#rejectcorner

The feeling comes when you realize you tried your best and they found someone else anyways, when you gave all that you had to offer and it still wasn’t enough to make them stay, when they use to tell you they loved your dimples and the gold in your hair and the way you laughed at that show you always watched together on tv, when you look back and remember the parts of you that you spent time teaching them about, all of your favorite things, all of your nightmares, all of your memories, and not a single piece of you was compelling enough for them to say 'yes, I want this, this is where I belong' the way you had been doing the whole time.

i feel so silent so sick and tired of feeling down about the things i cannot control it feels like people hide their happiness away from me in their tiny corners, scared to lose it and i of all people know how precious it is but happiness is meant to be shared, meant to uplift those around you who have been knocked down by life, time and time again, it is not a commodity for you to take control of, it is fleeting, flitting around from master to master, refusing to be locked in cages by people too timid to let it free into the world. please, won’t you share your happiness with me? lift the burdens weighing me down, take away the second guessing and just let me be here in this moment, not stuck in the past or in the uncertain future, but fully here i promise i won’t cage it, i will watch it fly in wonder, admiring its wildness, its rarity, its peace, and i will shed tears of joy as i watch it leave me when its time, soaring above, searching for the next person, who deserves its sight. oh happiness fly    fly        fly            fly                fly                    fly                       away.

burned out burned in the flames of my own doing - from turning the gears in my mind too much, never letting them rest burning the midnight oil, no refills, no breaks, no fucking mistakes, gotta reach the end no matter what shakes, turning, turning, burning, burning, always on fire, but never alive i’m burned out.