#reeveposting

First of all, for me, exomemories are memories that represent a sort of "past life" that was lived by an alter before becoming a part of a system/splitting.

With exomemories, there's times that exotrauma is also present. Exotrauma is trauma that was experienced in this sort of "past life".

Exotrauma is also most of the time, a reflection of the experiences and/or feelings that were physically experienced in the life of the system. It's a way for the brain to process the stuff it went through.

In my case, exomemories feel foggy, i used to remember more about my life, but then, i started forgetting before coming back from dormancy.

I remember a few things about my father, in my memories, he wasn't a bad guy or anything, but i have a feeling that that wasn't all to it, that there is stuff he did to me that was wrong. This is were Dexter and X take place in the story.

X is the alter that has the most control over the system, but he never fronts, he's only present in the innerworld, he can control who has the memories and he is mostly considered "emotionless", this is part of his role, as he has all the knowledge about our trauma. X made Dexter hold MY memories. So it knows the things i don't remember.

- Reeve (he/him)

Reeve (he/him)

Exactly! And it's also weird because that's the same thing that happened to me, except it's Sam who has my memories. We personally don't know nor understand completely the reasoning behind X, but it is easy to assume it was to lower the impact of the memories, i have the memories of Reeve because for me, they aren't "real" and Sam has MY memories because for him, they also aren't "real". I have gotten many clues as to what our trauma is (because i don't have those memories) thanks to Reeve's exomemories and exotrauma. So it's safe to say that exomemories are a useful way for the brain to better understand what it went through, through someone else's eyes.

- Dexter (it/its)

As you might have seen in our pinned post; these userboxes are present:

(made by @/plural-userboxes)

This is a wonderful topic that i find interesting, specially hearing all of us talk about our different experiences!

Let's start with questions so each alter can explain their perspective and share their experience!

How do you label your physical non-humanity?

Dexter: I don't label it, i just call myself a shapeshifter and i don't even do it that much.

Sam: I also don't label it, because i don't personally feel like common descriptors work for me. I'm simply an irl god.

Reeve: Unlike the others, i do label it. I call myself a werewolf holothere.

How do you explain your physical non-humanity?

Dexter: Because of my role and experiences in life, i have came to become a shapeshifter (for convenience, but i also enjoy it).

Sam: I was born and will always be a god in all aspects, my soul and body are those of a god.

Reeve: I simply am, don't really have a cool explanation for my physical non-humanity.

How does being a physical non-human relate to being part of a system?

Dexter: I feel like i am a shapeshifter BECAUSE i am an alter in a system.

Sam: I feel like i chose to be in this system for some reason, and that i'm actually not an alter, but rather here because i chose it.

Reeve: I don't think they relate or affect eachother. I'm a werewolf, i'm also part of a system and that's it.

How does your physical non-humanity work when you are fronting?

Dexter: Nothing happens, i'm only a shapeshifter when i'm in the headspace.

Sam: Since my soul is fully one of a god, and only my body in-system is that of a god, when i front, the body becomes a container of my soul and godness.

Reeve: I don't see the body as mine, so i'm a werewolf, but the body isn't.

How does your physical non-humanity work when others are fronting?

Dexter: I'm a shapeshifter whenever i'm in the headspace, so it doesn't change.

Sam: I am a god temporarily inhabiting the mind and body of someone else.

Reeve: Still a werewolf, nothing changes.

Do you believe your soul is non-human? How does that work with being part of a system?

Dexter: I believe my soul is non-human, but it is nowhere related to being a system or a shapeshifter, it simply is.

Sam: I do believe my soul is one of a god, everything about me has to do with being a god, my soul is no different, and as i said, i am a god living here temporarily

Reeve: I don't personally believe i have a soul.

For context, we are Mexican and our native language is Spanish, but we also speak English fluently.

For me, it's like knowing English (our second language) is an on and off button. I normally speak Spanish, but I can choose to "activate" knowing English, which is something that doesn't happen to anyone else in the system, everyone knows English and Spanish, but I can choose when to know English, wich is pretty interesting.

Does this happen to anyone else?

- Reeve (he/him)