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live image of grassy on his parents' computer signing up to be a first-hand witness of extreme violence and cruelty and to lose/be mocked by everyone who was supposed to be there for him and then be shut in a dark lonely vent while all of civilization is wiped out under his shoes and the entire planet gets yeeted 10292484830242 quadrillion miles away from the sun

help. gelp. help. im knocoimg on your door with wells of sobs fresh in my eyesockets. i feel like an eight year old being told santa isnt real. what the hell. dalan i know you aren't in the osc this is a WELL KNOWN ARTIST AT THIS CORNER OF THE OSCBLR. THE FACT THAT THEY EVEN FOLLOW ME IS A GENUINE MIRACLE

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I THINK WE ARE FUCKED AS A SPECIES DALAN THIS WAS MY DOIGN 10000% THIS WAS MY DOING OH MY PIN FACTORY WHY ARE PEOOKE WATCHIBG MYSLO

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i have a little series thing dedicated to explaining and expanding her character..,.. i took some inspiration from what you do because its all so cool. i love your reduxes thank you for all you do ‼️💥‼️💥‼️‼️💥💥‼️💥‼️‼️💥‼️💥💥‼️‼️

AWWUUAJSHHFDHHSHW 🥹 THIS MEANS A LOT, #1 PINTHUSIAST! It is so cool to see others taking inspiration from the blog I ,. Am exploding with JOY!!!! And will check out that series

so im, like, a massive pinthusiast., over here.,. been studying her as a character for about three years.,..... wanted to come to you to see if you could do something for pin!!!

but FIRST. please. let me yap. about her storyline in canon. because i feel its very misunderstood (especially from oscyt babies pee-yew...,......) and i want you to see how she would work in your bfdi redux with the way i explain her character!! and how you want to add to it!!!

okay. are we ready. okay

pin beefydie-yay.,.,..,..,..

pin's bfdia trauma begins from pre-revival bfdia. it can be analyzed in heavy reference to pin's tpot 2 rant, connecting her discomfort with the tpot 2 conundrum with her experience in (pre-revival) bfdia. from what we had back then, i found out that pin values what is right and clear, and what benefits her teammates as people rather than as contestants. this is still a crucial part of her not only as a leader, but a character herself.

as bfdia slowly progresses, there is an actively growing discomfort specific to pin that she goes through even before her trauma even grows physical. pin feels different and left out from the crowd. the sudden change in team formats, rules, and quite literally her entire world was not so easy for her to adapt to, showing why she was so different from the rest of the cast (as you can see when everyone corners and pressures her literally in the very first episode (this is not the first time everyone bullies her for no reason (autism allego-))). even, the like 2818372819272819 years she spent in the tlc box forcing her to realize that nobody liked her b/c she was a meanie and had zero friends made her deduce that she desperately needed to make some.,.., with zero guidance how if she wanted to fulfill her old dream of becoming a leader in the tlc (we dont talk about this fallen dream now 😿).

the realization that this new world punishes those who are different and benefits those who can fit in well kind of fills her with anxiety. she's just trying and hoping for the best...........

pin also seems to retain a "right-and-wrong" approach that she lives by in early bfdia in order to cope with the discomfort of the new, changed environment she couldnt adapt to so well that is bfdia season 👍 yeah!!! what happened to her in bfdia 5 kind of jumbles this up for her dumb little head which makes it worse

okay now for the horrifying!!! the facing faceless!!!

from a surface-level standpoint the concept of it is pretty scary, being paralyzed, blind, muted, can only (eerily) feel people and hear them call you horrible things without reprimand. but also from a psychological standpoint, and a pin-specific view, its much worserreerrmmmm........

the main way that pin was psychologically (interpret the use of the word "psychologically" as "non-physical" if you need more clarity) tortured so much was because everyone else hated how she expressed herself differently from everyone else. by removing her face (for speaking up in bfdia 10 on the fact that everyone who she thought was going to stay her friend in woah bunch left her for a reason that wouldnt benefit them as people,) they stitched her face in so she "smiles" the way everyone else smiles, doesnt speak up the way nobody else speaks up on issues because apparently nothing she has a problem with, or anything she says at all at this point of bfdia (key point because she gets worse so it changes in later episodes) matter.......... hashtag autism allegory in bfdi!1!1!1 oh my pin facto

its clear how small and insignificant (exact opposite of her dream of being a leader if you think about it woah) they turned her just because she was being herself, now she can do nothing but quote-unquote "conform." very very very scary 0/10 would not recommend to a girl :[

and then the coming back. but not quite as herself. obviously she is acting different when she returns in beefydie yay 14

her body, what she used to express herself, was practially completely gone, leaving essentially just a spirit to be trapped underground. (my basis for her being trapped underground was that coiny had to dig below the earth to find her. its like her mind was like a demon and she was in hell, or like she was buried alive in a coffin that wouldnt let her body move i dont know i like symbolism a lot can you tell) whats left of her now is like a lovesick monster creature made of pure rage and agony ye yeah woo

same mind/rage thats trapped underground through feceless-limbless-even-sizeless pin's "body." i like to think that pin having her meltdown snap in beefydie yay 14 adds up everything from all the previous stages of her bfdia trauma, all as mentioned before, the adherence to rules, the feeling isolated, all of the pain adds up to this moment which is why i see her crash out as like her rage/mind like. coming out of her. that mind demon is finally breaking out there and free (can you also tell that this episode did pretty wild things to my brain juices.)

