#sorrowsdead

𝐌𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥

Sometimes my days feel unbearable and slow, when I’m depressed and have my darkest of thoughts and my loneliness is closing in on me my days are so slow and today feels like forever and I could stare at the walls forever and still feel the aching pain in my heart, it never leaves and I go about my day just feeling it, at this point I can’t even ignore it but just go threw the nausea, headaches and tiredness. It’s only a couple hours into my days and I feel so weak and sleepy. But I can’t sleep and that’s the hardest part. I’ll just think and think, sometimes it’s good thoughts and other times there scary but I don’t stop thinking, I keep thinking about them till I’m on the verge of tears and then I sleep. Keeping myself busy isn’t enough anymore, I’m ruined and that’s all I can feel going threw every part of my body. But that’s not even the worst part for me. My anxiety and paranoia feel like the walls that I’m staring at our closing in and I can’t breathe, just feeling that I’m being watched, the feeling of never being good enough. I feel like I’m being eaten alive and all I can do is watch. I’m so tired of just watching, I’m tired of being alone, of being quiet of the pain I feel.

Our love is for eternity.