#sparkgod

HELL YEAH THANK U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

citing furman as like some kind of scholar on this is so fucking stupid kung pow penis buddy move on

You know, I like how throughout this whole “Arcee is now suddenly trans” debacle, I’ve always stopped shy of saying “I don’t like this and actually find it horribly, horribly offensive and awful, and that means you’re not allowed to like it either or take anything away from it and you’re transphobic if you do.”

I love the idea of trans woman Arcee. I wish it didn’t come at the cost of agender he/him Arcee, but even seeing that little sliver of unintentional representation way back when was a big deal for me, and the thought that Barber!Cee is helping some trans woman out there in the same way keeps me from puking on my own tongue. 

thanks i hate it

i’m a former friend of ray’s and i never got directly involved in the drama. my main involvement was to be there to give words of support when the drama was going down because i was worried for his wellbeing and did feel like he had good intentions at the time even tho he was going about helping the wrong way.

i also talked to him about cronus but he’d nitpick and criticize my headcanons even tho im also uncomfortable with rapist cronus. he seems to violently disagree with any cronus portrayal that is not exactly his while claiming he wants to befriend other likeminded cronus fans. so, if he wants to be friends on the basis that you’re a gold star cronus fan ™, watch out.

he did keep pressuring me to go make callout posts for you and the others, and i always found reasons not to do it. again i basically just wanted to help HIM because i could see he was going thru some pretty awful stuff and wanted to help him without supporting his methods.

i also want to apologize for enabling the guy because he’d say a lot of ableist/violent things and i pretty much kept agreeing with him because i was scared of the way he’d attack people and did not want to become a target myself. i’m sincerely sorry for my contribution to the drama, and i hope that you and everyone else involved is staying safe throughout this ordeal.

also there’s some things i’ve accidentally done to make the drama worse and i’ll elaborate in a second submission. that information would easily allow him to identify me, so i am keeping that part separate in case you want to publish this. also i’m sorry about being very vague in this post but again im afraid of him coming after me.

we thankfully did drift apart without me getting on his bad side, so i did make it out of there safely. the point at which he started publicly posting graphic violent fantasies and untagged gore images was what finally knocked some sense into me. it also became increasingly more evident that his good intentions had devolved into cruelty. he was caring less about survivors and more about having control over others.

tl;dr: i fucked up by enabling him and i apologize for being a contributor to this drama. i’d like to share my experiences interacting with him to make sure no others end up in my situation.

[holyyyyyshit, anon. i’m so sorry! he is awful. if he retaliates against you for sharing this, please ping me ASAP so i can step in. although i’m feeling like, at this point he wouldn’t dare. but if he does. 

if you want to come talk on kintsugi, you will find a lot of people there who will also back you up. no pressure, but after reading the second submission, i’m kinda dying to talk to you more.

I travel a dusty old road There was a time when I was youngSome have to see to believe itA hundred years we are bound on this spellWe're blind and eager. 

Songs:

“Tanelorn” by Blind Guardian

“Poetry for the Poisoned pt1″ Kamelot

“Sight for Sore Eyes” Broken Iris

“The Day the Falcon Dies” Lunatica