#riverdads

"I’m sorry I made you get sober just for it to end like this," FP managed to say, each word coughed out like a shard of broken glass in his throat. Black spots floated and rippled through his sight, growing in intensity with every word. He tried to swallow, and the pain got worse. 

GOD I don't know if you watched episode two yet but there's this whole bit of Raf accidently seeing Kirin's dick and accusing him of peeking at dicks while he walks around with his dick all out and proud and like... idk who Raf is there but the rest is big Marty energy right there.

I'm thinking Seth kind of has Fred energy for the simple reason that he's on this island for a whole ass day and he's already got a boy in love with him but I need to watch more before I decide anything.

I know I said Bo and Scotty are halram and I stand by that but Ivan also gives me big Hiram diva energy in the best way. But lemme stress the scene of them peeing is 100% halram.

Is to was.

It's a simple change of a word. And yet, it was the final realization for me that he was truly gone. Luke Perry, whom I've only known through Riverdale, passed away recently.

Seeing the small change of the word is to was, was the final straw for me, before I had my first breakdown (my first of many). At first, when my friend messaged me the news, I didn't truly believe it. There was no way Luke Perry was gone. But then, as I did research, my fears were confirmed.

He was such an amazing actor. I grew to love him first as his character Fred Andrews. Then, by watching panels and interviews, I grew to love the true gentleman with a big heart that was Luke Perry.

He was truly a loveable, charming, generous person. He was a role model. He was a friend. He was so many things to so many people. He touched so many lives. And I think that's why it affects me so much. Because he wasn't done. I feel like he had so many more lives to change still.

Being part of a fandom is mostly a fun, positive experience. But it's situations like this that are always so... odd. Mourning over someone I've never personally met is hard, and it feels like it won't get any better. There's this heavy, sinking feeling in my gut and a hole in my heart.

My heart goes out to his family, his friends, his co stars (past and present), and anyone else that had the pleasure of meeting such a remarkable person.

Luke, wherever you may be, I hope you're resting easy. You will never be forgotten. You will stay in our hearts forever. ❤

Fred: You should tweet that.

F.P.: I don't do that.