and then. as we know pin getting her "revenge" wasnt enough. she wants something else, something that matters more. before you say she just wants to win bfdia now you have to consider that, once again, pin cares much more about the people and the environment and everything than the competition, what would benefit her friends as people rather than contestants. problem is. she believes she doesnt have any friends. everyone hates her and she knows it (as clearly admitted when she got shrunken into oblivion in bfdia 15). and i will mention coiny later erm. bear with me. anywho.

basically, after bfdia 14 (and reinforced in bfdia 18), pin is so emotionally fucked up that she now craves the feeling of being a nuisance who really deserves all the agony ‼️ its a way of looking at pin's horrific crashes. bfdia pin had been nullified and bullied so much that she doesnt care anymore for what they believe; they deserve to suffer regardless if theyre contestants or people because they hurt her badly.

whats more, isnt anxiety, like, the fear of expressing yourself? in bfdia 18, she's so fucked up and tired of the pain she's constantly in that it seemed that the only way to relieve herself of that secret burning anxiety inside of her that nobody wanted to acknowledge was.,.,. to make a huge show out of her anger and pain. thats pretty much why she did what she did in bfdia 18. she let coiny fall to show him that she was in pain, that she was angry about the fact that when she was faceless and the most weak and vulnerable she had ever been, and in the most dire need of help, he

instead called her useless. (word for word. bfdia 12 quoting.) she killed everyone because she was mad at well...., everyone for ostracizing and alienating her for being herself. (she's not only mad at freesmart. please get this. its not only freesmart's fault why would the entirety of woah bunch willingly leave her then. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa) the point (hehe) is that to her it seems that since she's apparently horrible and unlovable by default, the only way to relieve herself of the pain of those facts is by just to embrace it and to stop trying to escape these facts. (pin i love you i promise you aren't as disgusting and hideous as people say i promise you theyre all wrong.)

this is where bfdia 19-20 leads in. she isnt an asshole just to be an asshole, its very painfully obvious that this isnt like her, like, at all. she's making the active choice to act like an asshole, she isnt inherently an meanie. so why does she act mean, then? shes clearly pushing everyone away. and i really think that when coiny said to her, "would i ever lie to you?," and pin replied, "yes, but whatever," im sure she means that he lies to her about ever actually loving her, explaining why she pushes him away. explaining why she pushes everyone away, why she repels away book, coiny, everyone, she cant trust anyone anymore because she's sure theyre all out to get her, and she's not that naive, clueless little girl anymore to let them ever torture and betray her trust again. (can we talk about how ironic her ordeal with book is. she's the most terrified of book out of anyone, yet through dramatic irony we all know that book has canonically harmed her the least. pin. pinny pin pin. are you 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 stupid)

its really tragic, the whole thing. and to rub salt in the wound, coiny, like, he never actually did anything wrong or evil, he hurt her unintentionally, by, get this.... being too fucking stupid. by being too dumb and party-rocker to fully grasp the horrific pain that pin was going through, he hurt her by not being properly there for her when she needed him. and sure, he did do his very best to help her in bfdia 13, but remember he called her useless and never understood her pain beyond the bare minimum physical stuff. (another instance of pin also being fucking stupid. he's not out to get you, pin girlie. he's just dumb. i love you pin. i get that you're going through it but forgive the man for being dumb HE DOESNT KNOW THAT YOURE NOT ACTING ASSHOL-ISH JUST TO BE AN ASSHOLE)

bleh. thank you for coming to my pin ted talk. ped talk. i need to spread propaganda (/nsrs) and i hope we all learned somethign today. and im sorry if it was too much.

but hi bfdiredux. what do you think of pin from this standpoint. can you make anything out of this. thank thank thank you and have a nice day

HOLY MOTHER OF TEXT WALLS I DIDNT EXPEVT TO OPEN MY INBOX TO THIS BEAUTIFUL CHARACTER ANALYSIS. THANK YOU PINTHUSIAST!!

The current plans for Pin.

I don't have much I want to add on your interpretation of canon Pin!! It's perfect.

I can definitely snag a lot of inspiration from this analysis to fuel Redux!Pin.

CONFORMING!!! Other contestants want her to but part of Pin's story in the Redux is not conforming. She gets her pigment removed in IDFB to start fresh, gets her pigment red again for BFB, partly out of fear of BFDIA repeating itself, and then says fuck it in TPOT and lets herself BE herself. Enby transmasc icon right there.

Thinking everyone is out to get her matches what's been set up well! Woah Bunch dipping, FreeSmart hard targeting her, and unfortunate scene after unfortunate scene... Good fuel!! Getting bullied and pushed around just for being herself,,, yeAH that's going to accumulate.

Neurodivergent Pin... mmmmmmmmmmyES. I will make everyone in this rewrite neurodivergent just watch me /silly

The scene in TPOT where Pin gives Tree her gratitude token before she's eliminated. I know the two of them start to bond in TPOT 12 but I like the idea of them bonding earlier.

Like,,, Pin cares DEEPLY about her token collection. IT IS A HYPERFOCUS!!! You gotta be 🤏 this close with her to get her to give one to you. SO in BFDIA when she loses her autonamy? She sees Tree experiencing the same thing in early TPOT (getting revived in the lake) and spends a lot of her free time with him so he doesn't feel lonely.

FRIENDSHIP!!!