#regulus star

And I try to understand why you would do this all to me

You must be insecure, you must be so unhappy

Purebloods family has been one of the rarest and weirdest family lines yet. Insetual relationships to keep the bloodline pure. But with remarkable generations dating back to where ancestors built and shaped the magical world of England.

You were part of the purebloods. Your family was tight knit with the Blacks. You have known Regulus ever since you were kids..

You knew following the toxic idealogy running in the family was gonna kill you one day. And the only person who could ever understand that was Regulus.

You suggested running away before. Forgetting everything.. leaving your life.. into a muggle world where it's hard to track.. but on the night where you two had planned for a while for it, he ratted you out.

You knew he was scared. But you never thought he would ever do this.. he was the only person you ever trusted then.

You were disowned by your own family. No amount of sorry ass they could ever accept to take you back anyway.

During winter breaks, you'll stay in Hogwarts. And summer breaks you'll roam the streets in the muggle world, getting a summer job at some rundown diner and earning not much muggle money, to at least have a roof over your head in a sketchy dark motel.

You were tortured and taunted in school. Especially in your own house. The one that used to be warm and lovely now feels cold and scary.

It's not like anyone really noticed you. You barely had any friends but Pandora and Regulus. But you could never tell Pandora the sick torment they put you through when she's back in her own common room.

You could see it in Regulus that he never thought it would go that far.

Every time Lucius pulled at your hair in the hallways, when Bellatrix pinched you, or when Mulciber would humiliate you or make weird lewd comments.

But he stayed quiet. He never spoke out about it.

Though, one night was special. For them. It was almost winter break, most professors guards were down, ready for school break.

Your shoes clacked against the cold stone stairs as you walked back in the astronomy tower.

You had found a letter in your locker, from Regulus. You had heavily debated on whether you should've gone. If he wanted to reconcile or.. have ill intent.

Though it would be the latter.

As you stepped into the familiar tower, where you once shared whispered so dearly. And where the stars looked the best.

Standing there were two shadow figures.

"Well.. surprised you even came." Bellatrix's shrilly voice rang in your ear.

"Is this a joke?"

"No? We just want to talk."

"I don't wanna talk to you."

"Oh so you wanna die?"

"what are you even talking about?"

Narcissa cut in, escalating the situation.

"Listen. The Dark Lord is starting recruitment again. It's either you join us or you'll have nothing of yourself yet. We don't want anything to do with you. But..— whatever. It's just a warning."

"So you can spread your stupid propaganda? I'd rather die than join your disgusting fetish ideology."

"You watch your fucking mouth." Bellatrix yelled, pointing straight at you.

"You shut your fucking mouth!"

Then, she slapped you. A sharp sting on your face. Triggering your instincts you slapped her back.

For a second, it was silent. Like time had stopped.

Then her wand shot at you.. an incantation spread from her mouth. "Diffindo!"

You writhed in pain as you held your eye. You were bleeding. She had cast a tear spell on your face.. that directly hit your eye. Causing a long deep gash from your left eyebrow slanted to the corner of your right mouth.. it was horrendous.

"What did you do?" Narcissa shrieks in horror.

"Do you know how much trouble we'll be in?"

Bellatrix just stared at her. A mocking smug smile on her face. She casted the Fidelius Charm on you.

You lied. You had to. You got mauled by some weird animal and Madame Pomfrey would lecture you in response.

The torment was hell. The humiliation. The lies. It feels like you were going to throw it all up.

You laid in the white hospital bed for the winter. It was so lonely. No one ever came into the hospital wing during winter break. Who even gets sick during Christmas?

It was useless. You can't fight back. You couldn't tell anyone. You were blind in one eye. You had no friends. You're not smart. You're wounded and ugly. Everyone you had was gone..

Sobbing into night was no use. No one was coming to save you.

It hurts when you cry too. It's hell. Everything is hell. This numbness is like a beast taking over you.

Your dorm room was quiet. Empty. All your dormmates left for winter break.

You fell into winter depression. The worst one of all. It felt like there was nothing to chase for anyways.

Strolling up into the astronomy tower. You could see memories flashing in your mind. The same Regulus Black, who smiled so sweetly and laughed at your jokes.. holding your hand in the cold was not here anymore.

You felt angry. Confused. You're just so angry.

You were doing good. Leaving into paradise. If he wasn't scared this would never happen. It stung. Your heart was slowly ripping apart.

The start is always the same in the end.

As you held out your wand, and one Avada Kedavra and you were gone. Lifeless.

Death feels like peace. At least for you now. That was the only way you went for the pain you went through.

Now your body was just waiting for someone to notice. Rotting physical after so long.

And I know, in my heart, hurt people hurt people.

And we both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal