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#ChurchLettering is also other wonderful tool to help remember your sermon notes. Book From: @paigetateandco

The flicker I am vs the light I want to be

I have been a Christian my whole life. I was brought up in a Christian home (my father’s family was catholic and my mother’s family belonged to the church of God) since my parents families were not the same denomination my parents made the decision for my sister and I that we would be raised as Methodist. I went to preschool in this church, my best friends were from this church, my now soon to be husband was a member of this church. If you can’t tell yet this church was a huge part of my life, this church affected the other aspects of my life in such beautiful ways. I always knew i believed in the Lord, Jesus, Heaven, Hell... all of it. I knew in my being that this is my God and i went to church on Sunday’s with my family. I knew the children stories, i attended youth group (where i met my fiancé), went on a mission trip, chose to become a member when I was of age, chose to get baptized to this church at 13, and made a home in this church for the first 15 years of my life. Less than a month after my 15th birthday my grandmother passed away.. she was the light of my life.. my heart grew stone cold that February. I was angry at God. He took her away before my life began.. she wouldn’t be there when i took my first solo road trip back home from where my family lived.. she wouldn’t be there when i met my fiancé (she missed him by 2 months and 3 days).. she wasn’t going to be there to see me graduate, start college, get my degree, get married, have babies of my own. She would have no idea of the life that was to come and i was livid. I blamed the lord for unanswered prayers, for failing me, for failing her..

I stopped attending church regularly, i stopped praying, i stopped learning his word.. i was lost. I am lost.

Today, at almost 21 years old, I attended a service with a friend i have known since preschool at her new church and the message spoke to me. I felt his love. I felt that He hadn’t abandoned me, that He had let me be angry knowing i was angry about the situation and not angry at my faith in Him.. even though i wasnt very nice during the past 6 years at times.

I highly reccomend writing out Church notes, a great way to concentrated and look back and reflect on rich truth. Like this: “All of Scripture Moses, Joshua etc..All points to one and only deliver Jesus Christ” 🙌 (Book by @amandaarneill)