The masters program is such a breath of fresh air compared to my undergrad. Much more challenging but at the same time it's amazing to see the different ways people think and argue their points with their own logic.

I've been working on my blog and have been inspired to write much more than I did back when I was in my gap year and the doors for exciting new opportunities are slowly opening up which I'm excited to talk about once there's been more progress on that front!

25/4/24

It's nearly the end of the month and time is flowing in the worst way possible; on one hand way too quickly but on the other painfully slow. My brain for some reason is unable to process anything fictional right now and that means in my new delulu state I am gonna do the stupid act of focus on non fiction for sometime, is this smart possibly not, is it gonna be fun... definitely not. I think right now engrossing myself in fiction feels like a case of burn out and dedicating myself to getting to know characters and deal with stuff I find excruciatingly painful like romance (aro-ace flux go brr)

reading the stack of non-fiction books tho is helping with inspo, especially writing projects or atleast possible ones. But until then it is just me and my goofy notebooks.

I've been having a whole internal conflict wondering if I should get a traveler's notebook, mainly to house all my commonplace notebooks for random hobbies but at the same time the traveler's notebooks are to a locally made one, both are pretty much the same just one is ''from japan''. I might mull over it until I spontaneously throw my money at random products.

22/8/24

It's been less than a week post moving to a new city and I've found it a lot of fun, it's not been one where I've gotten work done but it's been eventfully uneventful of that makes sense