#revs rambles

It was epic to see Pom-Pom not hesitating for a single second to have the Astral Express come blazing in at full speed.. until Asat Pramad caught it effortlessly and forcefully crashed it down to the ground. Real violent to witness and I can’t help but wonder how Pom-Pom managed to survive.. I think. They’re okay, right? Why do we never get to see our precious conductor in these cutscenes!

Mother, are you sure you’re not a Preservation pathstrider? You’re playing the role quite well, at least for a couple moments..

Bro what do you even do at this point, huh? Three giant attacks incoming from a lord ravager? Nah, I fear I’d accept my fate and burn to ashes.

MOM NO! Don’t look at me like that! I can accept death because of protagonist plot armor, but you certainly can’t with your deadly HI3 Chapter 9 curse!!

Actual fucking mood right here. I’m beyond panicked. We’re big time stressing over here!

Mother has several lasers of death aimed at her and yet she chooses to rush towards us instead to help calm down our stellaron from raging outta control.. oh Aeons. Doesn’t matter if we’ve already seen this moment during the 4.4 trailer, it’s bringing me close to tears. And Cia’s performance certainly isn’t helping me stay sane! Aahh, she’s so talented.. the emotion she conveys throughout this entire story mission is spot on.

No no no.. ma’am, as sweet as it is for you to protect me, I really don’t need to see that defeated look in your eyes! And hearing a soft, comforting “I’m here” when you’re five seconds way from collapsing doesn’t sooth me either!

Don’t say that. I’ll drag you back with me. I’m so serious right now, mom, I swear! This may just be a moment in my own head, but I’ll never let you go!

My memory is indeed the problem here, but when exactly did we learn Motoko’s name..? Or did I miss a readable somewhere perhaps? Regardless, I think it’s sweet how keeping Motoko’s name alive is like a way for her to continue her trailblaze journey alongside all of us. But um, I’m personally not fond of that last part there about traveling alone here, mom.. please say sike right now.

The noise I made when this moment popped up on screen is indescribable. I didn’t know whether to scream over how gorgeous Motoko is or cry because it seems to be her final moments. I’m in awe and my heart hurts.

Honestly, who or what is this moon shadow that granted Motoko the gift? Could it just be Aha disguised and that’s why Motoko didn’t recognize them? Or someone/something we haven’t met yet? We know Elation pathstriders, former and present, are no strangers to telling lies and disguising themselves. This shadow saying it was part compensation is still rattling around in my head too.

Ma’am, this gift of yours is granting her time. The one thing Himeko never had enough of because of the weathering curse.. that is by no means some “small” assistance! Especially at the cost of your own life, hello?? That’s everything!

I wanna lay on the floor and cry. Here I am, once thinking that our navigator (once believed to be an imagenae) wore this jacket all the time because that’s how Himeko drew her, but nope! Our navigator (the real one) wears it because it belonged to Motoko! Aahh.. I’m kinda upset that her Nova form doesn’t keep this exact one with how very special it is. Then again, I just know people would’ve complained Nova would’ve looked too similar to OG Himeko if Nova did have the jacket. Hell, people complain already the Nova form we have still looks too much like Himeko.. like, yeah, they’re the same character. Just like how there’s similarities between SW, Blade and their new forms. It’s kinda the whole point. Recognizable but improved.

Girl if you start crying, I’m gonna sob too. Oh, who am I kidding? I’m already there thanks to Cia. Hearing the switch between the comforting words of Motoko, still encouraging a heartbroken Himeko to continue both of their dreams while the former is seconds away from disappearing no matter how much the latter begs for her to stay is so darn good. Cis is beyond talented and we’re so lucky to have her.

The solution to Himeko surviving the weathering curse really was that simple, hm? To have Motoko take the burden away from her. I would’ve never thought of that.. I’m genuinely impressed. That bit about Destruction leaving permanent marks is true enough at least, such as Fugue’s flower scar on her right shoulder. Now that I think about.. is the sun tattoo on the side of Phainon’s neck a mark of Destruction too? I honestly can’t remember if we ever got lore about it. Anyways, it’s heartwarming to know that Himeko and Motoko both wanted each other to have a fulfilling life if the other couldn’t experience it. It’s just a real shame they couldn’t achieve their dreams together like they originally planned.

Ya wonder if these lines were the exact reason our Himeko was so ready to pass on her Trailblazing spirit to us when she was about to “die.”

Himeko really did her research about the Astral Express and Nameless when imagining Motoko, even including the official ticket on her outfit. I know it’s rare that we see different colors on the tickets, like Misha’s with the purple tip or Evernight’s inverted color scheme, but just for a moment, I’m gonna believe that Himeko chose red while drawing simply because it’s her color. I know majority of the tickets have red.. I’m just making myself more upset with these two women than I need to be okay?

My heart isn’t strong enough for this patch y’all.. getting the chance to live hour dream yet losing such a big part of yourself has gotta be completely devastating. I wanna hug her so badly! I was about to toss a stupid idea into the world, something along the lines of “oh, why doesn’t Himeko just recreate Motoko? we saw in 4.0 she still has the ability to control imagenesis,” til I remembered imagenae can’t survive outside Planarcadia. So nevermind.

