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0 2 . 5 6 p m / / l u n c h . • super freaking terrifying lunch while doing christmas 🎄 shopping 🛒 we went to @thecosyclub and I got the hummus, roasted red pepper, spinach and tomato 🍅 tapenade panini 🥪 I could’ve had it with a safe salad 🥗 but fuck that, I had sweet potato 🍠 fries 🍟 because I fucking love them! I managed to eat all the fries 🍟 but was way too full to eat all the panini 🥪 and only had 3/4 of it. that’s okay, though! I ate until I was full and didn’t force myself to finish which would have made me poorly and feel guilty. • also 2 more huge things: today I ordered something that wasn’t water to drink for the first time in several years! I ordered freaking cranberry juice 🥤 and it was great! I also haven’t counted calories or hardly thought about needing to counting them all day! • #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #miarecovery #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #recovery #recoveryrecord #vegan #thecosyclub

1 1 . 2 4 a m / / b r e a k f a s t . • feeling so much better after a day of rest ☺️ so ready to get out and do stuff! this morning I had so much fuel ⛽️ for the day! I had a big bowl of mini chocolate 🍫 chip weetabix, banana 🍌 and raspberries in soya milk 🥛 • #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #miarecovery #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #recovery #recoveryrecord #vegan

So, last Week, I sided on doing a Screening on NEDA’s Website. I’m Grateful that I truly have Friends who care, otherwise, I was headed down a path of a full Relapse. I downloaded the App, Recovery Record, and it’s keeping me Accountable. You guys know who you are!!!! #NEDA #NEDAwareness #NEDAScreeningTool #ScreeningTool #RecoveryRecord #EatingDisorderRecovery #Freedom https://www.instagram.com/p/B-8n04Snibc/?igshid=y4v0e8d1tpx

CW/TW: eating disorder talk, bulimia & binge eating disorder mention below . . . . . This isn’t something I’d normally be so open about because of shame as it’s a private struggle I’ve dealt with for 25 years but don’t “look the part”. But that’s the thing, eating disorders don’t all look the same & if this can help future people, it’s worth doing & discussing. 
I was one of 1,000 with a long eating disorder history chosen to take part in a research study for people struggling with bulimia nervosa and binge eating disorder (since they often coexist). I was sent an Apple Watch to use with the app Recovery Record. It’s an app that I’ve been using on & off for the last 6-7 years & love. I have to fill the tube with saliva & use the uBiome kit to mail both back (so much for never giving away my DNA lol) & then track my urges, feelings, & behaviors as it relates to bulimia/binge eating for 30 days. Since most will be tracked through the watch, when the data is analyzed it’ll also look at other factors to look for patterns & trends for future treatments. 
I’m honored to have been chosen to help because this is an issue that’s so important to me but that I don’t feel comfortable being open about because of the preconceived notions about what someone with an ED looks like. But the struggle & feelings are still there so I’m glad I can contribute to something positive even if it’s hard to talk about. Please be kind. #researchstudy #eatingdisorderstudy #uncschoolofmedicine #recoveryrecord #eatingdisorderawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/B8wrkKUD9xO/?igshid=uollki4axf29

0 9 . 4 7 a m / / b r e a k f a s t . • still feeling a little down but I’m hoping it’ll start picking up now as I finally have a day off to rest 😴 this morning I had vanilla porridge 🥣 topped with banana 🍌 and frozen raspberries ☺️ • #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #miarecovery #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #recovery #recoveryrecord #vegan

0 9 . 3 3 a m / / b r e a k f a s t . • feeling super poorly and worn down today 😔 but otherwise okay. breakfast was the same as yesterday (warm cinnamon and banana 🍌 porridge 🥣 with raisins) but I switched the almond butter for a dollop of crunchy peanut 🥜 butter 😋 forgot how much I love peanut 🥜 butter! • #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #miarecovery #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #recovery #recoveryrecord #vegan

0 5 . 5 6 p m / / d i n n e r . • class went so well! I talked to a lot of people, had a lot of fun drawing 🎨 and overall really nice. I’m struggling a little because I’m not used to these kinds of lessons but I’ll get there! I’m also now a freaking step-auntie now and my niece is so cute and it makes me want to die how much I love her already. • anyway! a good day and a tired 😴 me deserved a treat so I ate an entire bag of quorn nuggets for dinner 😂 no guilt from me today! • #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #miarecovery #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #recovery #recoveryrecord #vegan

0 7 . 0 0 p m / / d i n n e r . • two big meals in one day 😣 feeling a little wobbly but it’s okay - this is good. today I had a @lindamccartneyfoods pie 🥧 with peas, broccoli 🥦 and cauliflower. • #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #miarecovery #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #recovery #recoveryrecord #vegan