time flies way too fast
29.05.2024
i went to the gym for the first time in a year! only hit the readmill this time, but i got my heart pumpin', and that's all i needed. i really wanna try some strength exercises sometime soon, maybe if there won't be as many people.
focusing on my life one step at the time makes my days feel longer, and yet it also makes me feel like the time runs by so fast. in the midst of my plans, routines, appointments, meetings, i keep losing track of how long i've been doing things for. what date it is. i forget people.
yesterday was my darling's and i 4th anniversary. we honestly both forgot about it... we still managed to spend time together and we got to make plans for the weekend, so that's nice.
last sunday i went to an art group meeting and spent a few hours with total strangers. and yet, it was still peaceful and nice. drawing in nature with others made me feel like i belong in a community.
i met with my dad on monday, we had coffee while commenting on programs on tv. i showed him my favourite furniture makeover youtube channel too.
my friend messaged me today, asking how i've been. i know keeping in touch is hard for her, just like for me, so i really appreciate that. we want to go on a little walk, to identify bugs and flowers in our area.
being busy can feel great, it makes me feel productive, but i need to remember to not forget people around me as well. they can be draining to me, they often disrupt my routine and make me feel exhausted, but i can't separate myself from them completely. i need to remember that in trying to be better, communication with others is an important step.
