#rededicated

Groves Feels at His Best, Rededicated, Aims To Handle Eubank

By Nick Parkinson, courtesy of The Daily Star

GEORGE GROVES is back in love with boxing – and thinks that means heartache for Chris Eubank Jnr.    The WBA world champion makes a second defence in the World Boxing Super Series semi-final at the Manchester Arena on Saturday.

And if he beats Brighton boaster Eubank then Groves will face Callum Smith or Juergen Braehmer, who fight on February 24, in…

I’ve done it before. I feel like I’ve gone to God and said, “I’m here, please reveal yourself to me.”

And He did because when you seek Him, He will be found. I saw amazing sides of God that left me in awe. I was renewed in my faith and I felt good .. until .. *dun da dum!!!*

Things would happen because this is life .. pshh. I’d find myself in places where I couldn’t pray as freely as I would like to, and I’d allow that to take me off track.

Or, I’d get emotionally troubled to the point where I couldn’t pray anymore and I just couldn’t find it in me to TRY. Those days, I’d just say, “Lord, I don’t even .. I can’t even so I won’t even.” I’d stop praying and try to “deal with it myself”. As if that’s even possible. Suffice to say, that only left me feeling worse and depressed. I didn’t like to think about God because I felt like I was a heathen! Hmm. Then I’d realise I can’t do this without him and ask Him to reveal Himself to me. I sought, and I found Him.

Now, though, I feel like I’ve seen Him, seen His glory, His grace, His goodness .. HIM! And yet .. I still feel so far away. I felt like even when I prayed I was doing it just as a ritual. Something I had to do. Like I was giving Him lip service and I know God isn’t impressed by that so I’d just say .. well, I’ll pray when “I feel it”

Feel what exactly?

His presence.

But God is ALWAYS with you.

But I still don’t “feel it” and I’ve felt it before so I know it can be done!

I had to think back to when I’d felt it. I had actually given myself time to BE with God. I read the Bible, I meditated, I sought.

That’s what I’d do. I’d seek Him. But something has got to be different this time. I can’t “lose” Him as easily as I have before. Something has to be different. In the past, “time” had taken away from my dedication to God. Depression had taken away from my dedication, problems I thought I could “handle”. Seeking Him for the wrong reasons had taken me away from truly worshipping Him.

So what had to get different this time? Me. I had to decide.

And decide I did.

This time, I’ll seek Him for Him. Just Him. I want to know Him. I want to be in love with Him. I want to be engulfed in His love. I want to be passionate about HIM! I want HIM. I want to worship Him without fear. I just want Him.

I’ve decide not to ask for anything. (although I have needs, which I am confident He will meet). I won’t ask for anything but HIM.

I want to know what it is to be in love with Him and this time I won’t lose Him. I won’t let anything that happens in my life, or whatever I’m going through to take me away from Him. That’s all I’ll ask for, that He keep me dedicated and focused on Him and Him alone.