#sharingmytruth

-Cole

This post is another lengthy one about sharing my truth (part of my spiritual principle for Feb). I have been sitting on big news for close to two months out of FEAR. What if it doesn't work out? What if it isn't everything I was told it was? What if I can't do it? What if this, what if that? I have only shared it with a small handful of people for fear of things not working out, which is ridiculous. UGH!!! In late December, an opportunity to realize a lifelong dream pretty much fell into my lap. A dream that was born when I was 12 that I'd given up on long ago for more reasons to list. And, there it was, this opportunity, staring me in the face and asking "well, what are you going to do with me?" I'd like to think that that which is meant for you always finds a way. Even if you think you've given up on it, even if it takes years, or even decades. These days, even tho I sometimes stumble, I force myself to walk through fear. And, if, in the end, it doesn't work out, so what! The only way to really "fail" is to not even try. So, this is me, announcing to the universe that I'm accepting this gift and opportunity to go back to school. Because, the reasons NOT to do it and not to tell anyone are just dumb. #excited #sharingmytruth #sharingandcaring #forensics #takingthatfirststep #thankstomypal #neverstoplearning #theuniversehasmyback https://www.instagram.com/p/Btt0UyRnqTn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17m4dspupvku7

"Why do you always take picture of me, Mommy?" .... "Well, so that when you're grown up, i have something to look at and see when you're this little!" .... "Ohhhh i know! Because you love me, Mommy!" .... "Yes! Yes i do!" .... This is not just a random moment. Any moment with him that gives opportunity to let him know that he is loved, is a moment to be treasured. When he gave me that joyful look and raised his eyebrows and said "ohhh i know! Because you love me, Mommy!" ..i know without a doubt that he will remember this moment later, not because of what we said to each other, but rather, it's what that moment made him feel.... He is loved. ... #preciousmoments #Gratefulforthesemoments #lovedforfree #joysofmotherhood #moments #lifewithatoddler #singlemotherhood #singleparenting #treasuredmemories #capturingthemoment #innocence #Godisgood #lovedforfree #momblogger #tumblr #joyful #myjourney #sharingmytruth #moms #love #blessed #redeemed #enjoytoday #lifeasamother #mothersaremysuperheroes #bepresent #grace #mercy #humility #Godknowswhatyouneed

•SUNDAY NAPS• Hah! That moment when you just stare at your child while he's napping because you just love him so much!!!! Quiet Sunday afternoon at home is the best!!! I can't help myself but truly just thank the Lord for guiding me through this journey of motherhood! It's a journey of multiple up's and down's and everything in between are those moments where you can breathe and know that you're ready for whatever comes next....because deep inside you, you know that every movement in this journey is teaching you something.... showing you just how brave mothers really are! Showing you just how magical this journey really is! Even when you know that some of these moments are incredibly hard.... with God's help...we will always be okay. Just a little bit of faith... that is all it takes sometimes...that is all it takes!!! ❤❤❤ #mothersaremysuperheroes #Godlovesmothers #graceandmercy #walkingbyfaithnotbysight #somedaysarehard #keepingitreal #moments #sharingmytruth #vulnerable #humblebeforeGod #toddlerlife #sunday #tumblr #momlife #naptime #lovedforfree #parentingisnteasy #singlemomrocks #faithinGod #Heisthetruthandthelight #love #moments #cherishingthemoment #iwillmissthisimsure #life #truth

I think I took "airing out my dirty laundry" to a whole new level last night. So I was asked to speak to my amazing team about FOOD ADDICTION... something that I've been slowly sharing with others and how I've struggled with it since I was prolly 10 years old... but it hasn't become as noticeable until these past 10 years... I didn't know that while talking about food addiction, it would open so many windows, doors, basement doors (and maybe the kitchen cupboard too), into my past of other things I've used to deal with my food addiction(my depression and anxiety included)... things like drinking, using sleep to escape the world, obsession with working out, a computer game called VAMPIRE WARS(yes my inner nerd is showing) and sometimes punishing myself with eating even more. I have NEVER SHARED ALL OF THESE THINGS to the public and honestly, I wasn't going to. But I feel like I have a wall holding me back. That huge ass wall has a name too, it's called FEAR. I no longer want to live my life in Fear. Fear that someone will reject me because of my "dirty laundry" .. Fear that sharing my addictions (and sometimes addictive personality) will make others feel or think less of me. Fear that I'm not worthy of friendship and love. Fear that I'm not "good enough". Because I am worthy of everything and anything I want out of life! So this moment, right now, I am saying TO HELL WITH FEAR! If raising my voice and "airing out my laundry" makes me anything less than awesome in someone elses eyes, then you aren't worthy of my amazing-ness(is that a word? if not, IT IS NOW!) To all of you amazing people, who feel FEAR of "airing out your laundry".. always know you've got me! I will bring the laundry detergent and you bring the clothes pin! We will wash our dirty laundry together and then share the same clothes line ;-) "Hello, fear. Thank you for being here.You're my indication that I'm doing what I need to do." by Cheryl Strayed >>>--->>🏹❤️👸🏻💪 #sharingmytruth #thursday #doinghardthings #scarythings #fearcanbiteme😈

Ponder the beauty of possibility • You're are free to go • You know what travels faster than the speed of light? Thoughts! Just a snippet of a dance improv with the powerful #Truthbombs by @daniellelaporte Movement and dance has always been a big part of my joy! Song by Lapsley • Station (Follow along for Playlist galore on Spotify) #TheGirlfriendmanifesto #dancebreak #music #soul #freemovement #movement #dance #free #vision #lifeisbutadream #sharingmytruth #brave #nooga #chattanooga