Different (Angst, Smut, and Fluff)
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Word count: 7k..... super long I know but it's worth it I promise:)
Warnings: There will be smut in this story, so if you are uncomfortable with this sort of graphic writing, then do not read this fic. Swearing, fingering, oral sex(female receiving), loss of virginity, praising kink, soft!dom!Draco, unprotected sex, wizarding world protection;). There will also be some angst, insecurities etc. This is by far the LONGEST FANFIC I've ever written, but I'm very very proud of it so please read and like it:)
Summary: Draco is the school fuckboy, he's screwed just about every girl in your year, except for you. You refuse to give into his games, refuse to be just another of his girls that are all over him, they all crave him and his skillful touch. What happens when you do give into him? Will you be left with a broken heart, or will he?Â
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Draco Malfoy is the school fuckboy, everyone knew that, especially all the girls in your year.
You didn't know how, but Draco had managed to fuck just about every girl in your year, and a few of the girls in the year below. You supposed it was due to his charms and charisma, I mean he was unarguably attractive if he wasn't such a dick.
Draco had a new girl clinging onto his arm every other day, meaning every other day he had successfully managed to get another new girl in his bed, and he did it all with a smirk plastered on his face.Â
From what you heard he was a sex warrior, he would have you on your knees, begging for more, he would make you feel good in all the right places, and he would certainly get you cumming more than once in one night.
You didn't really understand why every girl was begging to be in his bed, especially because so many of them complain about the lack of aftercare he provides. Unfortunately, he doesn't seem to care, why would he? He gets a new girl every week, so why would he need to care about any of them when he has an entire line of them waiting? After all, he only uses them for his own pleasure. Once he finishes, nothing else matters.
You had heard of Draco's infamous rules during his sex sessions, I mean he only had one to keep the girls in line.Â
No kissing.Â
He believed that it only led to impractical feelings of love, which was useless to him. You were sure he had fucked more girls than he had kissed, which was a tiny bit disturbing to you.
You couldn't deny, he was very good looking, and you always had wondered what he would be like in bed. There was always one thing stopping you. The thing is you've never had sex before, yes, you're a virgin; and you wanted your first time to be special and meaningful with a guy who loves you. You didn't really want to lose your virginity to a guy who has shagged every girl in the room.
You scanned the room and looked at every girl currently sitting in your divinations class. You could probably bet a couple million dollars that every one of them had been in Draco's bed at some point of their time at Hogwarts. It disgusted you. Even Hermione at some point confessed to you that she had slept with him, which took you by surprise as you always thought she had better judgement.
Chatter was heard through the classroom as you all waited for the second bell to ring, signaling the start of first period.
You looked up at the doorway, waiting for your friend Marie to come and occupy the empty seat beside you. You had been waiting for about ten minutes in class looking at the doorway waiting for her to walk in.
As you continued staring at the doorframe, a familiar head of blonde hair appeared in the doorway, you knew exactly who it was, and you groaned at the sight of him. For the past few weeks he had been trying to convince you to get into his sheets because apparently he had 'already fucked every girl', and you were the last one he needed to complete his list. You watched him with disgust filled eyes as he once again had another girl hanging off his arm, Astoria. He had already slept with Astoria before, but you guessed he was going for second rounds since he had nobody new to fuck.
Draco and Astoria sat down in the two seats behind you and you tried to ignore the fact that he was probably smirking at you from behind.
"So darling, have you considered my offer?" He said in a cocky but soft tone.
A few days ago he had made you on offer. Your friend Amelia had told him about how apprehensive you were in having sex for the first time, so he came up to you to give you a deal. I guess he took that as an opportunity to finally tick you off his list of girls he's slept with since you were probably the last one. He told you that if you did decide to sleep with him, he would be gentle since he knew it was your first time. At first you gave him a glare because you didn't buy that Draco would ever be gentle or soft, but he seemed so sincere about it. He was so adamant on it that now, you were considering the option. I mean you were probably the only virgin girl in your year and it was quite embarrassing to some extent. But at the same time you were a bit grossed out about losing it to the school fuckboy.
But surely if he promised to be gentle, everything would be alright?
