#simonfictive

there are very few people doing the bloodymary crossover right and I'm not saying that just because it's not how I remember it happening. in fact, I barely remember it at all! yeah no it's just that the popular tropes are like. really racist. "Simon thinks Grace is an angel" like do we not see how weird this gets if it's treated like a normal character dynamic. do we not see how fucking weird it is to have the character of color worshipping the white man. I've seen people defend this shit as not racist, too!!

like I'm not saying you Can't work with this. I'm not saying there aren't ways to do this without being weird and racist(like for example treating it as the religious psychosis it would most likely be) but still I'm like. maybe can we stop writing that trope like it's just a normal thing thanks.

I'm also not a fan of how overly sexualized I am within the fandom. like yeah okay I get it; there Was a fan service moment in the actual movie; whatever. but I WOULD appreciate it if the fandom could like. idk. use the ship to maybe explore the concept of non-allonormative relationships? especially given Grace being commonly headcanoned as aroace. like this ship feels like the perfect reason to go "okay so what effects would each of these characters' respective sexualities and world experiences have on their relationship" but no. they just have to be horny about it.

and at the end of this I Would like to say that I very much support doing whatever you want forever. have fun with your fandom! I don't really care what you're doing as long as it isn't hurting people! I just really wish the fandom was less weird and racist n shit with its tropes because like. yeah no that IS hurting people. by normalizing the racism. please think before you use tropes, thanks.

-Simon Iron Lung fictive(also from Project Hail Mary)(#🌲)

(ps there are definitely other tropes that weird me out but I can't think of them right now; I might come back later to complain about other popular fandom tropes but for now this is what I've got)

like on today's list of "things I never thought I'd get to do again", I never expected to get this chance again. like hi I'm so glad to get the chance to do this again. holy shit.

to anyone else at least partially from phm(I'm from a crossover that's why I'm saying partially here), it's on youtube and it's called "project hail mary | watch Rocky sleep (ft. original motion picture score)". I hope everyone else gets the same joy as I do that this exists. thank you and have a nice day. I know I sure will, now that I know this exists

-Simon Iron Lung fictive (also from Project Hail Mary, which I think is more relevant for this post 👍) (also, gonna claim the custom tag #🌲. yes it's one emoji. I checked; no one else is using it, and using one emoji doesn't break the rules. so. yeah it's tree time for me :])

#♾️🌲

this is coming up today because I am having feelings and I think those feelings would be lessened by hearing people I care about talk about things that they care about.

that's all.

-Simon Iron Lung fictive(also from Project Hail Mary because I'm crossover boy apparently)

(that's not all btw I'm just. not brave enough to say the rest of it right now. you know how it is.)

-Simon Iron Lung fictive(also from Project Hail Mary)

(ps Rocky is easier to draw than either of us. baffling to me but I can't deny how much quicker it is to draw Rocky than it is to draw either you Or me)

the only clear memories that I've gotten so far are from after I got punted out of my original universe. I don't like that! I'd really like to know what happened to me actually! I'd really prefer to remember things.

for now I just have to theorize about my own fucking life and it's incredibly annoying. being a fictive is ridiculous and should just come with the full set of memories actually. jeez.

-Simon Iron Lung fictive (and also from Project Hail Mary which is technically relevant to this post)

- Simon, "Iron Lung" fictive. (though my canon, unfortunately, is a vague PHM crossover.)

but well, I've beaten impossible odds before. it's kinda hard to believe that I'll never find anyone when I managed to a)end up out of the blood ocean and with Grace and Rocky in the first place, b)make it to Erid, and c)end up here somehow. finding people who might even also be looking for me with the sum total of all human knowledge at my fingertips(with more power than it took to get people to the moon in the first place in my hands) doesn't seem that impossible when faced with the concept of interdimensional travel, y'know?

anyways. Grace, Rocky, I miss you two. I don't remember much yet(I didn't form too long ago as of typing this), but every memory of either of you that I get is a treasure to me. I hope you're happy; all versions of you two, even the ones I never met. and I hope I get to see you again some day.

-Simon Iron Lung fictive(also from Project Hail Mary. because crossover curse)

((ps I'm being as aggressively hopeful as I can because I know I'm gonna be upset about things eventually but for now fuck it we ball, y'know?))