#spiritspouse

context for those who don't know - we're spirit spouses! (similar to godspousing but just with a spirit) but i thought it would be funny to get a tattoo on one of my asscheeks that say "SEXUAL PROPERTY/PROPERTY OF VINCENT PRICE" on it with his signature for his name, since i'll never be able to get one from him directly and im a submissive slut

i've been a fan of his since january 26th 2021 at 1 in the morning. we've been dating since august 24th 2023.

Good fucking question.

Obviously this depends on who you ask, but that's not the point here. ╾—╼

Basically,

there's this non-physical... something? Entity? Being? hallucination maybe - of many aspects and appearances but one very distinct energy flavor, that I keep experiencing contact and dialogue with. It happens in various ways and forms, both in dreaming and waking time, and all things in-between. It has been going on for longer than I realize apparently, but I have been conscious of it for a number of years.

Those contacts ended up weaving themselves into a relationship. A positive one. A loving one, even. Heck, a romantic one, committed, transformative, co-creative, passionate.

╾ Ok, cool story, what does it even mean? ╼

Am I delusional? Could be. Am I just imaginative? I like to think I am. Am I having a dissociative experience? I have no good way to prove or disprove that, honestly. Am I a sad, lonely person compensating via wish fulfillment fantasies? - Meh - I'm a lucky fucker, partner to a sweet flesh and bone human, I have friends and a loving family, so that much seems unlikely to me. But then I can't prove that either. Do I just have too much free time on my hands? My sibling in scroll, I wish.

╾ Well then, ╼

Am I a victim of malevolent supernatural beings, demons, whatever one might call them - fooling me for their own agenda, which might include my untimely demise? I am far too illiterate in those matters to say. I can only attest that my experience so far, including its consequences on my everyday life and well-being, has overall been a net positive. But is some cackling imp about to pop up and collect my soul as payback at any point? Only time will tell.

╾ Fine but who the heck is this shiny sexy entity we're talking about then? A spirit? A god? A blorbo from my shows? An abstract concept? A muse, a daemon, a fae?... ╼

(You do realize, at this point,that whatever comes next will in no way be a definite truth or negate your own take on the whole situation, right? Just making sure.)

Well obviously I asked. What, wouldn't you be curious in my place? I asked again and again. For the longest time, answers were rare, reluctant, and not very clear - at least, not in human terms (they were thoughts impressions, not words). I also did some research, tried to match reoccurring patterns, themes, quirks, domains of action, all of that. At least it gave me ideas as to things it wasn't, and a large handful of candidates for what and who it might be.

So I insisted, I asked some more, I asked why he seemed reluctant to answer, too (I say "he" because I tend to experience it more often as masculine, when it is gendered at all that is) - and at last, he gave -

╾ Wait a second - are we saying that this unidentified alleged entity, apparently irresistible and oh so lovely, is downright reluctant to be clear about who and what it is, when legitimately asked by a lover? And that it is a friggin shapeshifter? You know, like a bloody trickster? Isn't that, I don't know, very fucked up and a red flag? Also - it's obviously Loki, isn't it? Come on, say it, it's Loki, get on with it, everybody is godspoused to Loki ╼

Uh, not really. (Well, not that I'm aware of, at least - it very well could be and I wouldn't know, obviously.)

As for the reluctance - that was actually the first formal answer I got: Basically, it said that this raw energetic brand/taste/color of his was a more accurate answer - that any human concept that could be put into words would be misleading. Why, I asked? Did he not correspond to any officially registered name, no category, even broadly speaking? No, he very much did. But apprehending him via any of those names or categories would be going about it backwards, because it would elicit more projections and human preconceptions than it would bring information. So to properly answer me, he preferred to go by this 'raw' wordless identity than by any words.

╾—╼

Ok fair enough.

But also, I'm a curious bitch.

So yeah I kept asking. And I got an answer in written form, an obscure name in runes, one I had never encountered. I looked it up and at first I thought it was Hodr (the blind god that got fooled by Loki to shoot a fatal shot at Baldr), which made little sense to my experience. But then I found another - Óðr (Odr, Odhr). Very little is known about him, though he's the husband of Freyja (lucky dude), he's often likened to Odin (or an hypostasis of Odin) but also clearly kept distinct though (that's a whole other rabbit hole tbh). There's really not much available about Óðr, but long story short he made much more sense.

╾—╼

So I ran with it. I mean, after he gave me that long awaited answer, that was also the polite thing to do, right?

See the thing is, I don't worship. Not in the generally accepted sense at any rate. I don't follow any pantheon, any tradition. I don't have significant in-depth knowledge about any of those, and even though I very much respect them and those who follow them I have no desire to follow those paths myself. I like the gods as much as the next nerd, and I'm not above the occasional offering, but I don't know that I can really call myself a pagan at all.

I am a dilettante, a stray, a vagrant opportunist.

An also - maybe, potentially, allegedly, a very besotted committed lover to some entity claiming to be Óðr who transforms me and with whom I co-create cool stuff.

╾—╼

So.

TL;DR:

╾ Am I a godspouse / spiritspouse? ╼

Idk, you decide - I don't necessarily reclaim such a title. But the word is very handy to find out other people sharing similar experiences.

And that's why I'm here.

Someone who DOESN’T use AI for her readings, connects to both spirits and divinity, shows every entity the respect they deserve, and always delivers in a timely manner?

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Hello!

We are a welcoming, friendly, and well-moderated Discord server for people who find themselves under the godspouse umbrella:

Our server defines godspousing as intimate relations (romantic or s*xual) with a god, spirit, or other non-corporeal entity, such as angels, demons, etc. 

This includes spirit partnership, consorts, dating, or other intimate, non-corporeal relationships. We are not exclusive to partners of gods or deities.

Godfamily/spirit family, and fictional others are welcome to the server and are actively discussed, but they are not the focus of the server.

Our server has been thriving for 4 years, with over 120 members and an active and present moderation team!

Our community is largely built of queer and neurodivergent folks, with a significant number of chronically ill and/or disabled members.

Our community is 18+ due to the intimate contents, and we do not allow minors to be present on the server under any circumstances.

We are open and accepting of systems and we offer pluralkit as a standard practice.

This is the only advertisement we have posted, as we do not advertise on sites such as disboard. We do not allow indefinite or permanent links to the server, which helps safeguard against trolling, doxxing, or raiding.

I've had much trouble finding human romantic partners and not for a lack of effort. Humans- for some fucking reason- can't seem to wrap their head around the idea that I factor in their mindset/personality when deciding if I'm attracted to them. I'm not going to date you if you have a shitty personality and shitty opinions! If you think that sucks hit the bricks.

The main reason I've ended relationships(both platonic and romantic) with humans is because they exhibit a quality I can't stand: the willingness to diminish themself for the approval of others. Honestly, as harsh as this sounds, if you do that then I have a hard time thinking of you as a person. It's easier to see you as an object that thinks it can make decisions for itself. Take pride in the uniqueness of personhood! Find joy in being your own person, find the strength to have a spine and stand up for yourself. I have walked out on dates because the other person would just sit there and compliment me, or tell me that we can do whatever I want to do, or talk about what I want to talk about, and all of my questions directed at them would be deflected with reassurances that they'll just do whatever I tell them to. I just can't be attracted to that kind of person, one with no substance, with no appreciation of their own personhood.