"Draco I told you I'm not very enthusiastic about losing my virginity to the school player" you deadpanned as you turned to face him. "Plus I want to have it with someone who will treat me well"
"I told you I'll be gentle. I know it's your first time"
"Draco that's not what I meant. Someone who will treat me well and not throw me away after one use"
"But darling it will benefit the both of us. You will have the time of your life and I can tick you off my list-"
"See Draco that's exactly what I mean. I'm a person, not a checkbox. I want to matter to someone is that too much to ask? Now shove off."
You were annoyed at him. Could he not see that girls wanted to be treated like people and not trophies?Â
"Y/n that's not what I meant I-, just give me a chance I promise I will make it memorable for you. You're not a checkbox you're right, but I do just really want to give you a wonderful first experience." He admitted as he looked into your eyes softly.
He was very convincing. Scarily convincing. Maybe it was because you were a little bit desperate, maybe it was the embarrassment kicking in, but you were considering his offer more and more. You just didn't want to be another one of his girls.
Draco on the other hand wasn't lying. He did want to give you a memorable and pleasurable first time. But he would never force it on you, even if he wanted you so badly. He didn't know why he was so drawn to you or so desperate to get you to fall for him, maybe it was because you were different. Maybe it was because you didn't give into him, like all the other girls. It was your attitude and your morals, that drove his feelings towards you. If he didn't know any better he would have thought he had maybe a slight crush on you. He couldn't deny that he had thoughts and dreams about you, not just sexually, but simple and sweet things, like holding your hand on a date to Hogsmeade, kissing your lips before he goes to sleep, hugging you when you needed his support. He would never admit it though, that he was falling for you .Â
Of course he didn't just want sex with you for some stupid list, he just had to tell you that because he didn't want anyone thinking that he had fallen for a girl who would only deny his every offer. He wanted to be your first because he didn't want someone else to be, and it was selfish, so utterly selfish of him, but he wanted to be the first one to elicit those beautiful sounds from your mouth, he wanted to be the first one to make love to you, he wanted to set the standards high. He wanted to make sure to treat you like a princess, he wanted you to know that you meant so much more to him than a stupid list.
But he was a coward, he could never tell you that, he could never tell you that he only fucked other girls to satisfy his love lust for you. Pretty much every girl he ever screwed was only to get his mind off you, and more times than not, he would imagine you as the girl anyway.
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Draco was doing some potions homework when he heard a frantic knock on his door. The advantages of being a prefect was having a dorm to himself, which was why Draco usually got away with having so many girls in his room.
"What the fuck" he mumbled to himself. It was 7pm, everyone should be at dinner, why would someone disturb him at this time?
He walked up to the door and opened it only to find you standing there playing with the hems of your hoodie looking nervous.Â
His eyes softened at the sight of you.Â
"What are you doing here y/n?" He asked with a gentle voice.
"uh-" you looked down at your feet. You had skipped dinner because you were feeling hot, as in horny, and as much as you tried pleasuring yourself, you couldn't help but think that Draco could do it better. You had decided to take that offer, but you weren't sure how much you'd regret it later. " your-your offer, I was thinking about it, and I think I want to do it, with you " you stuttered a bit embarrassed.
Draco stared at your nervous figure with wide eyes. Was this really happening? He saw your hot and bothered body and realised that you must be horny, that's why you came to him, but he didn't mind, the girl of his dreams had just confessed that she wanted him to be her very first. He played it cool on the outside when on the inside he was totally freaking.Â
"Y-you want to do it? Right now?" He asked a bit surprised.Â
"No! I mean yes, I was just feeling horny but if now isn't a good time then-"
"NO- it's okay now is fine, uh just give me like five minutes okay..." he was definitely freaking out now, what was wrong with him? He's so experienced, why is he all of a sudden feeling nervous and doubtful about his own sexual abilities?
He shut the door in your face suddenly and you were confused and a bit hurt.Â
Behind the doors though, Draco was a mess.Â
"She wants me to fuck her? Gosh what if I'm not good enough for her first time, what if IÂ hurt her?"Â He was making a mess out of himself as he set up his room to set a sensual atmosphere. He charmed some rose scented candles and placed them around the bed, and he casted spells to litter the floor and bed with flower petals. He dimmed the lights and panicked a little bit before composing himself and opening the door again, not wanting to keep you waiting too long.Â
"Draco uhm, I was thinking this probably isn't a good time, and you're not ready either, so uh-"
"No y/n it's okay I just set up the room for us... unless you are changing your mind about things, then that's completely okay I don't want to pressure you into anything." He trailed off and you peeked into the room.Â
You gasped softly and covered your mouth with your hands as you saw the romantic layout of Draco's bedroom. It looked very beautiful. Draco watched your expression and smiled at you, his stomach always did flips whenever he saw you happy.
