#so loved

ive had a DAY of my mom atp

(and the only reason im posting is bc im running out of space and need to validate myself by showing myself this stuff is real and did happen, due to my short memory)

she literally invalidates my food allergies, specifically getting me things im allergic to, and getting upset when I wont eat it. that and I have sensory issues, so a lot is hard to eat for me, and im getting less mobile anymore as well ( T∀T)

and, after the second conversation, she came into my room, hurt my foot twice (I have ingrowns and she usually ignores them + isnt careful abt them at all) and got mad after my reflexes kicked in. ...and I kicked her – but ive warned her multiple times before – if someone tries to touch me without my permission, ill instinctively kick, or punch

yes, she always (and I mean ALWAYSS) steps over my boundaries, crosses lines I keep having to draw, and does NOT respect me in the slightest, in terms of my preferences, allergies, phobias, and everything else.

this wouldnt be as bad, but im currently in a depressive episode, and im close to the edge already as it is.

she keeps yelling, and getting angry at me, and im already shaking writing this (once again) and i legitimately have no idea what to do, I cant take this.

I try to keep her happy so she doesnt get violent, but it never works long enough, or good enough.