#studdying

IT BINDS, IT CHANGES SHAPE, AND IT IS A CATACLYST FOR BIG CHANGES

Journaling 😝😝

More reading for the dissertation happening today. Two papers down and the library is so peaceful compared to the usual madness of a university campus.

Final day of revision until im back at Uni in October. In less than 3 hours my exam will have began and freedom will be that much closer!

however in my head Im a history teacher and if a student asked me what a wavelength was while I was covering a physics class I think I’d start sobbing on the spot.

VegaFruitTarts. #brainfood #studdying #fuueell (at Marlboro, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuE36I3nsco/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vxmn1cfidgrb

At the beginning of this semester I was so motivated. I thought ‘this is gonna be amazing!’ My plan was to finalliy study something and to really do my best. I will have fun with my friends, I will always be prepared for all classes and most importantly I go positively into all expieriences. Now it is exam season and I wonder where the time went? I did not half of the things I wanted to do. I wanted to go explore near by cities, have cosy cafe reading afternoons, I wanted to go out with friends, I wanted to have movie nights at home with my family and most importantly I did not want to fall into old patterns of not caring about school or uni or spending time outside of my room. But here I am... I don’t think I have talked to anyone other than my roommates in the last five days and I have not prepared for my exams at all. I did finish my term papers on time so far but I still have one left and I don’t even know where to start with that one. So tomorrow is my first exam. Today I finally sat down and studied. At the beginning of exam season (when I was apparently still motivated enough) I wrote flashcards for on of the two classes of the exam I have tomorrow. So I finally sat down and studied. And now I feel like I am prepared for one of the exams but not necessarily the other one. I went through a few sample questions and they would be so easy to learn by heart but here I am instead writing a blog post about how I don’t have enough motivation to study. Also this huge holiday just started and will last for the next week or so and I cannot really take part in it because I have 2 exams in the next few days... But whatever I am not bitter or anything! lol jk... I am.... Also the weather has been so unbelievably amazing the last couple of days and I ‘couldn’t’ go out because I had to study (tbh I mostly watched netflix.... fml).

The downside to studying is that my stomach is making its presence known that I skipped eating today unintentionally. The other downside is not having my headphones but honestly, it's been pretty relaxing without them since I'm on the floor reserved for intense studying. I remember going to #uiuc and dodging the security when trying to snack with @steffkreager . I am fortunate not to have experienced that here thus far. Ah the memories. #mcat #sociology #biology #study #studdying #premed #premedlife #ihavenolife #universitylife #university #college #midterms #stressed #notreally