#soberdiary

Day v2.06

You know what I was buzzing yesterday.

I was feeling really positive and motivated, I don’t know why or what made me feel so good.

Not much to report today.

Work was ok.

After work was ok.

Ordered a great smash burger from Hideout BCN had a 0% Beer.

Anyways this is a short one.

Adios

🤘✌️

Day v2.05

Morning, felt motivated today…that was a good feeling

Spent the day really concentrating on work and my new role. Getting prepared and trained up on what I need to do.

GF went out for lunch with a friend, I was home alone. This was a triggering moment, like when a parent leaves when you’re a child.

I felt I had a devil 👿 and angel 😇 on my shoulder. Both arguing about going out and getting beer or not. That felt very very tough.

I found myself walking around the flat arguing with myself, it was a bit unsettling.

This time the angel won.

Adios

🤘✌️

Day v2.04

Barcelona yesterday was nice and bright although really cold.

Started the day pretty well with a 45min dog walk :) … felt nice to get out for a good walk.

The day at work was busy busy busy. In meetings most of the day and that all kept me really focus. The urge to drink didn’t come up once.

I didn’t actually think about drink at all, which was nice.

One thing I have noticed recently is dreams. Like…I’m actually having them regularly. This didn’t really happen to me previously.

I’m not sure if I put it down to the lack of alcohol, or that I’m writing these daily entries. Originally I thought maybe it’s cos I started reading before bed, but they’ve been there when I haven’t read.

The dreams so far have all included ex girlfriends/jobs 🤔, not sure what’s up with that.

Podcast recommendation

Manatomy by Danny Wallace, give it a listen.

Adios

Day 6

Woke up this morning feeling fine, had nothing special on my mind. (That’s a song lyric right?!)

The day was full of training for the new job role. Nothing too exciting

Had a temptation moment at the shops. Managed to get through that.

The GF made some arrangements with friends to go out for dinner on Friday. I’m a bit anxious, not sure how I’ll be able to cope with the not drinking.

It’s been a while since I’ve been in a big social setting sober. I’m always worried about what to say, how to strike up conversations etc.

I’ll have to see how that goes, it’ll be in the back of my mind for the next few days.

Today (6th) is a day off in Barcelona. I still stuck to my midweek routine. This routine seems to help, rather than just wake up whenever.

Which will be really chill, I’ll play some video games.

Adios

I stared too long at the refrigerator. Just staring at Estrella, Heineken and the many bottles of beer.

I’d only gone to the shop for bread. Whilst waiting to pay the refrigerator was just there. With all the cans and bottles looking at me.