#seankin

oh, god, echo, anima, painbody, i hope you're all alright. i'm sorry i was such a bastard to you all, so violent and cruel, you all didn't deserve it. i didn't like seeing physical proof that i was getting worse, and the medulla was making me so much harsher. you all didn't deserve to suffer. i hope you're all living, now. i hope you're all living your own lives. do you think about how you're a part of me, or did you abandon that thought? i admit, i'm thinking about the fact you're all part of me, or maybe how i'm a part of you all. echo, anima, painbody, are you out there? did you all make it out? did you finally become human, become real? i hope you all did. my pride refuses to say 'i miss you,' but i cannot hide the fact i fear i'm the only part of me out here. you all wanted to be real. i hope you're real. i hope you're enjoying humanity. you all deserve it. i hope you aren't all stuck in me, now. it feels strange, thinking of my fragments as part of me again. i don't enjoy it. please, be your own people now. please.

i got to meet one of the actors for my source today. that was pleasant. i was a bit scared (didn't want to come off as weird/too excitable) but i did get a photo together. even though the meeting was cut off short since i had to leave to dinner, it was nice.

I miss my Rebecca. Yeah, we split before I died, and yes, I was the one who pushed her away in the first place because I was planning on killing her asshole father and then myself (I still would kill him if I was given the chance), but I really fucking regret breaking up with her. I have my own partner now in this life, and I love them very very deeply, but I still can’t help but miss what Rebecca and I had. I miss her touch, her kind words, her insistence to never leave my side even when I begged her to. Wherever my Rebecca is, I miss you, but I need to move on or I’ll never be happy. I hope you find someone out there for you who makes you happy. I’m sorry I left you so suddenly.

fictionkin here, i have sean from seildirectory as a kintype and i kinda wish there were others like me out there lol. i know most fictionkins don't like seeing doubles or other people from the media they kin from but idk i think it would be neat! otherwise i guess i could just chill out n vibe lol. also like. how do you explain to someone that all you want to look like is this blocky roblox character who only has one fucking eye. like how do you explain that. i mean its nice i get my eye back but like. hello. my voice is too high pitched WHAT is happening.