#samzazel

thinking about how dean canonically killed two of sam's rapists (azazel and lucifer).

sam is a deer with gorgeous antlers and his body has so much delicious meat, which attracts all kinds of hunters and hungry predators. john and dean leave hurtful bite marks on his nape when trying to keep and control him, lucifer made (ate) a home for himself between his ribs, azazel sank his teeth deep into his sweet, uncorrupted heart when sam was just a newborn fawn, ruby and brady took their bites out of him too

azazel using johns body to rape sam regularly pre-series. sam thinks its john and john doesn't know why sam is suddenly acting different around him or the weird accusations sam makes during their fights, and sam thinks john is denying what he did, which only causes them to fight more

walk with me here okay. azazel fucking sam and talking about how much sam reminds him of mary, of her heat, her pretty moans. talks in depth about how invigorating it felt using her wearing samuels skin. how her exclaims of disgust, her please, dad’s sound just like sams. the feel of sam, inside n out, his hair, his smell, just like mary. its the closest sams felt to his mother fucking ever. the more he’s learnt about her aside from johns drunken ramblings. all the while azazel is achingly loving, sweet-talking sam with such adoration and reverence for his creation. saying how sams his as much as he’s johns, how his blood runs through sam just as heavy, just as thick, implies that sam might’ve been mary’s & his’s all along. god. is this thing on.

listen. listen to me. that scene where azazel possesses john. he should have been saying things that only he and sam would understand. he built sam's whole life around demons watching him and the demon blood in his veins. he should have talked about sam's prom night and that teacher that changed sam's life and every intimate detail those demons got from sam. sam should've found out then, through the lips of his father who stalked him at stanford, that he would have never escaped. that he was watched and guided constantly. that he was never alone from demonic presences.