#regular perspective

Everyone has their own unique style. Style can mean many different things; it could relate to fashion to the way that you drive your car. It’s unique to you, and should never be influenced by anyone else.

So, why are we so influenced by everyone else? I’m currently shopping for clothes for a holiday. I’m going to Paris, and want to fit into the Parisian style, so I’m going for tailored shirts, skinny jeans, big bags and chelsea boots.

Now why do I feel the need to buy fancy clothes? I’m influenced by what people will think when they see me. I want people to think I’m well-dressed, wealthy and that I have a good sense of style.

Influences on style come from everywhere, but are especially prominent from other people. You can be challenged and judged by everyone on many, many different things. 

It’s just an observation; something I’m hoping to work on getting past.

Do you listen to music every day? It’s something I can’t get through a day without. As soon as I wake up I wack something on! When I’m in work, the radio is playing all the time. Whenever I’m in the car, I never drive without music playing either through my phone or radio. 

It makes things better. I find it speeds things up, makes things brighter and puts a smile on my face.

I suggest you listen to happy music every day. It could change your perspective on life.

People say you should live without regret. You should do exactly what you want, when you want, where you want, without worrying about it or feeling guilty. But realistically, can you live that life?

I gave up swimming years ago; it was my favourite thing in the world. I was really, really good at it. I swam competitively, and with a local swimming club. It was fantastic.

One of my biggest regrets is stopping. I was scared that I wasn’t getting anywhere with it, and ended up leaving the club and not going back.

I broke up with boyfriend prematurely, in the fear that he was going to do it first, and was I fuck going to let him hurt me like that. Turns out neither of us actually wanted to break-up with the other. But i did it anyway. It’s another massive regret of mine.

Regrets are there to help you learn from your mistakes. Can you really live a life without regret? People say you should live without regret, but I think it’s make me who I am.

We should all drink more water. It’s good for your skin, body, general health and makes you feel more awake!

I drink a lot of squash, and fizzy drinks. It’s not great. I mean, my skin is pretty clear, but it could be even more clear if I just controlled my diet, as a whole, a little better.

I’m starting a health kick. I’m going to Paris in a few weeks, and I need to make sure I don’t look like a whale in skinny jeans and chelsea boots.

Drink more water people. It’s good for you.

Isn’t it strange the profound effect alcohol can have on you? My truest, deepest inhibitions tend to come out to play when I’ve had a couple of drinks.

Tonight for example, I’ve had a bottle of wine. Now, I’m 6ft 8′ and well built, it takes a lot more than a bottle of wine to get me drunk, but I’m getting there.

I now want to text my ex-boyfriend. A lot. Tell him that even though it’s been a year and half, I still can’t get him out of my head.

Normally, I go about daily life without even a slight knowledge of his existence. But as soon as I’ve had a drink - all I can think about is him.

It’s like when someone tells you not to press the red button. YOU WANT TO PRESS THE RED BUTTON.

I currently hate my job. I’m not earning enough to move out of my parents house, and I’m not earning enough to become independent. 

I currently hate my job.

So I’m starting to look at other jobs. So far, I’ve looked at Calvin Klein, Hugo Boss, All Saints, River Island, Topman, NewLook, H&M and a load of other retail stores. I’ve looked at the Universities of: Swansea, Cardiff, Manchester, Liverpool, Brighton, Bristol, Bath, Edinburgh for admin support roles. And then I found this...

The Managing Director of Gleam Futures has a LinkedIn profile; which stated that there are Personal Assistant positions at their London office. 

That right there is my dream job. It’s the gateway in PR that I’ve always wanted. I could do that. That could be me. I could be it. 

Problem is, it’s a dream job. A. Dream. Job. A. Dream. 

Dreams don’t come true, unless you’re a Disney Princess. It’s not how it works. 

My other options are to become a DrugLord or win the lottery. 

If you go onto any clothing website, or online-shop and have a look at the latest men’s collection, you will notice that there is a large range of bags that a gentleman can buy. 

Now. I love bags. I have many, many, MANY bags. They’re particularly useful for school etc etc etc.

Today I went shopping and went round a few places to hand in my CV for jobs. I packed my Zara bag, as usual and went on my way.

When I arrived I freaked out about taking my bag with me into the places I wanted to work. ‘What if they think I’m girly?’ ‘What if they think I’m too gay?’ ‘What if they judge me?’.

The bottom line is, I became so hyper-aware of the fact that carrying a bag as a 22 year old male constitutes negative thoughts from other people, that I psyched myself out.

I had the perfect outfit, and the bag was a part of that. However, I lost all confidence in myself for the fear of being judged by other people.

It’s becoming another hurdle for me to get past; what other people think doesn’t matter! It shouldn’t matter. It will matter for the rest of my life, but I’m hoping I’ll one day carry my beautiful Zara man-bag with pride.

Don’t worry about what other people think. Just do what makes you happy.