"Do you do this for every girl?" You asked, a bit hopeful that he had done this as a special thing for you.Â
"Oh... Yeah definitely"Â Of course he didn't do this for anyone else, he just wanted your first time to be really special and to make sure you enjoyed every second of it.Â
You grew a bit disappointed with his answer, but what were you expecting? He probably didn't see you more than another girl he could seduce into his bed.Â
Draco took your hand gently and led you into the room. The scent of roses filled your nose and you smiled. Draco's heart was beating fast as he started to realise that this wasn't just a dream and that you were really about to do this with him. That you trusted him.Â
You grew nervous as you saw that he had already stood in front of the bed and started to take off his shirt. Maybe you weren't ready for this.
"Darling, are you okay?" Draco checked on you, as his now shirtless figure came closer to yours. You fiddled with the sleeves of your hoodie as you looked anywhere but his toned body.
"Uhm, yeah. I-I just- I don't know how ready I feel about this" you hesitated, as you finally looked into his concerned and worry filled eyes.Â
"Y/n, like I said you don't need to feel pressured about anything. We don't have to do anything at all if you don't feel like you are ready. I-I don't want you doing something with me that you will regret." he reassured you.
"No, it's not like that. I mean I'm sure if we do this, it will feel good... I'm just, inexperienced you know?" you sighed as you sat on his bed and played with some of the rose petals. "I-I don't know the first thing about sex, what noises are okay to make, how painful it will be, how to position my arms or my legs, how to make sure that it's not just me having a good time." getting it off your chest felt good for once.Â
"Y/n, this is about you not me. You don't have to worry about how to position yourself, I'll take care of that. And you don't have to worry about me having a good time, today is about you, but I assure you I will definitely enjoy myself. You don't need to worry about being too loud, or too quiet, it just matters that you're comfortable. And if you find it too painful, or if you are starting to regret things, then do not be afraid to tell me to stop. I will." Draco sat down next to you and grabbed your hand as he stroked in with his thumb.Â
You looked up at him and realised that he was so much more caring than he let other people see. He looked back at you and scanned your eyes for any discomfort, but he only saw admiration.Â
"Thank you Draco, I-I feel a bit better now" you said, feeling your cheeks heating up.
"It's okay y/n, is there anything I can do to make you feel more comfortable before we start?" He asked, he wanted to make sure your first time was perfect.
"I- I wouldn't know, I've never done anything like this before" you said nervously.
"Okay... I'll do my thing and just tell me, please tell me, if you feel uncomfortable at any point. I will stop immediately. You have the upper hand, you have the control." he stated as he slowly stood up in front of you, signalling for you to also stand up.
You whispered a small 'okay' and stood there awkwardly, unsure of Draco's next move.
He began to move his hands to the hem of your hoodie, playing around with it before asking for your permission to take it off. He was more than pleased to see you wearing nothing but a bra underneath.Â
"Stunning my love, you're beautiful" he whispered in your ear as his hands found their way to your back, finding the clip of your bra. You blushed as you heard the unclipping of your bra, and your breath hitched as the cold air hit your breasts.Â
"You alright y/n? Do you want me to stop?" He asked softly, as he tried to resist the urge to look down at your chest.
"I'm okay" you whispered breathlessly "Please keep going Draco" he loved the way his name rolled off your lips.Â
He motioned for you to lie down on the bed, and you obeyed, your heart beating fast as he threw your black laced bra somewhere behind him.
He crawled on top of you, sweatpants still on, and he lowered himself until his face was at the crook of your neck. You felt his hot breath at your collar bone before he started placing small kisses upwards and towards your jawline. Your hands made their way to his blonde hair, and started pulling gently, making him groan. You held back a moan as he started sucking on the spot that made you feel oh so amazing.Â
"Darling, don't hold back, I'd love to hear your noises" he reassured you, as he moved on of his hands down to your waist as the other held his body up.Â
You let out a few moans as he continued marking your neck. He brought his hand away from your waist and towards your chest, as he grasped at one of our breasts, toying with your sensitive nipple. You arched your back, pressing your lower body against his, allowing you to feel just how hard he was. He groaned in response and settled between your legs, gently grinding his clothed member against your core.Â
He moved his lips away from your neck and attached his lips to your left breast, his hand still kneading your right one. He sucked gently on it, his tongue playing with your perked nipple. You whimpered at the new sensation, it was unfamiliar, a bit odd, but it sure did feel good.
