#selfreflecting

Listening to Lucky Daye Misunderstood

Sometimes growing curious as to what pain

Occurred in your childhood

You make out that you’re so strong, too strong

Never afraid to be alone

But sometimes cry in silence

Because there is a fear of being vulnerable.

It’s not my place to call out the root cause for you

Because it is your path to explore the feelings of your own truth.

Just note that we’re all ascending,

Coming into a heightened  age.

Still built up emotions pending

Coming out of this retrograde.

Life is a continuous healing,

Because in life you have to live

And living requires growth 

Exploring root causes of pain that hurt you the most.

Embracing the joys, triumphs 

Once we tackle the inner work.

You have no obligations to make sense to me

Or honestly anybody,

But it wasn’t something I couldn’t already see.

That’s why I never understood why you hid things from me.

You’re not the most affective communicator

Because you don’t feel, you THINK.

You don’t surrender, you control

In love, when it feels good, 

You don’t know how to let go.

Meaning you don’t know how to receive.

And I get it, that was also me.

You dislike communicative confrontation

So you take offense of the entire situation

Bottling everything in like “woe is me”.

So much for certain addictions

Sex, drinking, and or LSD.

I always seen you clear

And you knew I could mind read

Due to my gift of empathy,

But I don’t hate you.

My soul is just way too tired to wait on you.

Life is just way to short to play player boo

The game is old, but the gamers are advanced or new.

You were a moderation of the two

Nothing I ain’t seen before

Just sent to challenge you to choose your heart

Or continue the cycle as you’ve done before.

You’re quite a stubborn soul.

Choosing girls who like you more

And stunting your own growth.

That shit don’t work.

Wanting your ego to be stroked

Afraid to loose all self control

In the end you suffer most

Because a connection is intended to be mutual,

Not a half flow.

I ain’t saying this to taunt you

Or size you down a notch

Or expose the secrets of your heart

There are still things you kept from me

Secrets I still hold for you

Though you tried to play me 

Like I was the fool solely chasing you,

But all the way to California dude?

I didn’t even want to go.

I went because Rahjuice asked me to.

We weren’t a “situationship”

We had a whole relationship.

Chose to keep it private.

You may draw a blank after what you said

After our Bahamas trip.

But I’m not here to prove shit.

I just can’t stand liars.

 I did the same dumb shit you did

In my last relationship.

Knowing my heart was with someone else

And couldn’t fully give to him,

Plus, I had a low tolerance for childishness.

Despite me and my situation,

It’s not about me.

This time now, has always been about you

And aiding your convalescence.

It’s been about shedding light on your truth.

Do you live in fear?

Are you bisexual?

Is how you’ve been truly serving you?

Don’t take it personal.

These are just examples to assist you.

How can you ever attract the best from your situations 

If no one knows the real you?

Life is about living free in one’s own truth,

Not going about it as if life’s one big interview

Because the REAL ONES can see through you.

I digress.

I’m not here to preach or lesson.

Hope you’re truly progressing

Healing your adolescents

Expounding on where you’re stagnant

Shedding light on your darkness

To aim exactly at your targets.

I pray you know despite all the bs

You are still deserving

You just have to feel it.

To feel is to know.

I wish you growth

From feeling your true love lives only in your fantasies.

They can also be in your reality.

But stay safe. 

Know that heaven is also here on Earth.

And you do have a safe space.