#showu

“Kinda got lucky.” Changkyun admitted. “One of my guys was getting some food when they heard her name, called me up and showed me a picture. It was her so I got some more of my people and met up with him.”

“Who was she with?”

“I’m not sure, some friends maybe, but it wasn’t the hunters who took her.”

“Were they hunters?”

“No idea. They didn’t seem like it… who cares, you got her back now.”

“Yeah, and why was she unconscious when you brought her?”

“Oh… she was being difficult so I… bit her…”

“With venom?!”

“Yes…”

“Dude!”

“I’m sorry! I wasn’t gonna please her! It wouldn’t be appropriate, okay, just go… take care of her.”

“I will, so don’t interrupt us.”

“I won’t, don’t worry about it.”

    Jooheon grabbed a blood bag, still glaring at Changkyun, but going over to your room. You were curled up on the bed, staring out the window. You had checked earlier, and you were in some building a couple stories up, a lot of stories up. You probably would have escaped by now but you didn’t trust yourself to go outside during daylight. You knew the sun wouldn’t hurt you, you’ve been out to see the sunrise before, but the problem was the people. 

    During the day there were people everywhere and you didn’t want to accidentally hurt anyone. So you needed to hold out until night time, shouldn’t be too hard. When Jooheon came into the room you crawled back until you hit the headboard. He moved slow and sat down on the edge of the bed, offering you a smile.

“Hey… how are you feeling?” You didn’t answer. “Well, you must be hungry so I brought you something.”

    He held out the blood bag. You didn’t trust him but you were hungry so you took it. You were about to bite into it when he told you to stop.

“That’s not how…” He chuckled. “Here.”

    He showed you how to drink from the bag and you did so shyly. You took a small sip, letting the taste sink in. Your eyes lit up a bit and you took another sip.

“This tastes really good.” 

“Of course it does. All human blood does.”

    You stopped and your eyes went wide. You looked down at the bag, quickly feeling sick. You covered your mouth and dropped the bag, spilling blood on the bed, and running to the bathroom. You started throwing up, emptying out your stomach. When you ran off Jooheon jumped back in surprise, ignoring the mess, more worried about you.

“What are you doing!?”

“I can’t… I can’t…” You curled up on the floor, shaking. “It’s not good for me…”

“What are you talking about? You need blood and-”

“They made… they made something for me… a substitute.”

“A substitute? Y/n, you need real blood, human blood.”

“No! No I don’t drink human blood, it’s not good… it just hurts…”

“Y/n-”

“Stop calling me that, my name is Ze.”

“It’s not, that’s just what they call you.”

“It’s my name!”

“Okay, okay… you need to eat though.”

“I’m not hungry.”

“Then why did you take the blood bag?”

“I didn’t know you were trying to hurt me!”

“I would never do that.”

“Your friend bit me! And that fucken hurt!”

“That wasn’t me.”

“Might as well be.”

“Y/n-” You glared at him and he sighed. “You feel it don’t you? Something between us, some kind of connection, right?”

“So…”

“So you know I would never hurt you, and that you can trust me, even if you don’t know me.”

“That doesn’t matter.”

“But you know, that matters. Look you still need to eat, so you can drink from me.”

“No, your blood is just as bad.”

“Excuse me?”

“Why would I drink blood from a monster.”

“Excuse me! I’m the monster? Those hunters are the real monsters. Stealing you away from me three years ago and doing who knows what.”

“Three years ago?”

“Yes. I turned you three years ago, that’s how long you’ve been with those damn hunters.”

“I… I’ve only been with them for a little over a year…”

“No, that’s not-”

“Do you… do you know… what… what happened to me? Why did you… turn me?”

    Jooheon sighed and sat down on the floor. You pulled your legs up, pressing yourself against the wall. He took a moment, not meeting your eyes.

“Me and Changkyun were on our way here when we heard a crash…”

“A crash?”

“A car crash.”

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“What the fuck happened out there!”

    It wasn’t surprising that the boys had gathered once they got Kun and his team back home. Their ears were still ringing a bit but that wouldn’t stop Taeyong from shouting. Which prompted the nearest hyung to cover Chenle and Jisung’s ears.

“You said she would be safe!”

“I said the chance of danger was lower!” Kun snapped back. “This is all your fault anyway for keeping her locked up like that!”

“She wasn’t in chains! She was comfortable in her own room.”

“She was depressed! And it was only going to get worse!”

“Can you both please stop screaming.” Xiaojun cut in. “This isn’t helping anyone.”

