#ruetalks

i finally started rewatching black sails and when captain hume said "tell me something, mr. guthrie. do you have gossip here? ... i've often wondered if it can survive in so remote a location. you see, gossip is what holds civilization together. it reinforces shame. and without shame, well, the world is a very dangerous place." with flint in the room, i lost it a little.

maybe one of the reasons why billy is a loud person and always plays a loud song at the background and prefers loud places and gravitates towards people who promises chaos is because the morning his mother left, he woke up to a silent house and he hates it. he hates the silence, he hates standing still, he hates waiting... it makes him feel like something bad will happen again. have you thought about that? good. now think ahout how mindflayer makes him sit still in his room covered in dirt and in silence.

today's devastating thought is that billy's last "i'm sorry" is for the future as much it is for the past because he's leaving max with neil like his mother did to him

when people compare jonathan (who drives who knows how long of a road to get to lonnie's house) (who literally barges into lonnie's house) (who roams around lonnie's house without a care for him) (who shoves lonnie away and talk back to him) (who steals lonnie's gun) (i repeat, who steals from lonnie and gets away with it) (who, as far as i remember, doesn't interact/see his face/talk about lonnie again) and billy (who can't raise his voice to neil without neil getting back at him) (who can't speak his mind/defend himself verbally against neil without neil getting back at him) (who gets called a slur in real time on our screens in front of us) (who gets shoved to his own(?) bookcase in his own(?) room and stays still) (who gets hit and doesn't flinch and/or make a move against neil) (who is forced to cancel his date and sent to look for max by neil which is another topic on its own) (who cries after) (who we see has a lock on his room's door later) (i repeat, who his door has a lock on the outside after that night)

every time an artist draws jason with the neck scar, an angel grows a wing

okay but what about a jonathan who gives billy a bath and cleans him off blood and tears after he shoots neil in front of him and the blood splashes on billy?