#relationship break

“No.” Jay challenged holding his ground and staring back at his brother. “I don’t like this, you’re sneaking out and coming back bruised. You’ve been lying to me, to our parents. We’re worried.” Jay said softly, but Morro’s face only stiffened.

“Did ma and pa ask you to follow me?”

“No. They wanted me to talk to you, they know you won't talk to them.”

“Oh, so being a creepy stalker was your idea?” Morro asked sarcastically. The edge to the question was as sharp like a knife. 

Jay bristled, “Well sorry that I’m concerned about you.”

“Oh quit it! I’m not interested in being your little fix it up project. I’m doing fine, I am fine. So there. You can leave me be!” Morro turned to only be stopped by Jay’s grip on his wrist.

“I’m not sorry that I’m worried. Especially since you’ve been lying to me!” Jay raised his voice, anger seeping into his voice. “I’m trying here, and you’re making this more difficult than it needs to be!”

“Difficult?” Morro muttered, still not facing his twin. “You’re here, trying to ruin what I’ve got, so you can be overbearing and pretend to care. And you’re complaining I’m the one being difficult?”

“I do care.”

“Then why won't you leave me be, huh?” Morro asked, turning his head to stare at Jay with one poisonous green eye. “I’ve got good things going on, and just cause I don't want you to ruin it-

“Ruin it-?

“Doesn’t mean I’M SPIRALING AGAIN!” Morro screamed, turning to face Jay.

“WELL, IT LOOKS LIKE IT TO ME!” Jay cried back.

“YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!" Morro raged, getting in Jay's face. "YOU’RE NOT ME! JUST BECAUSE WE’RE TWINS DOESN’T MEAN YOU KNOW ME! THAT YOU CARE ABOUT ME!”

“OF COURSE I DO! WHO ELSE WOULD!?” Jay screamed, neither of them noticing that the wind picked up during their argument, smelling strongly of ozone. “YOU’RE AN IMMATURE, LAZY, PROCRASTINATOR. WHO'S BROKEN EVERY PROMISE YOU’VE MADE TO ME! I’M SURPRISED YOU CAN EVEN KEEP A FRIEND! MAYBE IT'S FITTING YOU’RE FRIENDS WITH THE SCHOOLS REJECTS!!” He spat, not noticing the small gasps from the other's behind him.

"REALLY?!" Morro scowled, pushing Jay roughly to the ground. “YOU’RE GONNA TALK SHIT ABOUT ME?! WHEN YOUR THE PRETENTIOUS ASSHOLE PERFECTIONIST WHO WANTS DESPERATELY TO BE EVERYONE'S FRIEND?! I’M SURPRISED THAT SKYLOR AND ASH HAVE STUCK WITH YOU SO LONG!! IS IT CAUSE THEY’RE STILL COPYING OFF YOUR HOMEWORK? OR DO THEY JUST LIKE YOU KISSING THEIR ASSES!?” 

Suddenly a crack of thunder and a the screaming wind broke through, pausing their fight as the skies opened and it began to pour down on them.

Morro stared up at the sky, face contorted in rage as if the storm had personally slighted him. “I hate you.” He whispered, barely audible over the wind. His face felt hot, and he wasn't sure if it was tears falling down his face or if it was rain.

He looked down to see Jay wipe his face, from rain or tears he couldn’t tell either. “Glad the feelings mutual,” He croaked as he picked himself up off the ground and turned to leave. Jay didn't look back, not that Morro saw. As he also turned around and pushed past his friends into the warehouse to get out of the rain.

Anna said that this year was really bad and rough for her, and that she needs to take time to figure herself out outside of relationships and sex. She said right off the bat that while she goes through this, she wants to stay really close friends with Ash and I (platonically). But she also said that when she feels right at some point in the future, she doesn't know if she'll want to get back together again. We both told her that we would like to have a romantic relationship again in the future if it was an option, but we would both not want to put any expectations on her with what she wants and such.

She reassured us that nothing with the break has to do with our triad being bad, as she really loved how well we communicated, paced it, and just connected really. I said that I would be here for her if she needed any kind of emotional support regardless of how she wants the future to look, and both Ash and I said that we would wait for her to be ready for a non platonic relationship if that's what she wanted. I told her that I would always be around to hear and listen to her, and not place any expectations on how the relationship should look. I did however mention that I still have strong intimate feelings for her (and I'm guessing it's reciprocal because of how sad and emotional it was for her to do this) and that I would still have them for a long time, which she said she was okay with knowing. She has not said that she wants it to be a break up though, but at the same time I don't know what this break could mean for her. She's been pretty friendly and talkative when she can after the break, which I think is a good sign.

Ash has been really understanding about all of this, but I can tell she's processing it in her own way, but I digress.

I'm kind of torn about to do for the future. I want to be involved in her life and make she is safe and happy still, but I don't know what I should feel until then (whenever that is) because I'm really hurt. With how well we were doing, how well paced and open it was, it was very heartbreaking with how sudden and emotional the break was. I want to support her so much through this, but I'm worried it'll get more difficult as time goes on. I really want to be considerate and prepared for the future no matter how she wants to proceed, but my own biases and emotions are tough right now. I want what's best for her though, no matter what.

Sorry for the long read, but I would really appreciate if you have any tips for this, with what you've heard and read from others, and your own opinions. Thank you so very much, and I again hope that you're well!

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My heart goes out to you, anon.

Right off the bat, I am not the best at dealing with breaks, relationship dynamic changes, relationship redefinitions, breakups, and so on. So take my advice with a pinch of salt.

It’s okay to have whatever feelings you have. And it’s okay to have multiple or even contradictory feelings.

This year is tough on all of us and it brings out all kinds of insecurities and demons in our brains (mine included). It is sadly impossible to know what Anna is thinking, and you are right that you should not pressure her to reveal it.

There is nothing you can do for now but being kind. She did not point out any flaws, so there is nothing to reflect on or try to improve for now.