Guys, Motoko didn’t even get to see the Express finally start up and depart after worming so hard to repair it.. oh no. At least, that’s how I think this is playing out in game.. because in the “Your Ending, My Beginning” trailer, Motoko is carrying Himeko onboard instead. I dunno which instance is more correct. Either way, I’m getting hella depressed over these two ladies. Also, that mention about becoming your own god? I dunno about that, but I swear, if Himeko Nova isn’t eventually confirmed a Trailblaze emanator at some point in time, I’ll genuinely be shocked. She’s the perfect candidate if one were to ever exist.. but I guess you can’t really become one if there’s no Aeon alive to gaze at you. I just crushed my hope in two seconds.

Nope. I’m gonna worry so very much. Do you really want to see me upset, mother? You should stay so I don’t become a puddle of tears on the ground.

Oh, too late, I really am crying right now. Awesome. The game is really going heavy on those tears too. Are they comically large because this is Planarcadia where everything is done for laughs? I remember March crying a bit during the 3.6 Trailblazer trio reunion but the tears themselves weren’t this obvious.

Alright, this is the moment that actually broke me. Himeko expressing her final wishes to all her fellow crew mates (it’s basically like her leaving a will! aaahh!) and the voice acting from both her and Stelle. Just.. oh my god. I gave myself emotional damage replaying the lines again because they were all delivered so well. I definitely shed a few tears here.

Thank heavens she actually included Sunday. After she went right from Welt to Pom-Pom, for a split second I feared she was gonna skip our halovian completely, but I should’ve know better. Our navigator truly cherishes all her companions. I’m still waiting for Sunny to get formally invited onto the Express as an official Nameless, Hoyo. I have many wild wishes for this game but this one seems the most practical to accomplish!

Noooo, not the depressing lines from the trailer! They hurt twice as much now after learning that Motoko left with similar words towards Himeko. Aaahhh I am NOT OKAY! Fake out death or not, Hoyo really knows how to tug at the heart strings. If anything, I love that Trailblazer seems just as upset as I feel and so unwilling to let Himeko go.

Please stooppp, oh my god, I can’t watch you cry too! I’m already an emotional wreck! Might as well just play Nightglow on full blast while you’re at it! Specifically Nick’s recent cover he did with Cia. Y’all should go watch it if you haven’t already. It was absolutely beautiful. I’m about to send them both my upcoming therapy bill.

still no idea on anatomy ik ima look back on this and be like “oooomg past me what were u doing bro what r those legs” and to her i say “hey man back off. remember we didn’t use any references. this is your fault too buck” and she will probably say “i hate you so much” and i will giggle and blow a kiss which she will crush in her hands. hello future me 👋 also genuinely i’m not gonna lie this took me *checks procreate* 6hrs and 52mins. xoxo.

i’m happy with how his head and face turned out, i feel like im finally getting my artstyle back which is so yaycore ❤️ i need to practice how to draw rocky lowk and also how to draw characters interacting, ive always had a problem w that lowk lowk lowk

did some experimenting and found that putting a sorta mid tone sorta-teal-sorta-cyan saturation layer over my drawing makes it look sooo yummy yummy yummy in my tummy tummy tummy 🤤🤤🤤 so i will be doing this henceforth my friends

also i had no idea what to make the bg so i just took a random photo of the hail mary and added lights, its probs a bit too blurry but at that point i was done drawing the part i gave a freak about (ryland) and so i sorta just wung it xx

GOOD GOD my artstyle is so different in each drawing ive posted 😭😭😭😭😭😭 kill me now genuinely OH WAIT I JUST REALISED WHY THIS LOOKS SO WEIRD!!! it looks like he’s not actually sitting whhhhoooopsies well im too lazy to go and fix it. it looks like he’s halfway-inbetween standing up UGH stupid stupid me whatever WHATEVER. we live and we learn!! i guess!!!!!!!!!

oh p.s here’s the pattern i used if u wanna make it urself :)

pattern is by u/silverc98 on reddit according to the tiktok post i saw 🫡 btw u need to increase on the first row of non-step-shaped stitches ok i suck at explaining, do ur increases on the red dots, (if there are two side by side, that makes ONE INCREASE, don’t do two increases right next to eachother, you put those two stitches into the same stitch- im making it worse, basically, don’t do two increases in a row, that’s where you have to put ur hook through both stitches and connect them via increase ok? ok ❤️) btw yes this is included in the stitching reference, but as someone who has never seen a pattern like this before, it’s not obvious when ur going in blind so im trying to make this really clear bc i was so confused at 8am

here’s the pattern NOT to use or else you’ll end up with whatever sad opposite-of-pangea-esque thing i made in my first attempt (tiktoker i got it off is credited on the photo):

family phm updates:

my brother liked it and wasn’t confused after watching (unlike the rest of us xx)

mum got to see the end finally YAY!!! she said the new zealand song they played was random which.. sighh ok mum okk… she also said she’s been telling my uncle to make my cousin watch phm every day since we first watched it which.. god bless her soul.

and my sister still hates eva stratt despite how hard i try and convince her otherwise !!! like not even in the “oh my god she’s a terrible person, she’s done such terrible things for humanity” way she straight up just hates stratt “she’s selfish!! ‘i am telling you this to make what comes next easier’ easier for WHO? she’s saying that so she can sleep at night!!” that what she said to me and i just … cause yeah she’s right lol but that’s what makes stratt so great!!!

i noticed more details this time round because i wasn’t crying the whole time (i was really excited to watch it the first time okay.) which was fuuuunnn