#rainy week

Not only is it raining here today, it’s supposed to be raining all week. No pretty sunrise for you guys. 😐

While I was at the grocery store yesterday I was looking over the spareribs. I really wanted to make some slow smoked baby back ribs but I need a day with no rain and light winds. I guess I will have to just wait. 😤

I have a little fertilizer in the shed and I need to get some on a couple spots that need help where the giant tree was dug out last year. This is a good week to get that done.

Tell me, do you ever miss me when I'm gone? Wonderin' what body I'll be on We can reconsider if you want Baby, don't forget about me ever

why did i let them belittle me? why did i let myself destroy me? why did i let my thoughts be ahead of me? why am i listening to my harsh inner critiques? why did i do this and those? why?

and you know the answers why. you just can't seem to accept or comprehend it. so you're just there sitting on your bed. maybe now you have put on your earphones and played some emo lullaby or better yet, you dozed it off. because then you can forget and wake up to another numbing day.