Hey everyone, Caira/Errormun here
So you’ve probably been noticing my absence on this blog and the Discord server for a while. No, I’m not gone or anything. Just this past year, I’ve been dealing with anxiety quite a bit. Funny thing is, when this blog first started, I used to be so mentally stable. Not that the blog is a correlation to that. Anyway, I was hoping I’d get this posted weeks ago but doing that made me feel anxious. Even though I’d feel anxious once I got it done. But, anyway
I’m closing Studiotale Production’s Patreon. Well, not closing it, but not allowing anymore patrons for now. I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress for multiple reasons. But I’m only listing the reasons that will affect you guys. TL:DR will be in bold or italics.
- One, because of RPGoner. As much as I really, really wanted RPGoner to be a comic series, I’m not a comic artist. I’ve been drawing for years but I’ve quickly learned comics are a whole other kettle of fish. And I was hoping I’d get the hang of it quickly but it only stressed me out. Am I quitting RPGoner? Hell no. Instead, RPGoner will become an illustrated novel. I will be writing out RPGoner and adding pictures to the pages as needed to capture moments. I figure this will help me get more of the story done, not only faster, but it will also allow me to capture so much more of a story in detail than if it was just visually seen.Â
- Two, I’ve been feeling a lot of guilt and anxiety with Patreon. I felt a lot of guilt that I wasn’t pushing out enough content on a constant basis. Yeah, people only pledge just a couple dollars a month, but financially, I do not have a lot of money. So a couple dollars a month seems like a lot to me. I physically get sick at the idea of looking at Patreon and seeing what has come in cause I just feel so much guilt. With that, at least until I can get more content out, I will be closing funds for Studiotale. The money that Patrons have funded to us will be going to charity, Mainly, Shriner’s Hospital for Children, which is a nonprofit organization that I’ve donated to a few times when I can for helping my younger brother out during a very bad accident
Well, there you have it. I’m really sorry, guys. I know I hyped up RPGoner and honestly, I still think the ideas for it is amazing. It’s the execution of this idea that’s kicking my ass. I hope everyone forgives me.
I’m feeling a bit better getting it all off my chest. As soon as I get some commissions finished, some long overdue, I will be reworking on RPGoner and may still continue my mini-series Modern Selves