#sbi stream

[~put over La Jolla from YCGMA~

Wilbur: Phil, I’m—I...

Phil: How did you get yourself into this? You showed me you were getting—you were doing better, you were getting better, you were doing well...

Wilbur: I’m—I’m *trying*! It was going better, it was getting better. ...I said I’d be good. And I was, I was good, for a while. 

I don’t know, man, I don’t know if I can actually—if I... I’m trying so hard, and nothing seems to be getting better, and I think there might just be something wrong with me, and I—I don’t know how I can get people to forgive me, because they say they do and I just don’t believe that they do...

Phil: Well, have you tried just saying sorry? Like, have you just... apologized, heartfelt?

Wilbur: Yeah, but no one’s, like... I feel like no one’s actually, just, forgiven me, I feel like everyone says that ‘cause they’re scared of me and then it feels like I’m trying to push back...

Phil: Listen. Sometimes, you fall so far, so low, that there isn’t, or doesn’t seem to be a way to be forgiven. Sometimes you can’t expect forgiveness at all. You can’t expect it to be your end goal. Your end goal should be to allow others to move on from the mistakes you’ve made. You have to bring closure to the suffering you’ve caused, Wil. That’s the most important thing right now.

Wilbur: But I’m trying. I really am trying. I keep going to people, I just keep making worse, it feels like.

Phil: You have to give them space. If you’ve offered all you can and it still isn’t enough, you need to just let them go, Wil, you need to let them heal without you. I know it’s probably not what you want to hear, but you can’t force people to change their minds.

Wilbur: No, you’re right. You’re right. I need to... Okay. I understand, thank you. Uh...

Phil: Is there anybody, right now that you’re thinking of that you’ve wronged in the past?

Wilbur: *opens the door to Tommy*

Tommy: WIlbur?