#takingthatfirststep

So I guess I'm making a leap to believe in myself for once. Besides applying for a writing position I may never get, writing a personal work of love aimed at the LGBTQ+ community, gathering poetry for a book one day maybe, I'm switching to "professional" because, I HAVE been published once, but it feels often ridiculous saying that because I see myself living in rural Indiana again, being a "nothing." This is not my beautiful house, this is not my beautiful wife. No more same as it ever was, Talking Heads. Now we're putting on some Queen. Tonight, I want to break free. 🖤👏🏼🌈 (Now someone hold my hand lol.) #poetsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #takingthatfirststep #professionaldevelopment #believeinyourself #dontstopmenow #freddiemercuryforever #lgbtqwriters #enbypride (at Greensburg, Indiana) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMqMDpbFX-W/?igshid=om2xib7h8azp

This post is another lengthy one about sharing my truth (part of my spiritual principle for Feb). I have been sitting on big news for close to two months out of FEAR. What if it doesn't work out? What if it isn't everything I was told it was? What if I can't do it? What if this, what if that? I have only shared it with a small handful of people for fear of things not working out, which is ridiculous. UGH!!! In late December, an opportunity to realize a lifelong dream pretty much fell into my lap. A dream that was born when I was 12 that I'd given up on long ago for more reasons to list. And, there it was, this opportunity, staring me in the face and asking "well, what are you going to do with me?" I'd like to think that that which is meant for you always finds a way. Even if you think you've given up on it, even if it takes years, or even decades. These days, even tho I sometimes stumble, I force myself to walk through fear. And, if, in the end, it doesn't work out, so what! The only way to really "fail" is to not even try. So, this is me, announcing to the universe that I'm accepting this gift and opportunity to go back to school. Because, the reasons NOT to do it and not to tell anyone are just dumb. #excited #sharingmytruth #sharingandcaring #forensics #takingthatfirststep #thankstomypal #neverstoplearning #theuniversehasmyback https://www.instagram.com/p/Btt0UyRnqTn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17m4dspupvku7