#standuptragicomedy

beginning to think i didn't think this through because i have so much love in my heart that choosing favourite songs feels illegal. they're all my favourite (except for blood which I think is hilarious as a concept but would never voluntarily listen to it) however

vampires will never hurt you - they immediately peaked with this one i genuinely think it's in top 3 songs they've ever written on sheer technical creativity. the first 30 seconds send a spike of pure adrenaline through my body. i could lift a bus if vampires was playing in the bg. absolutely deranged choice for a first single yet absolutely in character for them. love that half the songs off bullets don't even feel like songs that are verse > chorus > verse > chorus > bridge > chorus. they're just stories set against the sicknastiest guitar you've ever heard. but vampires in particular feels like everyone is performing until they pass out the energy doesn't flag for half a second. perfect song. i could listen to it every day and not get tired of it

boy division - iconic from start to finish. the amount of time tourists walked in one me going absolutely sicko mode to this one on slow days is at LEAST 3. love how tongue-in-cheek the lyrics are wrt to legacy and image love that i have listened to this song approximately 4000 times since mid-july and yet i do not know half the lyrics bc someone will not enunciate. putting it after foundations on setlists is such a fun choice because it really doesn't give you a second to breathe. going straight from the healing and awe and resilience of being told to fix your heart IMMEDIATELY into IFALLMYENEMIESTHREWAPARTY--

the foundations of decay - i know i'm prone to exaggeration and hyperbole but this one is dead fucking serious. the first time i listened to foundations i was like oh wow new music! and i liked it well enough but didn't seek it out or really think about it that much the first few times i heard it and then during the summer i saw some fanart and thought oh hm maybe i should give foundations another listen and that time i heard "you must fix your heart" clear as a fucking bell like a bolt of lightning clean through down to the centre of me right when i was experiencing such intense existential dread about turning 25--an age i never thought i'd reach--and not having a stable job or future that i thought i would lay down and die from it. you must fix your heart!! and you must build an altar where it swells!! i just had such a profound experience hearing that lyric and i listened to just the bridge over and over again for a week until i could hear it like static in my ears even when it wasn't playing. you must fix your heart. if i remember and get over my fear of appointments i'm going to get this tattooed on my human body. i mean this forever.

mama - do not need to explain this one. ray toro i would fight god for you thank you for taking a dare to write a rock polka 100% seriously and as a result transgenderizing millions of people across the globe on a daily basis. also up there in top 3 songs they've ever written. screaming YOU SHOULD HAVE RAISED A BABY GIRL I SHOULD HAVE BEEN A BETTER SON with thousands of people would both fix me and make me worse. LIZA MINNELLI is there

our lady of sorrows - the childhood catholicism really jumped out with this one but in my defense stand up fucking tall don't let them see your back and take my fucking hand and never be afraid again. gay-ass epic of gilgamesh-ass punk song. i know the point is that it's short but also i wish it were 10 minutes long

okay jesus christ we're putting the looks under a read more because i'm going to end up writing a phd thesis on each of them and the good people who followed me for other things shouldn't have to scroll 10 km uphill in the snow to see other posts

i am limiting these looks to recent tour fits because otherwise we will be here for the next 7 years and i will end up burning all the hair off my scalp in another bad dye job SO let's watch me get embarrassing

I am ashamed to report that in a recent wip I apparently used hand or hands no less than twelve times. this is the first one:

"I'll ask again: do you think this is healthy behavior?” Mobius speaks slowly, gently, the way you’d address a wounded animal, like he means to administer some mercy and needs to keep him close and is afraid of spooking him. “Barricading yourself in here, watching these old tapes every night?” He holds out his hands, a peace offering.

okay but 

It took me like three eps to really get into it but now I’m on ep 7 and I LOVE it even though (I must admit) I don’t really know what’s going on half the time. Charlotte is so cool! Love her! Love Greta! I love Gereon, love to watch him suffer.

2) Who they want to please the most.

Honestly I think since he wants to please everyone around him, he’s a bit of a people pleaser. But when it does boil down to it he thinks that the most important person to please is ofc Gereon 

5) A cherished personal belonging.

I want to say that his notebook is the most important as we see how much time he spends with it, and how he draws and puts his innermost thoughts into that book. 

9) What calms them when they are upset.

Stephan is very good at calming himself by writing in his journal to get the thoughts out, or he will visit Rudi to just exist with him- last resort would probably be to seek out Charlotte or Gräf because he doesn’t want to be a bother ;_;

12) How they sleep.

Stephi comes across to me as a person who likes to curl up like a little cinnamon roll and hug his pillow when he sleeps and then sprawls out as he sleeps so that he wakes up on his back. 

20) Household chore they hate the most