#sourei

"Hey kid want to make a deal? It will only cost your soul!"

"I ain't touching that thing, you on your own!"

"Here is my headshot"

i woke up this morning and thought about a SouRinRei "Road to El Dorado" AU, then i blacked out and spent 6 hours drawing these

Throughout the series, we can see that shogi is a means to survive for Rei. At first, he played shogi because of wanting to spend time with his father, but after the accident, he held onto it as a meaning to live. He has said that without shogi, he is nobody.

Trigger Warning for Major Character Death

Sousuke’s heart was pounding in his chest as he raced through the hospital corridors. He had received the call at three in the morning, Iwami General Hospital and a woman’s voice telling him horrible things, telling him there had been an accident, telling him Rei’s name.

Rei. It had been months since they’d seen each other, months since the last knock-down-drag-out. Rei hadn’t even come to get his things himself: he had sent Nagisa and Haru to do it for him. And now he was in the hospital, and Sousuke had so much to say to him, and damn it why were there so many twists and turns in this hallway?

Sousuke reached the door at last, skidding to a halt in time to see a bed piled high with more tubes than man. His heart stopped.

“Rei,” he whispered, taking a step into the room. “Rei. Rei.” A short, stocky man stepped in front of him with a stern look on his face.

“I’m sorry, sir, but visiting hours are-”

“I’m Yamazaki Sousuke,” Sousuke interrupted. “I’m his emergency contact.” And god knew why he still was, after months apart, why Rei who was so very detail-oriented had never changed it over, had never stripped Sousuke of this final curse-privilege-obligation. The man checked something on his clipboard and nodded, stepping aside.

“He’s in a comatose state,” the man said. “I’m afraid he doesn’t have much time.” Sousuke nodded, anything to get the man to shut up, and stepped into the room.

Rei was so beautiful. He had tubes sticking out everywhere and a breathing mask over his face and dark circles under his eyes and a cut on his forehead and he was so, so beautiful. Sousuke sat down in the chair by his bed, too afraid to take his hand.

“I’m sorry,” Sousuke whispered, and it was like a dam broke. “I’m so sorry,” he sobbed. “I never should have let you go. I never should have let it get so bad. You were right, I was a shitty boyfriend. But please, Rei, you have to give me a chance. You have to pull through so I can prove to you that I’ll be better. I don’t deserve it, but you have to give it to me. Because none of us can live without you. Please, Rei, wake up.”

There was a soft beeping coming from one of the monitors, the rhythm of Rei’s remaining life. It stuttered, and Sousuke was filled with a confusion of dread and hope, hope that his words had gotten through to Rei and he was obeying, dread that this was the opposite. He watched Rei’s face as the stutter continued, and then fell flat.

He didn’t have time to cry as the nurses and the doctors rushed in and ushered him out. He didn’t have time to process what had happened. He didn’t have time to realize that this was it, that he would never see Rei’s smiling face again like he had secretly dreamed. All that existed in his mind was the flat tone of Rei falling asleep for the last time.

He found his way out of the hospital and down the street in a daze. He knew in some part of his mind that he should go back, that there would be paperwork to fill out, that there would be people to call and plans to make. He knew that he should call someone, probably Rin, that he shouldn’t be alone just then. But instead he kept walking.

On the subject of outdated memes, I’ve crawled back up from the depths of hell, that is, I’ve been thinking about rinrei and I hope you are, too. After skimming over my unfinished fics, I realized I don’t like how I approached the characters and how I wrote some things (hah no surprise). I feel like I had a warped view of how a m/m friendship to romance should work out, and how male characters think and feel and act, everything was just really full of shitty yaoi tropes and racist stereotypes best unlearned and forgotten. Of course I enjoyed writing the way I did at the time, and I don’t regret it, I think I’m hilarious still, but as I grow and learn, I feel like my fics should reflect that. So I will continue some fics but give up on others (for the foreseeable future). Here’s the list!

Continuing...

1. Hell and HIgh Water (Rinrei, my magnum opus, my sistine chapel)

2. Rei x Senpai samurai series (what it says on the tin although I don’t remember what the conclusion was lmao)

Not continuing

2. Still Can’t Wait (Rinrei)

3. A Mistake You Don’t Regret (SouRei)

4. Something New Something Natural (Harumomo) (it’s basically done though)

send me a ship and I’ll tell you:

Who’s more dominant:

Sousuke, mostly due to size. Rei’s not very confident in bed though, and that plays a huge role into why Rei’s submissive in bed. In situations not involving sex, they both fight for dominance in situations. Rei’s too concerned with what Sousuke finds pretty trivial and vice versa. 

Who’s the cuddler:

Rei. Sousuke’s the only one who’s ever seen this side to him, but Rei’s surprisingly very gentle and loving in private, when they’re just relaxing and enjoying each others’ company.

Who’s the big spoon/little spoon:

Sousuke, due to size and warmth, is the big spoon. Rei doesn’t mind being the little spoon though. 

What’s their favorite non-sexual activity:

They will sit together on the couch and watch Netflix. Rei will have baked something semi-sweet for them to snack on, and Sousuke will find something they both like. Sousuke’s in charge of tea too. 

Who uses all the hot water:

Rei, but because he’s an early riser. 

Most trivial thing they fight over: 

Who gets to cook dinner that night is something they can get a little heated over. Why can’t you two just cook together? It’s because they want to treat each other. 

Who does most of the cleaning:

Rei does, definitely. 

What has a season pass on their dvr/Who controls the netflix queue:

Sousuke mans the Netflix queue. 

Who calls up the super/landlord when the heat’s not working:  

Rei. 

Who leaves their stuff around:

Neither of them really, but Sousuke is more prone to it. 

Who remembers to buy the milk:

Rei’s got a list. 

Who remembers anniversaries:  

It’s so sweet that they both remember, huh?

Who cooks normally:

That’s... what most of the fights are over. ((Sousuke wins))

How often do they fight:

Pretty often, though nothing major ^^’

What do they do when they’re away from each other:

Rei checks in on him over text messages. Sousuke is fine doing the same thing. 

Nicknames for each other:

Rei calls him Sou. There’s... really nothing that Sousuke calls Rei other than his name.

Who is more likely to pay for dinner:

Sousuke~! What a gentleman.

Who steals the covers at night:

...Sousuke... what an asshole. 

What would they get each other for gifts:

Rei will get Sousuke practical things. He likes to buy heating pads and cooling packs for him, as well as water bottles and stuff Sousuke can use. 

Sousuke knows how much Rei likes to learn. He takes him to museums and buys him material there.

Who kissed who first:

Sousuke kissed Rei first!

Who made the first move:

Sousuke... with that kiss. 

Who remembers things:

Rei does, especially where they’re going.

Who started the relationship:

They both did ^^

Who cusses more:

Sousuke

What would they do if the other one was hurt:

Rei’s very by the book about things like that. He’ll take Sousuke to the doctor’s office if it’s a necessity, and once he’s come home the aftercare is super strict too!

Sousuke’s much the same way ^^’

Who is the dirty talker:

Souuuusuke

A head canon:

“らいおんろぐ4“  by  黒まふらー

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