Draco loved seeing you in this state, in such a pleasured and needy state. He wanted nothing more than to just take you right then and there, but he wanted to go slow with you. Take his time.Â
He slowly separated himself from your body as he stood up, taking a second to admire the sight before him. You looked so beautiful to him, so perfect, he wanted to have every inch of you to himself.Â
"Fuck" He whispered, growing hard at the sight of you beneath him.
Draco's fingers slowly made their way down to the waistband of your sweatpants, playing with the material for a little bit, before pulling low enough to see the lace of your panties.
"May I?" he whispered gently.
"Yes" you nodded, feeling yourself become hot at your core, his fingers so close, yet so far from where you wanted them to be.
He swiftly pulled your pants and your laced underwear off in one movement and let them fall to the floor as he stared at you glistening pussy. He spread your legs apart more and placed his body in front of your dripping core, staring at it for a few seconds that felt like hours.Â
You felt his warm breathing tickle your core, as you shivered at the feeling.Â
"You're so perfect y/n, so beautiful. So wet for me aren't you?" he teased you. You breathed shakily as you screwed your eyes shut.
You suddenly felt a pair of lips attacking your clit, making a loud moan escapes your lips. You feel his grip on your legs tighten as he hears you moan his name continuously. God he loves the way you make him feel.
His tongue makes its way to your entrance as he fucks you with his tongue, his nose nudging gently on your clit, increasing the pleasure. Your hands made their way back into his blonde hair, as you gently tugged from the roots. You earned a moan from him in response, sending vibrations straight to your core. You whimpered at the feeling.
"Does this feel okay darling? Does it feel nice?" he cooed as he continued working on your pussy. You nodded in response.
"Words darling, I need words" he said, as he circled your clit with his tongue.Â
"Y-yes Draco, fuck yes, it feels amazing~" you moaned breathily. You felt him smile against your core, before he shoved a finger into your hole.Â
You winced in discomfort, earning a worried look from Draco as he removed his finger and moved away so his face met yours. He looked at you worriedly, checking your face for any signs of regret.
"What's wrong y/n? I'm so sorry did I hurt you? Oh fuck I didn't mean to" He babbled, you just looked at him awkwardly.
"No, no you didn't hurt me, i-it's just it felt weird. I can't even fit a tampon in there without it feeling uncomfortable, I don't know how it's supposed to feel... pleasurable" you admitted. He looked relieved for a second, knowing that he hadn't hurt you.Â
"Well darling, like I said it's perfectly normal to be nervous or uncomfortable, and we don't have to do anything else. I can promise you though, that it will feel pleasurable, I'll make sure of that."
You nodded in response, just looking at him with wide eyes as he traced his fingers back to your dripping core.
"Do you want me to continue? We can stop whenever" he cooed gently.
You nodded, as you grabbed his hand and placed it in on your heat. He chucked at your neediness as he hovered above you and played with your wetness. He gently inched a finger into your hole, as you made faces of discomfort. Draco took notice and leaned in to kiss at your neck, as he continued thrusting his long finger in and out at a slow pace.
The discomfort slowly subsided as he kept thrusting his finger in and out. It slowly turned into pleasure as he ever so slightly curled his finger to reach those lovely spots inside of you.Â
You moaned quietly, earning a smirk from Draco as he buried his face into your neck. He dragged his finger out, making you whimper, then he slides two fingers in. The discomfort comes back, and Draco notices your change in expression. He leans down and captures your lips in a kiss, a sweet one, distracting you from the pain and discomfort.
Taken aback, you widen your eyes, but you slowly melt into the kiss, tugging at his hair and pulling him closer to you. You feel yourself getting hotter, and a coil start to tighten in your stomach. Draco feels you clench around his fingers, and he kisses you deeper, his thumb playing with your clit, increasing the pleasure.Â
It doesn't take long before you cum all over his fingers, moans and whimpers being muted by Draco's lips.
You're still shaking as you come down from your high, legs spasming and eyes rolled back.
"Good girl, you did so well" Draco hushed in your ear, before bringing himself down to your pussy to taste your sweetness. You moaned as he continued to eat out your sensitive cunt, as he held you down gently with his large hand.
