love sick — 24. mega ultra galactic curse
romance 101; ideal partner — #19 someone who prioritizes me and think of me all the time <3
time stamps are relevant (involves the ones from the previous chapters),
it only took suna rintarou a few days after calling things off between you two to realize he made a big mistake.
atsumu had probably put a curse on him, because how else could suna describe the ache in his chest and the urge to see you other than complete and utter lovesickness? yeah, atsumu put a mega ultra galactic curse on him. that was probably what you would call it. even now, your effect on him extended to his vocabulary.
it was barely a week after he pushed you away that he tried to crawl right back to you. he had low hopes that you would respond, especially since he knew he was an asshole to you. yet, he tried it again, not being able to resist reaching out, but still received no response from you.
that was when suna thought he should pull through with his declaration. he had completely ruined what you guys had. there was no going back. so, rightfully, he should move on.
he would move on.
why was it so hard to move on from you?
he kept lying to his friends, just like the way he kept lying to himself. you’ve clearly shown that you’re upset with him by ignoring his messages, that you wouldn’t want to entertain his bullshit anymore. so why is it that he picks up every crumb that atsumu would toss to him related to you?
was this pure helplessness?
it was an unfamiliar feeling. it gnawned at his resolve to do what he thought was best for the two of you. deep down, he knew you were right. he was being a coward. he let himself get provoked and doubted his feelings out of fear that it would all backfire on him. in the end, it was his own actions that backfired on him anyways. so what did he achieve? absolutely nothing. at what cost? your smile, your laugh, and the warmth that you shared with him.
suna knew his flaws. he could be a bit overconfident at times. stubborn too. a bit prideful, yeah. too distant at times, sure. he always thought of it as sort of an armor. he knew himself well, and he knew how to handle anything life threw at him by himself. yet clearly, he doesn’t know how to properly let other people in.
it was probably because for the first time in his life, he was scared someone would see him for him and decide he wasn’t worth staying for. so he stopped it before that could happen. he only realized how stupid it was too late. now, he reaps the consequences.
he deserved it. he should be satisfied with seeing you from afar and seeing that you were doing well. he should be satisfied with watching you keep your smile. though, an ugly part of him was greedy enough to think that he wanted that smile to be because of him.
“suna, you were distracted in the match,” sakusa points out while they were stretching.
“ah, sorry,” was his dry reply.
“was atsumu—god forbid—right?” sakusa probes uncharacteristically. usually sakusa wouldn’t bother since it was none of his business. suna does recall him dropping the bomb on his check-ins to your shared class with his teammate the other day.
suna looks over to atsumu who was on the other side doing his stretches. suna didn’t need to know what sakusa was asking about. “unfortunately, he is.”
“hm,” sakusa hums, “so what are you going to do about it?”
suna didn’t know what to respond. the right response, the script he was going with for the past few months, was ‘i’m dealing with it on my own’. the other voice in his head was shouting, ‘i want to beg for her back’.
when sakusa realized suna was probably not going to answer, he ends it with a, “you should make up your mind.”
it was so simple.
make up his mind.
make a decision.
what did suna really want?
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❥ fun facts !
suna was gritting his teeth while texting atsumu (but he knew he really needed his help)
osamu and atsumu fought bc atsumu sent the screenshot and osamu said suna was forced into saying it so it wasn't counted.
sakusa got woken up by atsumu howling (laughter) because of suna's texts.
love sick ! a suna rintarou social media au
synopsis. cupid! calling cupid! as the resident matchmaker slash hopeless romantic of tokyo university, you are the person people look for to get love advice or to set them up with the love of their lives. when suna rintarou comes to you asking for the opposite, to help fend people away from trying to get with him, to the extremes of even asking to fake date you, you couldn't refuse! mostly because you did owe him since he was on the receiving end of a bunch of your clients’ unsuccessful love efforts (hey, you do warn them your matchmaking only has a 62.3% success rate).
a/n — sorry for the not weekend update guys. i started on it then i got distracted by haikyuu. i missed my babies so bad im so excited for the movie next year!! def gonna watch it in cinemas again.
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