“Okay, can I say something.” Yuta spoke up. “Now I don’t agree with what I’m about to say, but we need to talk about it. Why don’t we just let her go?”

“You didn’t hear her screaming.” Sicheng mumbled. “She was terrified… she probably still is wherever they took her. She’s gonna be waiting for us! We can’t just-”

“That’s if she remembers us.” Jaehyun added.

“Huh? What are you talking about.”

“She’s with her sire now, presumably, which means he can easily tell her to forget us and move on. I told you before you can’t mess with a sire bond.”

“She hasn’t been with him for three years.” Doyoung said. “He can’t do that to her all of a sudden.”

“Maybe not now, but eventually. The longer she stays with him, the stronger it will get.”

“Until what?” Mark wondered. “Until we can’t do anything to get her back?”

“A sire bond can’t be broken, or messed with, but it can be weakened. She’ll most likely still be fighting him for a few days unless she drinks his blood.”

“I doubt that.” Johnny commented. “She doesn’t do that, let alone from another vampire.”

“Right, that still doesn’t change the fact we only have a few days to find her.”

“And he’s probably gonna be gunning for us.” Ten said. “For real now. That thing they used tonight, we need to make sure it won’t work on us again.”

“Agreed.” Kun nodded. “Sicheng you need to get on that.”

“I’ve been on it, why do you think I have a tablet right now.”

“We didn’t even know he was alive.” Haechan reminded. “He’s been off the grid for years now, are you sure we’re going to find her? Where do we even begin.”

“That other guy.” YangYang said. “The one from before… Changkyun, he was there tonight, he took her. So he must know where she is.”

“Are… are we going to lose her?” Jungwoo asked.

“Of course not.” Taeyong assured. “We’ve put a lot of work in with her, and she doesn’t know anyone like us. We’ll get her back one way or another.”

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“I… I was… no, it doesn’t matter, none of that matters.”

    You got up, as did Jooheon, trying to stop you from leaving. You shoved him back and stepped into the room only to collapse to the floor. A blur of images suddenly filled your vision. You were in the back of a car, music you didn’t recognize blasting through the speakers, you were dancing, all three of you were dancing. You felt happy, then there was a blinding light.

    All you felt then was pain, every part of you ached, and you could feel the blood in your mouth. Your vision was barely there. You could tell you were speaking, or trying to, moving inches at a time. At one point there was someone in your field of vision, Jooheon, and you screamed as he grabbed you. He looked down at you with worry and you closed your eyes.

    You were shaking on the ground, holding your head, unaware of the tears on your face. That night, the accident, it was all just fragments in your head. You hadn’t notice when Jooheon pulled you into his arms, but you held onto him tightly. He was saying something but you weren’t listening, trying to calm yourself down.

“What… what happened…”

“You were out with friends I guess, and got hit by a drunk driver. It looked pretty bad and you were… your upper half was sticking out of the car and you were… bleeding out…”

“So you came over to feed on us?”

“No, no that’s not what happened. The rest of your friends were unconscious but you were using every ounce of strength you had to call for help, even if you were choking on your own blood. Changkyun called 911 and… the rest of your friends seemed okay but I knew you weren’t going to make it. Changkyun tried to stop me but I couldn’t, I got you out of the wreck and decided to turn you, to save you.”

“You kidnapped me... everyone who knew me-”

“I was going to help you get back to them!” You looked up at him. “You had already lost so much blood you wouldn’t have made it. I made sure you did and was then gonna make sure you could still be there for everyone you cared for. You were a fledgling so I couldn’t just leave you at the crash site, so I brought you to my place and…”

“And what?”

“Hours later those hunters came… they killed the rest of my family… I thought I was dead too… but I felt worse about you, saving you from one thing only to have you killed by another, something worse.”

“But you’re not dead.”

“Changkyun came by my place with Minhyuk, found me and got me out of the building before it collapsed. I should have died that night like the rest of my family…”

“When… when I woke up… I didn’t remember anything… is that… is that normal?”

“Yeah. Your body was going through changes, so not remembering anything at first is normal. It would have come back to you, but those hunters told you who knows what and filled in the blanks for you instead of letting you remember the truth.”

    You were processing everything, the fragments and what Jooheon had said. It was all so much and you weren’t even sure if you could believe him.

“Those hunters lied to you about everything, they never cared about you. They’re monsters, murders, going after our kind and-”

“As if you’re any better!”