"Did you like that darling?" he asked, as he came to your face and kissed below your ear.
"Yeah, that- that was really good." you breathed out. He smiled and kissed you, you could feel his heart beating so fast. Gosh he wanted nothing but to please you.
"Draco..." You moaned into the kiss, making butterflies erupt in his stomach at the sound of his name rolling off your lips. "Draco, I need you"Â
His breath hitched and he looked into your eyes, only to see pure lust and neediness.Â
"Anything for you darling" He said, as he smirked and kicked his sweatpants off. You saw a large tent in his boxers, leaving you more aroused than ever, and you palmed his erection through the thin fabric.
"Don't." He warned, "Today is all about you darling" He removed his boxers before bringing himself between your legs and lining himself up with your entrance.Â
"Y/n, please tell me you're 100% sure about this. I-" he looked away, scared to face your beautiful eyes. "I don't want to hurt you, and I definitely don't want you to do something with me that you will regret. I can't stress that enough" He said.
"Draco, there's no one I know who is more experienced than you, please make me feel good." you whispered quietly.Â
He nodded. "Your wish is my command" he replied, "Just know that I'm so honoured to be here with you right now, doing this, making you feel good."Â
You grabbed him by the neck and pulled him down to your face, kissing him so he would stop ranting. He smiled into the kiss, his heart felt so complete. He moved to your neck once again, not kissing it, just breathing you in, and feeling you.Â
His tip nudged at your entrance in the process. He grabs his length in his hand tapping it against your core, sliding the silky tip between your folds and over your sensitive clit, making you shiver with pleasure.
"Please Draco" You shuddered in anticipation. "I need you".
That was all he needed, to hear you tell him that you needed him.Â
He lifted himself off of you and shifted closer to your lower body. He spread his tip over your folds collecting your wetness as a lubricant.
"Darling this will hurt" he warned with a slow nod. "I'll go slow for you I promise." he firmly reassured you.
You nodded eagerly, gripping his shoulders as heat spread across your face. You were about to do this, with the school player. He stifled a moan as he slowly pushed his tip into your core. He was right. It hurt. And he was probably not even an inch in. You winced as he continued to push himself in, his eyes watching your face carefully for any sign of pain.Â
About three inches in and the pain worsens. You frown slightly, as you try and handle the pain. Draco's eyes are screwed shut, focusing hard on not making any noises of pleasure while you're in pain. He opens his eyes to see your face contorting in pain, so he moves his hand down to your clit and tries to distract you. You heart flutters as you feel his breath near you ear, small grunts coming from his throat as he pushes deeper and deeper into you.Â
The pain and the pleasure slowly start to even out as Draco pushes himself all the way in. He freezes in place once he's all the way in, lifting himself to see the beautiful sight in front of him. You look gorgeous, curves and all, small beauty spots, messy hair, the best part is he's deep inside of you~
"Shit"Â He curses. "You're beautiful darling, you know that? Absolutely perfect."Â
You feel his cold silver rings press on your skin as he grips your waist tightly. He drags himself out of you slowly, before pushing back in. You moan slightly at the friction, flicking a switch in Draco. He repositions his hands beside your face and holds his body above yours, before he starts rocking his hips into yours at a faster pace.Â
"Oh darling, you feel so wonderful" he moaned, watching your eyes roll back as he slowed his pace. "You're so beautiful y/n, oh fuck".
He was already out of breath. He was Draco fucking Malfoy, and he was already getting tired during sex, when usually he could go on for hours. Or maybe it was just you. You made his world spin, you made him feel like he had something to prove, you made him feel grounded.Â
He loses himself in you as he continues to slowly thrust his hips against yours. A loud involuntary moan escapes your lips as his cock hits a wonderful spot inside of you, pulling Draco back to his senses.
You moan as he angles his hips to keep hitting that spot inside you. He wants to hear those beautiful sounds from your mouth, steal them with his kisses.Â
His breathing becomes laboured as he feels himself getting close, he can no longer hold himself up, something about you makes him feel like he's gravitating towards you.Â
He stops his movements for a second, lowering his body onto yours, skin on skin, his face at your neck, as he slithers his arms underneath your waist. He feels this love, aching love, as you run your fingers down his back.Â
"Draco" you whisper, but it's not needy, it's loving. "Draco~" You feel this love, this warmth all down your chest as you feel Draco's arms wrapped protectively around your waist, and his dick deep inside you, you don't want to let him go, ever. You bring your hands up and into his hair, twisting short pieces around your fingers, making him breathe harder.
