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oct. 30th ‘17  //  [1/100 days of productivity]

Day 1 of my productivity and my new supplies came in! I printed some planners out and organized all of my notebooks in my study area. I can’t wait until my textbook comes in the mail too! [studygram]

I’m CJ (seajay) and I’m quite new to the studyblr community. I started my blog around 6 months ago (maybe) but never really used it, nor studied... But I am here with full motivation and an actual study schedule! 

I never quite introduced myself to the comm so I thought day one of @justjasminestudying ‘s challenge would be a perfect opportunity! So here goes nothin’! 

About Me: 

Age: 18 

Currently (self) studying: Korean (Beginner 1) 

I’m from the US

I’ve never traveled out the country (yet) but I have been to many places within America.

I’m not currently enrolled in school 

I graduated high-school early

Passions: music, photography, creative writing, fashion design, traveling. 

TRACKING: #seajaystudies

Why I started a studyblr: 

I have always loved stationary and making my studies somewhat pleasing (or attempting to). I grew up scrapbooking and stuff so I loved the idea of bullet journals. So when I saw that studyblrs were a thing, I knew I had to make one... But then I didn’t... It wasn’t until I decided to study Korean was it when I started my studyblr as motivation and a reason to stay productive.. But then I fell off because I wasn’t truly studying Korean. I didn’t have the motivation, and things were happening personally that were holding me back from truly thriving. But here I am! I’m more motivated than ever and I actually have the means to study! I may not be enrolled in an actual school (and I really hope I don’t get trouble in the comm because of this) but I have more than enough motivation. 

nov. 1st ‘17 [ 3/100 days of productive ] 

Today I didn’t do much towards my studying, except rewrite my schedule. But I did get some shots done as well and some photo editing done. I feel really accomplished. Nothing feels better than getting my creative thoughts flowing.

nov. 2nd ‘17 - [ 4/100 days of productivity ]

My books came in today!! The tracking number said that they wouldn’t arrive until the 10th.. They came early!! I’m so excited! I guess I’m off to an early start! Also, I want to do @getshitdonetbh ‘s “November Study Challenge” even though I missed the first one.. So I’ll incorporate the second challenge “task” into this! My goal for this month is to finish this book within 4 weeks! I have a ver intensive schedule (you can see it on my screen if you squint hehe), and I hope I’ll be able to reach my goal and retain the information while doing it.. We shall see. 

oct. 31st ‘17 // [ 2/100 days of productivity ]

Happy Halloween everyone!! Today I went out, bought extra candy for the trick-or-treaters….and no one came!!!! The first year I decide to handout candy instead of go out, no one showed up! Oh well, that just means I had a little more time to design my new November calendar desktop and I get all the candy to myself. It’s a win-win!! 

I feel like I’m always lagging behind. Not just with family, friends, peers.. But with myself. I’ve set up these goals that seem just so minor, just so reachable, yet I can’t even touch those said goals. I’m always falling behind. One day its procrastination, the other day it’s my studying speed, the next its my family coming in and distracting me, and then it’s just me. Me being not being able to absorb anymore. Me not being able to work at a suitable pace. Me. Behind. As always. 

I was in a beginner’s class for another language a while back, and I was so motivated. So excited. I was a the top of my class for at least the first two months. Then I started getting behind. The rest of the class flew through the materials while I was still lingering. Life got rough but my motivation still stayed there and I fought my way through the class.. Then one week it happened. I had practiced and studied and practiced and studied all week for the next class. “You should really review the materials on your own throughout the week so that we can move on to the next lessons.” The teacher said to me as I struggled with my pronunciation, trembling because I knew that everyone else had already gotten this down. I shattered. Shut down. All motivation lost. It’s not what the teacher had said. It was the fact that I had worked so hard all those days. Hour after hour. Working. Studying. And I was still behind. I was always behind. After that, days leading up to class were filled with anxiety and tears. Lots and lots of tears. I couldn’t help it. I tried my best, and in the end I wasn’t enough. 

Shortly after that I stopped trying. I stopped going to the classes, and then I officially quit. I gave some story, that was partially the truth. Whatever needed to be done to get out of those classes. Those reminders of how behind I always am and always will be. 

Today was a reminder of the fact that I’m always behind. I’ve been working so hard and the progress is still little to none. 

“You’re still on that?” 

“Are you sure you’ll be able to do that?”

“Doesn’t look like you’ve done anything.”

All things I heard today. Out of context, it sounds harsh. In context, it doesn’t sound much better, but it’s true. Yes I’m still on that. No, I’m not sure I’ll be able to do that. And I know that it doesn’t look like I’ve done anything. I know. I know I know I know. 

I’m trying my best. 

But in the end, I won’t be good enough. I’ll never be good enough.

I’ll always be behind.