#studyblr rant

120120 Sunday

Today marks the last day of my winter holiday. Highlights of the day:

ice coffee that reminds me of the summer days

stunning sunset in a chilly january evening

so maybe the finals stress is hitting me rn

I haven’t done well on any of my exams in the past month so I don’t even know if my doing well on my finals can change the damage to my grades

I just feel kinda hopeless rn you know? like it’s so hard for me to grasp these concepts let alone apply them in such challenging ways

Been on a bit of a posting hiatus lately because I don't know what else to use a study blog for AFTER college... sure one day I would like to pick up schooling again (masters) but for now, I don't know what to make of this.

Instead, until then, I suppose this can make for a good PRODUCTIVITY BLOG. I've been on the hunt for a new job, learning new skills, and I miss the community so much.

Here, in between indeed and LinkedIn scouring, I'm on pintrest picking small pieces of what I'd like my 2019 bujo layout to look like. My favorite so far is what I call the full-out layout. Making my weekly spread clean to read on top, and engaging/colorful/interesting on the bottom.

This is a sentence that I have said a thousand times when speaking to a native english speaker. Now I don't, because I've realized that is not something I should be sorry about. I have seen hundreds of non-native english speakers say the same exact thing and it hurts me a lit bit everytime I read it or hear it because no one should feel ashamed or sorry about them speaking a language that it's not their own and that they are learning because it's not "perfect". Let me get one thing straight: it will never be. English native speakers make mistakes when they speak or write in english, I make mistakes in my native language, everyone does, so it's only normal that someone who speaks english as a second,third,fourth... language will make them too. The truth is we should be proud of speaking another language, of making that effort, of investing time in learning it instead of apologizing for not speaking it fluently or perfectly to a native speaker. No one (at least no one that is a decent person) will get mad at you, or frustrated, or make fun of you when you make a mistake in english. When someone from another country tries to speak to me or ask me something in my native language I get so happy and I actually feel so proud that they know the language, whether they now a lot or very little, because they are making an effort and I know how hard it is to communicate in a language that's not your own, especially when you know very few words. Never, in a thousand years, will I make fun of someone for saying something that's grammatically incorrect, or for misspealling it, or getting the gender wrong or not knowing how to pronounce something, and I know most people wouldn't either. Don't apologize, you have done nothing wrong, if anything you should be really proud of yourself for being a polyglot. So no, I'm not sorry about my english, I'm really freaking proud of it, mistakes and all.