I am using the Paulina tarot for the #MonthofSpreads challenge created by #TarotProse.
Temporary signifier: Eight of Wands
Message from my Past-Self: Three of Pentacles
I am feeling that I can be lonely despite being surrounded with friends especially with friends that I consider or rather thought they were closed friends. Unfortunately it is not because their presence makes me more lonely than ever. Also, I was a person that treasures friendship above myself. I can feel that the character in the far right in the card represented me. She is standing beside two other people and yet she feels what I have described above.
The message I am feeling is I need to feel my own needs before my friends. That’s also because we have different expectations therefore putting others ahead of mine can somehow hurt me when they didn’t return the favour like how I expected as well as they can be not sincere to be my friends. Also, I am strong enough to be standing alone due to my own strength, meaning people can be attracted to me solely even though I am standing with other interesting people.
In summary, acknowledging my own strength and prioritising myself.
Message from my Present-Self: Six of Cups
Love and caring is in the air surrounding the mother and son! Just like how my current situation that I am currently receiving a lot of things be it resources or assistance. So meaning I can get the resources or the help I want easily.
However, at the same time, I must not belittle my own self that I need to rely externally to get things done. I need to feel my own power too. Most importantly, I must also learn to feel enough. Not all hunger can be full but knowing that I can do the things that I want is enough.
Message from my Future-self: Justice (XI)
I find this card hard to interpret, but overall I am feeling that my many interests can lead me to be good in something. Finally! Since I hop from one interest to another and then back to it which is reflected in the wings. Having said that, this can only happen if I were to take action in completing the process of learning or mastering those interests. I cannot stop at the stones on the left side of the image taking advantage that the things I want to learn will always be there. They may still be there but time is finite.
I also have to be fair to myself. I have spent so much time and energy on myself picking up new things hence I must be at least be reaching some higher levels. I should not be at amateur level though I can be more mature at the end of the day!