Your heartbeats against each other, you had never felt so connected with someone before.
He slowly draws himself out of you, and slams in sloppily. The pace is slow, but it feels oh so good, like he's not just having sex with you - he's making love to you. He sighs heavily as he feels himself getting close.
"Baby, I'm so close, I-I don't know how much longer I can last." his breath hitched in his throat as he felt you squeeze around him. He looks down to your face, smiling as he sees your expression distorted in pleasure, eyes screwed shut, mouth open, hair perfectly messy.
He uses his last bit of strength to angle himself at a better position, hitting all the right spots inside of you.
"Oh~ Draco please" he hears you moan out his name, and it's almost enough to push him over the edge. "Fuck- Draco I'm cumming" He smiles, leaning back down to kiss your lips as he feels your orgasm wash over you.Â
He breaks the kiss and throws his head back as he spills himself into you. Groans are heard echoing across the room as he thrusts a few more times before stilling inside of you.Â
The two of you stay like that for a bit, Draco kissing at your neck, whispering praises in your ear as your eyes start feeling heavy with sleep.
He pulls out of you and you whimper slightly, missing the feeling of being full, full of him.Â
Draco smiles as he looks to your pussy, a mixture of his and your cum seeping out, and he uses his thumb to gently push it back into your delicate hole as he cleans up the mess the two of you have made.
"Draco" you whisper, arms out signalling for him to come and cuddle you.
He chuckles, and scoops you up into his arms, pulling his emerald green sheets over your naked figures.Â
The cold touch of the duvets against your hot skin feels wonderful, like taking a cold shower after a run.
You hold onto Draco's muscular body, as you feel his arms circle around you and pull you closer. You run your hands through his hair, still registering the activities you had just submitted to with this boy.Â
You stare at him for while longer, before he leans into you, stealing your lips with a kiss. As if instinctual, you pull him closer into the kiss, craving the feeling of his mouth against yours.Â
That's when it hits you.
No kissing.
It didn't make sense, it was Draco fucking Malfoy. His number one rule was no kissing. Expect for right now, he's doing the exact opposite. You don't know if you feel happy, or upset.
You feel like you're being played.
Why would he kiss you to lead you on, only to throw you away after one use like all the other girls. Why would he kiss you like he meant it when you knew he didn't.Â
You break the kiss, not saying a word.
"Darling? Y/n are you okay?" He asked sincerely.
Silence.
"Did... Did you not like it?" he started to panic slightly. "Fuck. Y/n I-I'm so sorry if you didn't like it. Please tell me you don't regret it." he closed his eyes as if he would open them and realise it was a dream.
"No" you simply said, "Draco it was amazing don't worry. It's just- I just want to go to sleep, I'm so tired"
He sighed in relief. "Of course my love. And I'll be right here holding you when you wake up" He smiled softly at you and kissed your forehead.
Draco had never felt like this before. He had never kissed someone before, at least not the way he kissed you. He was addicted to you, your touch, your lips. He wanted more and more. It's like he couldn't get enough.Â
He slowly fell asleep, content, more than content, because he was falling asleep with his world in his arms.
You on the other hand. You felt sick.Â
He didn't love you, so why would he try to make you feel so loved. Kiss you, like you were the only one he wanted. Hold you like he never wanted to let go.
After a bit of internal debate, you finally drifted to sleep, but a restless one.
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You woke up in the embrace of two strong long arms. A familiar scent tickling your nose, and a silky sheet wedged between your legs.
As memories of last night replayed through your mind, you gently wiggled yourself out of Draco's embrace, careful not to wake him. You turn yourself and grab at your phone, 6:06am.Â
In any other case you would tell yourself to fall back asleep, but right now, you wanted nothing but to escape this place.Â
You couldn't fall in love with the school fuckboy. You couldn't fall in love with Draco.
So what did you do?
You left without a second glance, without a second thought, you just listened to your head telling you that if you ever fell in love with him, he would only discard you like another one of his girls.
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You enter class the next day, sore and heavy hearted. You take your seat in class, awaiting the embarrassment of having to see Draco again after what the two of you had done last night.
Your eyes darted to the doorframe as you watched a head of blonde hair enter, his eyes were frantically searching the classroom before they softened as they landed on you.