    You got out of Jooheon’s arms, stepping away from him. He got up too, glaring at you.

“Excuse me?”

“Your kind kills humans! Your so-called home had a basement full of bodies!”

“Those were hunters who tried to kill me and my family! It’s us or them and I chose them!”

“That doesn’t change the fact that you still kill innocent people!”

“Is that what they told you? We’re blood sucking murders? You’re a vampire too, so doesn’t that make you a monster too!”

“They raised me to be good!”

“They raised you to slaughter your own kind, and lied to you. We’re not all monsters, and I can prove that.”

    Jooheon grabbed your hand and dragged you along out of the room. He pulled you into an elevator, going down to the ground floor. That’s when you realized you were in a huge building, at least forty stories high. When the elevator doors opened you realized you were above some club.

“What the hell…”

“We own this club. A place where humans and vampires mingle without any danger.”

“What?”

“You can say it’s a secret vampire club. We have humans who are regulars here and volunteer to be feeders.”

“Wait, humans know about vampires!?”

“Some of them. Do you think all humans with that knowledge are hunters? They come here, have a good time, and are well taken care of. You’ve only ever dealt with the lowest of our kind, the ones who deserve to be killed for their actions, but we’re not all like that.”

“But…”

“I know, I know this must be hard to believe, but it’s true, I can-”

“Jooheon. I’ve been looking everywhere for you.”

“Ah, Kihyun. Y/n this is-”

“Ze.”

“Right, right, anyway, this is Kihyun, he looked after me when I was young.”

“Did he… did he turn you?”

“No, no that wasn’t me.” Kihyun said. “Shownu turned us both, I just made sure this one wasn’t trouble.”

“She doesn’t need to know about that. You said you were looking for me?”

“Yes. Now that you’re out of your room and among the living, we could use your help around the club again.”

“Of course, of course, I’ve been slacking off a bit.”

“A lot. Hyungwon needs you in the back with the entertainers.”

“Sure, can you get y/n-”

“Ze!”

“Can you take her to her room?”

“Yes. Come on, sweetheart.”

    You didn’t like the pet name, but followed him back upstairs anyway. The club was a surprise, it was weird, but it really made you wonder what else you didn’t know. Vampires you came across were so bloodthirsty and awful, yet here were some who lived like ordinary people. Although there was something else you were curious about.

“What… what do you mean Jooheon’s been slacking off?”

“Ah, that. He’s been locked up in his room for the last three years.”

“He has?”

“Ever since the incident… losing everyone he cared about… it really broke him. I honestly thought he’d never leave that room and just shrivel up. When he heard you were alive though, it’s like he was alive again. Now look at him, back on his feet and everything. Thanks to you.”

“Me…”

“Yes. I know you two have a lot to catch up on, but I won’t keep him too busy, promise.”

    He gave you a smile before leaving you back in your room. You just stood there for a while, going over his words. You sat down on the bed, realizing someone had changed the sheets, grabbing your head. They were lying to you, or maybe the boys were, but you didn’t know who to believe anymore.

    All you could do was think back to when you first met them all. After what happened in that building you woke up in the room you’d grow to call your own, fresh clothes and laying on a warm bed. You didn’t know what was going on but you weren’t alone when you opened your eyes, Johnny and Jaehyun there, outside the glass.

“Hey, are you feeling okay?” Jaehyun asked. “You passed out in the van.”

“Did I? I feel better now.”

“Good. We do need to talk about somethings though.”

    You really couldn’t believe what they told you, but they had their ways of proving it. At first it was hard to adjust, human food didn’t taste the same, and it did nothing to help satisfy your hunger. But they made sure to be there for you, every step of the way. You had been so lost in thought you didn’t even realize it had gotten dark out, which meant it was time to go. Even if you were still questioning who to trust, you just wanted to go home.

    The trip down to the club served to help you more than anything. You knew where to go and where the exit was, and it was all that mattered to you. You snuck out of your room no problem and were making your way to the elevator when you accidentally bumped into someone. It was someone you hadn’t met yet, so at least that worked to your advantage.

“Sorry about that, you must be y/n, I’m Minhyuk.”

“Hi…”

“What are you doing out here? Looking for Jooheon?”

“Yeah…”

“He’s down in the club, come on I’ll take you to him.”

    You rode the elevator with him, thankfully not making any small talk. You let him lead the way but as soon as you had the chance you ran off to the nearest exit. You were faster than humans, so you felt it was no problem, but as you approached the door you were suddenly grabbed and pulled away. You were confused to say the least, but quick to notice Kihyun holding you.

