okay. its 5:55 PM on a wednesday. lets take stock, okay?
- you have not been focusing well.
- you are not focusing well during work. you are leaning into major avoidant tactics
- you have been trying to compensate by pretending to work late into the night or doing 2-3 AM work sessions
- you need to do a combination of actual work amd coordination prep work
- you are getting overwhelmed by the scope of everything you need to do, and plus, every time you run into a reminder you might have done something wrong before, you are flinching from it
- you cannot keep flinching from it
- especially if you want to fix it in time
- i need you to stsrt somewhere and keep going. do you understand. i need you to stsrt somewhere and keep going. this cannot be a punushment cycle
that isnt going to work long term. this work is ongoing for at least the end of october you cannot keep going like this. do you understand? you are reinforcing the aversion. you are reinforcing the flinch reflex. you cant keep doing this. you cant.
i need you to make the list, do at least one or two things, and then rest. do you understand? please.