#reeseremembers

-coughs-

It was amazing- more than amazing. Amazing doesn’t do it justice. It was so much more, so so much more, I just cant describe it. Beautiful, heartbreakingly so, and so damn frustrating that most of the time I want to throw my phone across the room because oh my fucking zeros how could they be so...mean to Reese? I mean, I know he’s an ass, but why cant they just fucking see past the asshole personality and just SEE who he is????? Somebody besides the princess needs to see and im just yelling at them and crying

Like, Yumi, how can you not see???? You have fought Reese, fought with Reese, seen him fight the Ulrich clone, had a halfway decent conversation with him and how?? CAN??? YOU?? NOT?? SEE?? Have your emotions clouded you that much, Yumi????

Okay, I know thats not just it, Reese’s low blows about Ulrich are way harsh and deep for example, but it feels like it sometimes. I literally want to slap her sometimes, shake her, scream. But I wont. I can see she’s right to feel they way she does.

Plus, Yumi is a badass. She’ll obliterate me. I won’t stand a chance.

But still.

And Odd. Please Odd. I love Odd. I am  forever grateful for him just to exist. But Odd. He’s your best friend. He is your room mate. You have no idea of the situation you are in and its just so....UHG.  

At least he’s doesnt treat Reese any differently than anyone else.

Speaking of...

Jeremie. Fucking Jeremie. Never before have I ever wanted to punch him so bad. I know he’s not beyond sulking for days and holding a grudge, but to do that to Aelita just....GAH. CHILD. IS THIS WHAT ARROGANCE IS.

No. Bad. Go stand in a corner until you feel like being more...whatever. I don’t know. Just go. I am mad at you nerdy child.

But Holy Marshmallows, bless Aelita. If it weren’t for her knowing I think I would have stopped reading out of sheer fangirling rage. And she does so much for Reese and everyone no matter the cost to her its so sad but so amazing and awesome and....you know what, promote the princess. Aelita is now a fucking queen.

 And Vivi. Oh Vivi. SHe is....I dont’ know. I cant think of a way to describe her. A lifeline, a tether, a ray of sunshine in the deepest of caves. It sounds so fucking cheesy but those are what come to mind and I won’t take them back. She’s so uplifting and grounding at the same time and shes only six dammit i just want to hug her and love her like she deserves to be loved because she is so precious. I was crying my eyes out in INVINCIBLE and screaming unrepeatable things in ANTIPATHY because of this child. 

I need the gang to kiss and make up, then adopt her as the group child to love and raise. Yumi would be the older sister that teaches her to fight and how to put on make up, Jeremie would be that strict older brother that keeps her in line but secretly gives her candy when no one is looking, Aelita would be the one she’d go to vent to or just sit and be calm with and maybe braid each others hair and knit bright colored whatevers, Odd would be the one to connect and grow with her crazy creative side and teach her how to ride a skate board and agree to go through with all her ideas that will no-doubt get them both in trouble, and Reese will just be there for her, whenever she needs him, willing to do anything for her, ANYTHING, no matter what, and its just so damn precious how close they are I need.

I need a family au now. Fuck.

NOw Reese. Reese Anders. I don’t know what i can say about him that’ll be enough. I want to hit him, thats for sure. FOr more than one reason. And he so deserves it. But at the same time I want to take him and wrap him up in a blanket and just keep him safe cause he needs to be safe but this kind of safe isn’t the kind he needs. He needs his family- His actual family. Plus one. He needs to be happy. He needs people to figure it out, to accept him again.

My heart breaks for him, and I cry for him, but he is strong and good and i have faith in him and hope for him. Things will work out.

His father could dangle over an acidic volcano willed with poisoned spikes and spiders by a thread and id not feel bad to let him fall though. Not even Virus and Trip get that treatment, so please know that this is as harsh as i could be. I would not save him.

But Reese might. Would he? This question bothers me now.

I should probably stop ranting now. This is getting long, probably too long. ANd my post-fic adrenaline rush is fading fast and words are mixing in a jumbled mess and i shouldve been asleep hours ago but hey whats work this is so worth it. I dont regret reading this. Im happy I did. This fic changed a royally crappy day into a great one over the span of a few hours and I shall hold this tangle of emotions and feelings and hopes and fears it has given me tightly and close to me for as long as i can, eagerly awaiting future chapters.