“And where do you think you’re going?”

“Huh? How did you… let me go!”

“Hush, I told you Jooheon wouldn’t be too busy, come on, let’s go back upstairs. We’re gonna open soon anyway.”

    You squirmed a bit in his grasp but quickly gave up when you realized how strong he was, stronger than Changkyun for sure. He let you go when you were in the elevator, pulling out his phone.

“You’re fast, but not that fast.” Kihyun put his phone against his ear. “Actually you’re three years old, you should have been much faster than that.”

    Kihyun had called Jooheon, explaining your little runaway attempt. He must have taken the stairs or some other elevator you didn’t know about since when you got back to your room he was there. He seemed upset but he said nothing about it. You on the other hand were glaring at him.

“Am I your prisoner now?”

“No.”

“Then I should be able to leave, right?”

“Wrong.” Kihyun said. “You need to stay here and-”

“Kihyun, she’s my fledgling, I can handle this.”

“I’m not a fledgling!”

“You’re only three years old, you are, you’re not really a vampire till you’re five.”

“What!”

“That’s not the point here.” He sighed. “Why did you run?”

“I wanted some fresh air.”

“Don’t lie to me!”

    You swallowed nervously, lowering your head. You suddenly felt really shy and scared. You didn’t notice but Kihyun punched Jooheon’s shoulder for his words.

“Please y/n…”

“I… I just want to go home…”

“Home? You mean those hunters?”

“Yes…”

“They’re not your family, I am.”

“You’re not the one who’s been there for me for the last year!”

“It’s been three years! You’re three!”

“No! If anything I’m one!”

“Y/n-”

“That’s not my name!”

“Okay, we’ll worry about that later, just calm down okay.”

“Just let me go!”

“That’s not going to happen.”

“Why not!”

“Cause I am not letting those bastards get their hands on you again!”

“You don’t tell me what to do!”

“I can if-”

“Okay, that’s enough shouting.” Kihyun interrupted. “You need to get along with her not shout. Now isn’t there something else to do besides yell.”

“Yes, yes there is.” Jooheon rolled up his sleeve and looked at you. “Bite me.”

“What?”

“Bite me. I need to make sure you’re okay, and that your fangs are working fine.”

“That’s a weird way to-”

“Just bite me already.”

“Okay…”

    You grabbed his arm, staring down at his wrist. The only thing you ever bit was your food, never biting another person, on purpose anyway, there were a few accidents. You looked up at Jooheon who was urging you on, so you just closed your eyes and bit him. You told yourself not to drink anything but maybe it was a force of habit. You quickly pulled away though, spitting out the blood in your mouth.

“Well I didn’t expect that…” Kihyun mumbled. “I thought-”

“Why did you use your venom?”

“What are you talking about?”

“Your bite. You used your venom.”

“Venom? What are you talking about?”

“Hold on.” He grabbed Kihyun’s arm. “Bite him.”

“Wait! I didn’t volunteer for this!”

“Do it.”

    You gave him a weird look but didn’t want to upset him again. You took a breath and bit Kihyun, the boy immediately screaming and pulling his arm away.

“That hurt!”

“Of course it did!” You shouted. “Vampire bites hurt!”

“They don’t have to, and as your sire your bite will never hurt me anyway.”

“What are you talking about?”

“A vampire bite can be pleasurable or painful. You produce pheromones and venom that your fangs release. Technically the pheromones are the default…”

“I don’t-”

    Jooheon was suddenly grabbing your face and forced your mouth open, personally examining your fangs. It felt weird to have someone else touch them, and then he felt your gums, making you flinch a bit.

“What the hell…”

“Hm?”

“Y/n… this is gonna hurt, and I’m sorry.”

“Hm!”

    You tried to get away from Jooheon but he held you in place. You felt his claws in your mouth, slicing open your upper gums, and then you felt him pull something out. You screamed, the pain not just in your mouth but your fangs as well. You collapsed to the floor, hand over your mouth, trying to fight the ache. You looked up to see some piece of metal with wires hanging from it in Jooheon’s hand. He was examining it, Kihyun as well.

“What the fuck is this?”

“It was in her mouth?” Kihyun asked. “Connected to her fangs?”

“Yes.”

“I think that’s why venom was her default. They put something in her mouth so she wouldn’t use the pheromones, even if she wanted to.”

    Jooheon knelt down, grabbing your chin so you would look at him and showing you the thing he had in his hand.

