#soberversary

TWO. YEARS. SOBER!

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I have a lot! of! Feelings!!!

I am two years sober.  I am so so grateful to have been able to stay sober through the pandemic.  I know not everyone was able to and that’s completely understandable.  

I am a little lonely today-- I didn’t go to a meeting, and have generally been really bad about attending meetings so I feel very disconnected from my sober network.  My family doesn’t know today’s my soberversary because I didn’t tell them; same with my roommates and all of my normie friends.  A few AA friends wished me a happy anniversary.  Saturday I am getting Mexican food with some sober friends to celebrate.  But overall I feel a little forgotten; the fruit of my refusal to share with people that today is special to me lol.  If I would speak up I know I’d receive lots of love and support! I’m just so, so burnt out from teaching this year and I don’t have any extra energy to even tell people.  

Today I went on a long walk, and picked some flowers to put in my flower press!  They’re going to be so pretty.  I went to the record store and got some new music including the Valerie June album which I am OBSESSED with lately.  Also Regina Spektr. Yesssss.

Syd is sitting here with me.  He is my lil buddy and I got him because once I was sober I told myself I could afford a cat and that I could be trusted to care for him.  And I can! He is living a dream cat life.  Spoiled rotten.  No more than he deserves <3

I’m so far from where I was two years ago.  I’m reeling a little today from some big changes I’m processing; will write more about those another time.  Nevertheless, however strange and uncertain life may feel at times, it is in equal or greater proportions completely vastly wonderful.