Whether you’re my friend, siblings or family, you might have notice some strange behavior regarding the way I’ve been lately. I want to formally apologize if I’ve seemed disrespectful towards you in any way. It wasn’t until yesterday that I’ve realized how negative my behavior has been towards people and things in my life. I want to take this opportunity to come clean about a few things. These past term I’ve gradually became a more depressing person. On top of the constant stress from academics, I’ve also been under a lot of personal pressure from the various emotions that control my brain.
It seems almost silly that something that should not be significant to me, has such a great effect on not only me, but those around me. Due to personal reasons, I’ve been suffering from a great lack of sleep and constant depression. I was told yesterday that I’ve recently became a more angrier person. In my own opinion, that is almost an insult to me because that is just the complete opposite of who I am. I always try to be as happy as I can be because I believe it’s a choice. To be told that I am constantly angry, really put me at a distraught state of mind. I have just been over thinking almost everything with a negative attitude, and it’s been tearing me apart since April.
However, things seemed to turn for the better yesterday when I was told that making so many sacrifices, for absolutely nothing, is definitely not worth it. I’ve been putting so much of my time, blood, sweat and tears into an investment that will definitely not be rewarding to me. And so reader, I realized what’s important to me, and what’s not worth my time. So if I’ve wronged you in any way, or took my anger out on you these past few weeks, I’m extremely disappointed in my own behavior. I want to formally apologize, I’m sorry and I promise I'll go back to being happy Alex over time.