“Did you know this was in your mouth?” 

    You shook your head. He seemed upset, maybe angry, but nothing was clear to you since you were more focused on the pain. He stared at the device for a while longer before focusing back on you.

“I’ll look into this some more. Now can you show me your wings.”

    Your eyes went wide when he said that, and you slowly looked at him. Your mouth had stopped bleeding, but the wound still stung.

“My… my what?”

“Your wings. After a year they start growing. I just want to see them, no touching this time I promise.”

“I… I don’t have wings…”

“You do, all vampires do.” He stood up and took a step back, revealing his, big and black, just like a bat. “See.”

You shook your head again. “I don’t have wings.”

“You do. Let me see.”

    He put his away and went over to you, pressing a hand against your back. Again you flinched, moving away. He stared but didn’t say anything, moving closer and grabbing you again, feeling your back.

“This… this isn’t right…”

“I told you I don’t have wings.”

“You should… unless…”

    He tore the back of your shirt, ignoring your complaints and attempts to move again, his cold hands against your skin. He was definitely feeling around, and you could tell he was getting upset again.

“This is going to hurt… and I’m sorry.”

“Wait! What are you-”

    You screamed before finishing your sentence, his claws digging into your back this time, the pain worse than before. You could feel his fingers getting under your skin, ripping something out of you again. You collapsed to the floor, laying on your stomach, panting. Jooheon threw this other, bigger, piece of metal on the floor, falling back in disbelief.

“They… I can’t…”

    You felt as if your back was on fire, this pain radiating from the wound, but there was more. You suddenly felt something else on your back, so you slowly reached a hand back there, feeling this small stump sticking out of you, two of them. It hurt when you touched them, and you screamed out again.

“Don’t touch them!” Jooheon crawled over to you. “They need to heal.”

“What…”

“Your wings…”

    The pain only got worse, making it so tears started to fall. You curled up a bit but moving only made things worse. You bit your lip, trying to contain the pain, but it just hurt like nothing you’ve ever felt before.

“Those bastards need to pay for this! What else have they-”

    Jooheon grabbed you, only making you scream again, but Kihyun pulled him away, this time slapping him.

“Ya! You need to calm down. If you wanted her to hate those hunters, I think you got the message across clearly. But before you do anything stupid you need to let her process this. She didn’t know they were suppressing her nature like this. Besides, her wings need to heal… hopefully they will.”

“What does that mean!”

“You saw what they had in her! That thing has been in there for at least two years, stunting the growth of her wings, they might not be able to heal.”

“They will heal, and I will kill those hunters for this.”

You kept your head propped up on your hand as you look up at the bare back of the man you called your best friend. He ran his fingers through his hair before looking at the white wall in front of him. You pulled the blanket closer to you, covering your chest.

“Why do we keep doing this?” he asks, refusing to look back at you.

“Having sex for fun?” you ask, sitting up, before shrugging, “for fun, obviously.”

Hoseok sighed and turned slightly, looking back at you, “You think I don’t know you have feelings for me?”

You freeze and swallow hard, starring at him. It was true, you had feelings for him. You’ve had feelings for him for a long time, and at one point you even thought you’d become more than friends that had sex with each other. Your heart began to race as he sighed again.

“Y/N, we can’t keep doing this when you feel that way towards me,” he mumbled, making you furrow your eyebrows.

“W-Why not?” you ask, “we’ve been doing this for a year now, my feelings didn’t stop that before then.”

Hoseok stared at you for a second, “because you’re going to begin to believe we’ll be something more when we never will.”

You stare at him then look down at your lap, “why do you say that?”

“Because I’m only going to ever hurt you,” he muttered, “you know this. I only want sex, if we became more then I’m going to hurt you by sleeping with other people. You’re too much of a goody two shoes, you want a relationship, dating, roses, a ring on that pretty little finger. I can’t and won’t give that to you. You need someone like Kihyun or Shownu, not me.”

You swallow hard, “but I want you.”

“I don’t want you. I want sex and your friendship, you agreed to this a year ago and nothing, nothing is going to change my mind.”

You bit your bottom lip and nodded before standing up, quickly getting dressed. Your heart ached, you felt stupid and pathetic to be leaving like this. This was how your fun was going to end. How could you be so stupid to think he’d want anything more with you?

“I’ll see you at the concert tonight?” Hoseok asked as you began to walk towards the door.

You stopped and nod, “yeah, but after that, I’m not so sure.”