As everyone gaped at Draco, confused as to why for once he didn't have a girl hanging off his arm, Draco's gaze was only upon you; and you hated it.
You felt like the centre of attention, and it made you nauseous.
Draco however, he was worried as to why you left so early in the morning.Â
He had been looking forward to you waking up in his arms, and cuddling before going to class together. He started to think that maybe you would never want to see him again because you regretted it.
He quietly walked over to the seat beside you, all eyes focused on the two of you.Â
His eyes sparkled as he looked at you, worry, guilt, and relief swirling inside them. You felt your heart ache as you suppressed every urge to kiss him right them and there.
As Draco sat down, he placed his hand on yours under the desk and he gave a small smile, comforting yet it still made you feel sick to the stomach.
Something in your chest told you that this wasn't going to end well.
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After a long class, the bell finally rung and you abruptly stood up and hurried off to second period.
Draco watched and tried to grab you before you walked away but he was too late, so he ran after you. He needed to tell you, all the things he left unsaid last night.
Your chest tightened, afraid that he might follow you, that you might have to face him when all you wanted to do was focus on anything else.
Your breath hitched as you felt a gentle touch on your shoulder.
"Y/n, please, listen to me"
"What do you want Draco?" you spat out, wanting to escape this conversation.Â
"Y/n please I just- I want to know what I did wrong, why did you leave me this morning I thought what we did last night was special.... it was special to me." He said quietly, his words only meant for you to hear and no one else.
"Special? Draco are you hearing yourself? Why are you doing this to me! Toying with my feelings like this" you argued defensively, what kind of audacity did he have to call last night special when you were just another girl to him?
"Toying with your-? What? I'm not toying with your feelings y/n, if anything it feels like you're toying with mine. I gave you my everything last night, my first kiss, my love, my all. And you left me this morning alone I was so worried I had done something wrong. Why would you think I'd be playing with your feelings love?" he was desperate, he needed to know what you were feeling, if you felt the same or if he was fooling himself.
"Draco you play with everyone's feelings, can you really blame me for protecting myself?" you say in a quieter hushed tone as you two pace into an empty classroom closing the door behind you to shield your conversation from unwanted attention. "You- you kissed me, I didn't know what to think, I thought you were messing with me, I couldn't-"
"I kissed you because I love you y/n. It's as simple as that! And I loved every second of kissing you, I loved every second of being near you and I still do. I know you felt it too why can't you just say it back!" He was getting frustrated, for once he was laying his heart out on the floor, and you come and step on it.
"Draco are you crazy. I can't fall in love with the school player! You know how stupid that is?" your voice was laced with toxicity, and you instantly regretted the words as they came out your mouth.
"School player?" he scoffed his heart broken "So that's what you think of me, hah, I get it" He says dejectedly as he walks towards the door reaching for the handle.
"Draco wait- I- You know I didn't mean it like that" you say reaching your arm out to stop him "You're right I felt it too, I felt it in every touch and every heartbeat and it scared me." you say in a small voice, feeling vulnerable as you hang your head down.
"Why were you scared, I would never hurt you." his hand left the door handle and he embraced you resting his chin on your head breathing in the scent of your shampoo.Â
"Because it goes against everything I value, you're entire self is nothing like the guy I'd fall for yet I did. And it scared me because I didn't know your true intentions, I didn't know what you wanted from me, and I didn't want my heart to be broken. I'm sorry..."
"Don't apologise- sweetheart why didn't you just tell me that last night, I would've listened I would've reassured you I love you. The only reason I went playing about with other girls is because all this time I knew I couldn't have you and no matter how much I tried nothing could ever satisfy this need I had to be with you" he said sincerely, and you laid your head sideways on his chest his heart against your ear "I want you, more than I can say, please don't be scared of me".
"I'm not scared" you state kissing his neck gently as you tilt your head up "Not anymore. I love you too"
His heart stalled as he heard the words leave your mouth and he dipped his head, his nose nuzzling near your ear "My darling, IÂ want to hear those words come from your mouth for the rest of my life."Â
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a/n: I feel like the ending was rushed -_- But hey! I've got back into writing after such a writers block and a busy schedule! I hope this was worth the super long wait guys !! I've also tagged all my followers just as an update that I AM BACK!! Hehe:)
















